I'm Out Of It.
Hello beautiful people. It is so sweet to be here again especially when the love of our lives is back. I'm sure you all know what I am talking about. Rusty is back and I think it should be celebrated. It is worth it. Someone like me has been praying for this day to come and it is finally here. I'm happy and I am back. It was just like we took a long holiday. The last time I wrote an article here was two months ago. I struggle to continue but all my efforts were futile. I could not continue. I had other things to do and some other things came up that I would love to share with you all. I have a lot of things to talk about. I am back here with full force and I experienced a lot of things. I experienced the beautiful part of life and the sad part of it. They are interwoven which means that they work hand in hand. We can not escape them.
Out of all my experiences during the holiday, one hit me more. I was sad and I could not believe that I cried for months. I used to think that I was a hard girl. Hahaha, but it was not like that this time. I was pained to my bones. It is nothing much and I don't think I would love to share it with anyone. It is so personal to me that I sometimes feel bad whenever I want to talk about it but one thing I know is that no pain is forever. Nothing in this life is permanent. I just had to put it in my mind that the pain that I was feeling will not last forever and it happened as planned. I was just hoping to be free and get out of the pain someday and it happened. I tried to get myself out of the world and out of that realm. I had to stay away from anything that will make me remember such an event.
Look at me today, I'm out of it. I'm so grateful for being strong-hearted and determined to be happy. Making myself happy is one thing I have always wished to achieve and I am glad that I got that. I am out of it and I'm grateful to the friends who were there for me and also trying to make me happy. It may be little but it affected my mental health so badly. I'm glad that I am back on my feet again and I can write like I used to. Also, I am glad that the love of my life (Rusty) is back. I wish I could welcome him with a million hugs.
That is all for now. I hope I continue to see you all. I love you so much❤️
Pain no matter how tough is a part of life and learning and I'm sure you've picked one or more lessons from the experience you had. I'm glad you're better now though. Fighting!