As soon as I plan something and it doesn't work out the way I planned all motivation is gone.
No internet connection, not being able to find the information I need, to send an e-mail or do an urgent payment is a good reason for me to lose my motivation to do something at all. I wonder when this started, if I always had it or if "being busy" was the reason I never noticed it. What was it that triggered me after 60 hours of work for two employers to go back home and work for my own business? Give attention to my children while cooking and cleaning instead of doing nothing and taking a break?
As long as I remembered I was multitasking which made it possible to keep going on. Multitasking and the fact I liked my jobs and it felt good to come home in a clean, organized house. At times multitasking is great because there is plenty of house chorus you can do at the same time as the laundry like putting the kettle on, peeling potatoes, sweeping floors, and watching television. Its true multitasking saves time but it tires out too.
The main problem with multitasking is not one task is done by me giving it 100% full attention. The brain is always busy with something else, telling what next tasks need to be done before I can finally go to bed or before I can leave to work.
If there's so much to do, every second count (cps), being in a hurry takes over life. Even if you work twice as fast as others and multi-task, there will be not one single moment left to relax. It's clear this not only damages health but it gets harder to motivate oneself plus it kills all the creativity. The best ideas pop up if we do nothing, the brain has time to think.
I knew it was time to go, time to let go, and could finally laugh out loud as I closed all the doors to busyness behind me. The life I once had is what motivates me to go on now. I am free and can do what I like.
Timer: ten minutes
Grammarly used
Device: mobile phone
Prompts written in bold
Multitasking is the best way to get all job done but the fact that there is no job is truly, actually done is what made tiredness took over. It is like going round and round, always coming back to the same spot for me.