I feel so happy today because finally I made friends here in read.cash. I approached her gently and she responded to me so nicely. She even introduce me to her group friends in Telegram. Actually, I'm still adjusting using the platform because it was different in nose.cash. But day by day as I read tons of articles, I realised that people really have stories to tell. Each one of us has story that the world deserves to hear or read. Your story deserved to be read.

I'm gonna talk about our dark experiences in life. I know some of you may skip this because they don't want to remember the horrible and chilling experiences they had done through. But I see this as an opportunity to make a call that it's okay to release and talk about our dark experiences.

You may not know that most people really ignored the topic or very hesitatant to speak because they might spill something that they will regret. Or they are afraid that people may judge them and brand them because of their past.

Let me define these two words - shadows and past.

Shadows are the dark material that produces through light. It was the part where light was blocked and produce the so called shadows.

Pasts are the previous experiences and events we had in time. Pasts carry various emotions, feelings and learnings. Past is the word we used to understand the person's history. Yes, past is history. History of a person, animals, events, things, countries and even our world.

What are the dark experiences that I don't want to look back?

Bullied

Many years ago, it happened when I was in second grade. I can describe myself as responsible, neat, clean and active student. During discussions, I never missed to participate in classes because I feel like I can answer all questions. I'm a person who adapts to things easily and fast. That's why when I was young, I look like a nerd. Nerdie Denn.

One time, after our class was done and I'm having my lunch in our classroom. One of my classmates approached me with fiery eyes. He was like a monster that will grab my neck and crack it anytime. He sat beside me and tell exactly these words "Sakin na yang pagkain mo nerdie Denn" in English "Your food is mine now, nerdie Denn". He grabbed my food and ran away. That was the very first I was bullied in school. Although he didn't hurt me physically, but the trauma I got from that was extreme. I was afraid of bringing foods in school since then because I was paranoid that someone will steal it from me.

Bike accident

The same year, I had a bike accident with my father. My father likes to ride me to school because I was the first child my parents had. They both loved me and spoiled me in some things. Not spoiled brat. Every morning my mother prepared my meal and my school uniform. It was so good to smell because of fabric conditioner (Downy) and was ironed well.

We lived in farm. I had a great experiences in farming and herding animals. I had special bonds to plants whenever I plotted them with my own two hands. One time, when are are not far away with our house. My father was riding me in his bike to send me to school. One of my foot accidentally entered the small hole in front of bike wheel. We immediately fell from our bike, and because the road was quite high because its farm. We stumbled like 1 and half meter deep. My father hugged me; covering my head. I was safe but received some bruises. On the other hand, my father had bruises and deep wounds in his eyelids. We're both send to hospital after we were found. My father undergone surgery and wasn't able to use his left eye.

What to do to face our dark past?

• Accept the facts that it happened. It may happened internationally, accidentally or just by coincidence. Learning to accept is to give refreshment to our soul that we are starting to move on and let ourselves be freed in the dark chain

• Learn the cause. Learning the root cause of our dark past enable our mind to concentrate and stabilise our worries. Some dark past really are so bad that a person wanted it to be buried in the deepest hole in his head. But I think learning the cause will help us understand the situation and chop it all to not let it happen again.

• Seek help if possible. Seek help to others who had done through what we experienced will help us to face our dark past. They will give you insights on how you will fight it and transform it as a normal and ordinary past without fear.

The most important learning you will have is from your dark past. It will teach you another level of knowledge that is incomparable to others.

Let your dark past be the source of another light that will brighten your life in every corner.

May you find peace and rest in all fears, worries and sadness you've done through.

Appreciation

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Published Date: 23rd of January 
Author: Dennosaur
Article No.: 5th this January 

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