My, My, My, Juvenility

Wed ,August 04, 2021 (#3)

"It's a nostalgic song about my childhood and wishing I could stop growing. As a kid I wished I could grow up so fast, and now you want to stop the time. It's weird how things change when you get older."- Alessia Cara referring to her song "seventeen".

For most, childhood is the best and freest time of their lives. You only think superficially. No worries about what to eat the next day, or are there enough food for the whole week? and such questions which will confront you as you get older; Problems of adulthood. Issues concerning fundamentals about living in general.

Childhood means simplicity, serenity and innocence. It brings a smile whenever someone gets to reminisce those time of free flies. But there are two sides to every coin. The north and south poles, the negative and positive charge and pros and cons. And that is how life works and so our childhood?

There are three nature of childhood;

• Happy childhood

  This is what everyone wishes to experience. A happy childhood full of sincerity and simplicity. This can be characterized by having a complete, loving and supportive family and friends.

• Dull Childhood

  It's a common childhood. No violence but full of dullness and somehow insecurity about not having an active and colorful juvenility.

• Bitter childhood

  The nightmare. Bitter childhood in a sense that one has experienced violence or have been maltreated by either his peers, relatives or his parents.

On the point of view of those who have been disregarded to enjoy a happy childhood, they are rather envious or confuse as to why they suffer like that while others don't. Have they done something wrong to deserve such standing?

Can I recall them all?

I've been pondering and rummaging about all information of childhood but i always fail. I can't seem to have a grasp on what happened yestercade. It was either gone or i chose to forget most of them.

We all have positive side of childhood and the negative side on it. Luckily, I have saved some good memories. Allow me to unearth those vivid memories?

• I befriended bullies

  Bullying has never been so hidden. Most especially at school, this is a common problem. I befriended bullies? For a fact, yes. They are actually bullies and i accepted who they are. I do not tolerate bullying so when they go below the belt, i stand up for that person whom they are making fun with. Luckily, they've changed. Atleast, I do not regret befriending them.

• I was accused of stealing

  I am not a very good kid but this is ridiculous right? Someone put a 20 peso bill in my bag and my classmate saw it there. I was scolded that time and I knew exactly who did it. We're still kids so I'd let it slid.

• I was chased by dogs twice

  If you haven't read it yet, yes i had been chased by dogs and that, i won't ever ever forget my entire life. I could clearly remember how my older brother left me like that. He's such a jerk. Good thing mom and dad did scold him.

• I would run and get soaking wet under the rain

  This is something that i always wish during my childhood. Rain. Whenever it rains, i would go out and let myself be drench (Sometimes i do not ask for my mom's permission so after the bath, i will be whipped. Lol) Is it just me? I find it so relaxing. Until now, i am fond of letting myself be soaked by the rain, of course when I'm at home.

• I dreamed to rob a bank

  It was true. I once dreamed of this ridiculous thought. Lucky i didn't do it, lol. I just find it so cool to rob a bank? But now I changed my mind, it's best if it's Bitcoin cash. Kidding!

• I wished i was rich

  To buy toys, delicious foods, beautiful dresses and nice house? There's more to that than earthly wishes.

  I wished to be rich because for (1). I want help my parents (2). I want to help the poor (3). I want to build a school for people who can't afford it. Ah sweet little me? I just wished that time that I could find a bag full of money!

• I hate being defeated

  I wasn't very good as I've said. Especially on games, I hate to admit that I can't always win. But growing up, I learned how to be mature enough and embrace defeat and failure.

• I was a fast learner

  I don't intend to be boastful but my parents were glad that I had never been a pain in the @ss when it comes to academics. I learned to read and write with their little help.

• I had experienced violence

  My place itself isn't that peaceful. Actually, you will always hear quarrelling couples, mother and daughter and relatives. They go beyond words and would be immersed to physical violence. It's been a norm. Lucky we didn't able to adapt such attitude. Or so I thought?

• I wished to be an adult sooner

  I thought it'd bring a whole lot different story for me. I could get more friends, roam round the city, find a job after college and enjoy. But, all of my wish, I think this is the most ridiculous one. I was wrong. Because reaching adulthood, I learned that it's really different and more difficult pace of life. It's not how it looks at the surface, when gone beyond the concept of adulthood and the interconnected struggles it has, I wish I could go back.

There are three types of childhood. I may not have the bestest and happiest but I had wished that;

• I could stay young forever

  If not forever, atleast I could go back to my juvenile state. I wish I didn't wish to meet adulthood sooner. I wish I did enjoy my childhood because I will never come back to that time of my life.

This regret made me love Alessia Cara's song entitled "Seventeen". If you haven't checked it out, kindly. Let me borrow a part from her song. I wish I could sing it but I can't as of the moment.

So hear me scream
I was too young to understand what it means
I couldn't wait til I could be seventeen
I thought he lied when he said take my time to dream
Now I wish I could freeze the time at seventeen

Truth that we can never go back to our past let alone to our childhood. So all we can do now is to accept the fact that juvenility is no longer our present time, it's part of our life now and we have todays to live.

My entry for @bmjc98 's Getting to know you more challenge: When I was a kid

I have read about it just today so I made mine. Ah, my mind and thought are all splattered so I am sorry, that's what I've got. It took me hrs to write this or so I thought?

Thanks for reading!

Published this 4th day of August 2021