Did you find it hard reading that third word buddy? (Kyawan) Don't-cha worry bud, that applies to me as well! So before we go directly to the main body of this article, we'll find out first what's the meaning of this word kakorrhaphiophobia is.

I knew this word right after I graduated in college. My kakorrhaphiophobia strikes and I can't stand against it. Admitting to myself early and knowing I graduated with less knowledge because of living my life the "YOLO" (you only live once) way instead of listening to my parents and mentors advices. Regrets comes rushing on me during this days and my cynical mind adds more conflict to it. My agitations also makes it even worst, cause I easily get nervous.

Kakorrhaphiophobia - in cebuano dialect is and can be directly translated "ang kahadlok ma pakyas."

What are the things you feared the most?

Fear and failure is inevitable to all of us, it's a test of endurance, of both mind and heart and how strong and we can bare it's consequences.

Me personally having these kakorrhaphiophobia thingy is a reminder that I'm still human and very capable of making mistakes, failures and may breaks at some points in life. The only kakorrhaphiophobia I was dealing before is to fail "ME", that me is composed of myself and my family. As a long practice of Filipinos, winning in life as a single adult also requires you continue the battles of your parents that they failed on winning too. It is the reality of the matter here in Philippines, maybe not all but mostly.

Furthermore, as I move from city to city, trying to be dependent and having a job, regrets are haunting me soo bad. I never let it get the best of me but before I knew it, I was already having a kakorrhaphiophobia of loving myself more. It means, I struggled to love myself or to satisfy myself that leads to depression and anxiety. I don't know during this times if I was just discontented or too ambitious. I was impatient with my growth and adding to it are failed relationships that push me even deeper to my vices. Surviving during this times of my life was really a battle of how strong I was as a person.

In addition, as I was being drag by the currents of my vices to it's depths, and while drowning and drifting to the depths of my depression, I woke up one day and to my realization that no one would come and save me, except me. That morning feels soo different, the inner me was revived an in full effect, so gathered my self up, Knowing where the broken steps was, I slowly fix them one by one and so did I get back my footing to the current me right now. As the test of times molds the better version of me, still I'm human that could break anytime, but I'm the more wiser and clever me. As of the moment I'm fine right now, and will always be fighting to be fine in the unforseen future.

How did i overcome my kakorrhaphiophobia?

First thing first, knowing and admitting our own capabilities and limitations. This alone would give as flexibility on how to approach such fear, and to proceed cautiously.

Second is exposure, if you fear to fail with anything, practice and be familiar with it, once you do so, there's only to possible outcome or results, it's either you'll passed and make it or an experience learned.

Third one is to persevere all throughout your fears, no matter what will happened, focus on the good things and be optimistic, that one day, all your fears will be gone and you can continue living without worry of

Fourth, accepting the truth that there are things and situations wherein we don't have any control of and the only thing left is to move on. As for the famous saying goes, "you'll never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.", then keep moving. The world won't wait for us to be well and fine.

Lastly, strong and firm faith in God, that no matter what happen you'll leave everything to God's will and timeframe. Keep the faith steady and make it as huge as possible to defy and convert your fears into strengths.

Winding Up

Eventually, fear is just a state of mind, if we can all practice our mind to be stronger than our emotions, I'm sure, we can all live life with less worrying, more accomplishments and gains more experienced in the near future. I hope and pray that no matter what God sends to test us in our future endeavors, we can get past all through it.

Hey there buddy!! I'm glad you reach this far again reading my article. Let me know on the comment section below if you have any kakorrhaphiophobia in something and let's talk about it buddy, I'll be very happy to share my opinions if you want to. 😉 See you on the next one, have a great day and keepsafe y'all always guys!!!

Adieux!!!

Withstanding: My Kakorrhaphiophobia
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