How important is it to reassess yourself after an exhausting day?

Perhaps, some of you are already tired of reading, working, and studying now. Well, can we just be honest for this time and admit we are just so tired? Lately, I do not want to complain about having this kind of life because I believe that it is still a blessing and I have to bear with it. There are a lot of youths out there who haven’t been given as much attention and opportunity to study as mine. However, the more I realized the reality and my situation, the more I saw that I’m suffering from it. Not totally suffering, but I want to take a break for a few moments because I really have to, no, we really need to.

I want to be honest with you, who is reading my blog today, and with me. Lately, my sleeping pattern was messed up severely and I didn’t know what to do anymore. As much as I wanted to sleep more, my eyes and mind wandered too many things that were happening to me. These past few days, I slept around 11 pm and eventually will wake up around 2 am. After I woke up, I couldn’t get back to sleep anymore. I tried everything that is usually effective for me but the situation is way different now. Whenever I closed my eyes, all I could see were my pending coding activities, networking systems, research proposals, and also my drafts for blogs.

It was fully crowded in my thoughts and it stopped me to sleep. I always do my activities at least 2 days prior to the submission because I know if I do them before the deadline, I wouldn’t get enough time to finish them all. My eye bags are sogged and getting more prominent these days. All I wanted, for now, is to have a right and enough time to sleep but it seems impossible in my current situation. From 2 am, I would stay awake and since I couldn’t get back to sleep, I would do my pending activities so at the very least, it might be productive. Time is what I value the most because I think time couldn’t pause and redo.

How messed up my life is right now but I’m pretty confident that I can overcome it with enough dedication and determination to finish the race. There are nights that I would just hug my pillows and cry. It is true, and I don’t want to compress my own feelings. I will cry when I feel like crying and most of you know that I am a transparent person. It is highly visible that I am not okay and my parents know of this. They know and feel that I am not okay. What I loved about it is they will tell me that you have to get through this and will just smile and gives me a thumbs-up.

It was assuring for this young man that despite the world and my situation makes me tired and all. I know at the very end that when I got home, there are people who will lift me up and hit my spirit with positivity. However, sometimes, support and encouragement is not enough to fill me up. There will always be a time that you have to be alone and embrace that loneliness so that you can assess yourself. Assess what kind of situation you are in, what’s the root cause, and what will be your next move so that it will not happen again. Cheers!

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