11:20 10/26/2021
Do you trust yourself? Are you brave enough to trust it? How would you handle the battle when you are fighting against yourself?
Good day fellas!βΊοΈπ How are doin'? How's life amidst the situation that we are currently facing right now? What about your health and financial statuses? Still on the track? Or maybe, quit the opposite? Please do take care of yourself. <3
For today's blog, I just came with a topic that kind of personal. I know I should just keep it in private, but at some point, I really want to seek advice, the reason why, I courageously write this down. For all you know, I rarely wrote something which tackled about the negative sides of my personal life. Mostly, I just chose to share the good ones.
I have a battle against myself. For twenty-three years of existence, I am still fighting this battle. Thankfully, the fight was fair-and-square, and still I can handle it. But, behind all the handlings and fightings I've done, I just came up in the realization that I can't barely handle the situation without seeking someone for help. Let's go straight-forward, I need someone's help.
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Impatience Self
- Sometimes, I lost patience towards someone or something. I want things to happen as what I have expected to be. I sometimes lost my patience to wait the right time. I just let the pressure eat me.:(
Self-Doubt
- I experienced a lot of failures and rejections. Well, "ganun naman talaga siguro ang buhay." When I want to do something, I have this kind of thinking, "I can't" and "I'm afraid."
"I can't." For the record, I have this doubts for some personal reasons. I'll just keep these reasons privately.
"I'm afraid." Rejection and Failures, that's the main reasons. I doubt myself to try it out again because, I am afraid to failed again and be rejected again.
Self-Pity
- Because of the bad things I experienced, I pitied myself. The reason why, I can't go on with life 100% of it. I don't like someone would feel pity towards me, but as for myself, I don't know when and how it happened, I just cried knowing that I am helpless at some point in my life.
Untrusting Self
- Aside from doubts, I can't trust myself completely. I can find a way out, but trusting myself completely? Nah...Give me a break. From all the bad things I've experienced even before, trusting myself now, is not a 100% guarantee.
Overthinking Self
- Aigoo! This has been my ultimate opponent. Negative thinking? Nah...I can do that over and over and over again, especially when we talk about my love life. Knowing that, MGD and I are not always together because of his work and the place where he lives, I always find a way on how to start a fight against each other because I overthink things. I have a lot of what ifs, which made him got mad at me. "Sorry Dhie, my bad.";(
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It is very hard to fight against yourself. I don't know if you feel the same way too. But it goes for me. "Nakakatawa lang isipin na maayos ka'ng kausap nang ibang tao, yung nakakapagbigay ka nang mga advice para sa kanila, tas yung ikaw mismo sa sarili mo, hindi mo mabigyan nang oras para kausapin at mabigyan linaw ang sarili mo. Kumabaga, hindi mo mabigyan nang advice yung sarili mo, mismo." Is it possible?
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I will not make this for long. "Wala na naman din akong masulat. Lol XD" Anyways, just feel free to give your advice or pieces of advice. It would really mean a lot. <3
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What do we do when we confront ourselves, beat ourselves up, hurt ourselves? that's exactly what we do. We just have to be patient and rectify where we are wrong and not confront ourselves, crying is good to release stress and calm down, I feel you put too much pressure on yourself. This answer is a little late but I hope it helps you to relax. Happy day to you