Self Reminder

January 21, 2022

The year for me started with a lot of challenges, at work, at home and even in my personal life. I'm always filled with fear and it made me sick in mind.

I feel like I become a puppet of my own worries and it made me insane on the sense that I felt I had no direction, a path that leads to nowhere.

I told myself not to cry but the sea of emotions always comes flooding through me that I drowned myself unto it.

I had a lot of questions that it sometimes ended into saying : what if I will be gone? will this pain be banished like bubbles too, printed on my tombstone so that anyone who'll pass by will read that I was succumb in my own struggles and problems that I decided to make it stop.

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But it also brought me into such realizations. These reasons are the sole purpose of myself on why I am still here facing all of these.

Blessed

I still have a job, and I can still enjoy the carrier I chose. I can supply all my families needs financially. I can still attend online mass even im my hectic schedule. I can still manage to earn outside work. I have loads of virtual friends. I can tend to my sons meed although I lack time with him. I have a son whose mature enough to understand our situation despite his age. I have a very supportive family.

Happy

They say happiness is a choice. For me happiness is when you suddenly smile thinking about that one moment that you never imagined would happen in you life. That's pure bliss.

I choose to be happy for the people around me. This feeling I have right now is only temporary and surely will be replace with happiness and more happiness.

Strong

Amidst all that happen, I'm still here. Had doubts but was somehow in the process of overcoming it. I also need to be strong for the peolple who still needs me especially my son. I need to be strong and endure whatever life gaves me.

God will never gives you challenges that's beyond your capacity. He knows ypu're strong enough to face it with you head held high.

Loved

Assuming you may say, but I know I am loved by the Almighty God, I am loved by my family,my son and some relatives. I know I am also love by my friends here and outside virtual world.

I've been so down since the start of the week and I shared it here and in Noise. And that's when I felt that even though I am mostly crazy and always spouting nonsense stuff, I felt that I was loved and nothings gonna beat that (not even KAI'S poster that's on my pre-orderl list).

Thinking of those as my constant reminders, made me want to still face the day ready, ready for the challenges life may throw at me.

This can be a reminder to you too. Always onow that you are enough and it's not your fault, things happens, problems happens, you're just beong caught up with it.

Cheer up mate!

P.S: all images are from twitter (@/deeptxtmsgs)

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