9 August 2021

I am thinking of what to write today. Then, I remembered the article I read last night of Ms. Jane entitled Stay Single? Why not! Here's the link, https://read.cash/@Jane/stay-single-why-not-3bf99144

I am encouraged to write my own story. 😊 Come and join me as I reminisce the past. 😊

TEENAGE DAYS

I noticed and saw girls at my age that they already had crushes and boyfriends. They are vocal of what they feel to the boys they like. I admit that during my grade school until I reached high school I have crushes. I got a crush to boys if I find them cute, kind and good at class. 😁 But, I am not vocal to them. I keep it a secret. No one knows that I have crush on them coz I am afraid that my parents would know about it.

My motto those days was, Studies first before boys! 😊

I also promised to myself that I won't entertain boys that courting me until I reached 18. 😁 Coz for me 18 years old is the right age to entertain suitors. 😅

DEBUT DAY

When I reached 18 years old, I am so excited! Not because of the debut party! 😁 We are not rich to have a debut party. My debut day was very simple! Only lighting a candle at the Church and prayers.

What makes me excited on that day was It's the start for me to entertain suitors. 🤣 What a funny excitement I had before. Haha

Unfortunately, no one courted me when I was 18 years old. 🤣🤣🤣

A YEAR AFTER DEBUT

I was 3rd year college that time, I entered as a working student at the school. I was a librarian assistant. I didn't expected that it will be the year I am waiting for - of having a boyfriend! 😁 Yes, right! That's the year I got my first boyfriend!

One day, while I am passing the lobby carrying books from the high school library to the college library, my classmates and friends were clapping and shouting to me, Hi crush! 😊😁 I am just laughing at them coz I didn't know why they are calling me that.

After I delivered the books to the college library as I am going down the stairs, I saw a man calling my name and smiling coming my way. I didn't know him. It was my first time, I noticed him at school. I find him cute and handsome with a beautiful smile. I feel butterflies in my stomach! I feel kilig that time! 😊😊🥰🥰🥰 I feel like, I fall in love with him as I first saw him. Haha

Guess what?!! He asked me, what's my free time. He asked me to go out coz he wants to talk to me. (Haha kilig much akets!)

Those time I feel in love. 🤣🤣🤣 I thought it's the sign I am waiting for to have a boyfriend. Haha

So, I did said to him my free time and accepted his invitation to go out.

After my work and class, he's waiting for me at the guard house. I feel nervous coz it's my first time to be with a man alone for a date. Haha

Our dating place was at the boulevard. We get to know each other that night. We talked a lot. And we agreed to keep on dating. After few days of courting we became officially in a relationship. My first boyfriend ever! We've been in a four years relationship.

I will make a separate blog about our story. 😊

After we broke up, I never entertain a serious relationship again. He now have a family and I am single. 😊 I get over from him. No more heartaches and pains. 😊

RESPONSIBILITY TO FAMILY

Even I am not the eldest, I feel like I am the eldest coz after I graduated college and had work I became the breadwinner of the family. I helped financed the studies of my younger brothers at the same time helping my family's needs. I forgot about my personal life that's why I did not entertain a relationship again.

HAPPY SINGLE AT MID-30's

Some people I know keep on telling me that I am not getting any younger anymore. They said, I need to get married before my age be gone in the calendar numbers. It lapsed already! Haha

I just smile at them and don't mind them. Coz if ever I get married at early age like them my life would be different now. I cannot enjoy what I am enjoying now - I am Free like a bird! 😊

SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE! 😁

Actually during my mid-20's, I've known a French man. I told myself that he is the guy I wanted to be with for the rest of my life. 😊

A lot of ups and downs during those times. We even hated each other and separated our lives. Until, our paths crossed again. This time we are more matured. 😊

I am happy that we're back again! 😊 I am not sure if I'll share here our love story. Coz he is a private person and I respected him. 😊

Praying that God grants our heart's desires! 🙏🙏🙏

I am still happy being single but not anymore available! 😊😁

Have a wonderful day everyone!

Thank you for reading! 😊😘

Lovelots,

@shikika