Lost Control

I jerked my face red when remembering the most embarrassing incident in 2012 ago as if my face had to be covered with banana leaves so my face wouldn't look wrinkled, my trembling face started to move up and down in rhythm with my body and legs moving, I almost peed in my pants looking at all my friends covered her mouth holding back laughter when I couldn't get the words out in front of the stage where the performance was like someone lost their mind in a desert without water and food.

Wewww... I was so embarrassed when I was going under where this image of me all men and women have known my carelessness as if a needle pricked my ass, pain and restlessness penetrated my body and soul. Maybe I have to wait years to get rid of everything that has happened and even then if we don't meet again, really that day is the worst day in the history of my life journey maybe I'd rather receive 10 hammer shots in my face than have to be the victim of being laughed at in front of humans who has a normal heart and feelings because it is impossible to erase the traces of this adventure and become a hot topic of conversation among me. It's lucky that Android phones are not yet in their hands because our region is still lagging behind in terms of technology.

It started with my participation in environmental socialization activities in my village and the place where it was carried out was in a multi-purpose building in our village. As participants we are required to be active in this activity by participating interactively when socialization takes place, asking questions, providing input, answering questions etc. All of this aims to teach us to be able to develop thinking power by looking at the problems of social life that occur so that it encourages us to issue various perceptions to how to overcome the social turmoil of people's lives in the modern era by influencing the actions and mindset of the village community.

The discussion was very interesting because I was a participant who incidentally was the first time participating in an activity like this, so my presence made me proud. When the speaker ended his presentation it was our chance to argue and I confidently raised my hand to ask, I stepped forward with the courage to take the mic and face the audience. I don't know what's going on inside me, everything that I have prepared as material for my questions and arguments disappears from my memory like a baby loses its mother, I don't know what else to say, my body feels cold, all anatomical movements of the body move by themselves, I am confused and face the participants who were glaring at me in amazement. For a long time I stood without a word coming out of my mouth feeling like my tongue was pulled and my mouth was stitched my eyes moved to look left and right, the participants started laughing at me my face turned red and finally two words came out of my mouth thank you.

The voice rumbled and all mouths opened laughing at you seeing this incident, I didn't expect this embarrassing incident to happen to me. I got up from my seat and ran out to my house without realizing that the door was closed again, as soon as I burst through it and my head hit the door board violently. My mother screamed and called my name, I just realized that the bedroom door had been broken because I had just woken up from my dream.