I Badly Want To Stay But Some Things Need To Be Done First
Blog #244
May 15, 2022
"Making a decision is not easy as we think it is."
It was last May 11 at around 11 AM that we arrived at my grandmother's house. Standing at the doorstep, I saw my grandma (mother's side), my aunt and her husband together with their one and only daughter Donna, and my nephews. I am so happy to see my family after 6 years of being away. As soon as I entered the house, I immediately hugged my grandma and she hugged me too. Honestly, at first glance, I didn't recognize my grandma because she is a little chubby this time. After hugging her, she pointed to my other grandma who was fed by my youngest brother and was held by my father. On her front was my stepmother who also watched my grandmother eating slowly.
When I approached my grandmother and hold her, I was told by my stepmom to just stay in my grandma's house so I could help in taking care of my "Nanay". At first, I was hesitant to say yes but when she said that my partner already agreed to it, I also nodded to her suggestion but it doesn't mean that I totally agreed to it. Hours and days passed and that thought bothered me. I wasn't ready to stay there not because I didn't want to but because there are some things that I should prioritize first before staying there. Not staying didn't mean that I don't care for my grandma's well being. In fact, deep in my heart, I really badly wanted to stay so I can take good care of her until she fully recovers but that trip that we had was unexpected. So as expected, many things haven't been done and were just left at home like the unwashed clothes, my kid's schooling, and many more.
I knew, there was a little bit of disappointment in my family's hearts when I told them that I needed to go back home first to fix some important matters before I settle back in my hometown. I am thankful to my brother-in-law who understood our situation and helped me to explain it to my sister why we needed to go back home first. As what he said to my sister, the travel we had during that time isn't really planned. It was an emergency travel so they shouldn't expect us to stay there permanently because some things are left behind here. I even excused Adam from his class. Today was supposed to be his F2F class schedule but since I wasn't back at our place yet, so I just told his teacher to let him be in group 3 and that would be next week. While my eldest will be scheduled for next week's class too.
Closing Thoughts
I hope that whatever decision we made, my family understands it. When we have our family on our own, it's not only ourselves that we should think of. We should also think of our kids and partner. And as for me, I think many times about my kid's situation. If ever I would stay there permanently, what will happen to my kid's schooling? Maybe they will stop in the meantime if I chose to stay and what's more complicated is getting their school requirements. Mindanao is too far from Cebu and I know there are online means of getting school requirements but there are also other schools that want to let the parents of the kids get it personally to their previous school and that would be another thing to think about.
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dili jud malikayan eng ana sis labaw na nga naa napud tay kaugalingon nga pamilya.. mas ma priority jud nato, dili man sa engon nga dili nata mutabang sa ilaha..