@mommykim
Numb **May 18, 2022** https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8P0vKLHbtMg *So much on my mind that whenever I laugh for a minute it then fades away* *How did I become like this, what has happened to me that I became this wary?* *Is it because life has never been good the way I wanted and planned it to be?* *Or I just become dumb and didn't even notice that something changed in me.* *Numb, I became like this out of pain and fear* *Uttered useless words that I mustered in the dark* *Making excuses like I am living with it all these years* *Becoming one of the follower of the dark, hah* *But wait, is this really who I am?* *Is this what I really wanted from the start?* *Am I swimming in the pool of guilt and anger?* *Or am I just fooling myself to be one?* *Should I end it to not feel the pain?* *Or should I endure because I need to live for them?* *Can I muster the courage to pull that knife off?* *Should I hang myself or be puppet for life?* *"Rise up child" you say like you know me* *"I give up" as my respond and I received a slap* *"You don't know what you're doing" oh really,and now you butting in* *"So do you?" and you point your finger on me, foul* *Now they leave, I should be happy I'm free to die* *But my head says "What will my mother feel?"* *Oh crap I forgot I'm a child of a most loving woman in the world* *Guess I just need to hold on a bit longer for her* *Mother, I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass* *Guess this child of yours will be useless for life* *I hope you can still stand it for as long as you can* *Cause this child of yours honestly feels tired* This has been on my mind the whole day for I don't know the reason why these words came just like that. I wrote it on my notes but I am not really thinking of a specific person on this. Or am I? The songs might not fit but it just came to my mind to just put it on while reading the poem hehe. And I can't find a perfect title for this, sorry for the mess Hahahaha.. My apologies for this article of mine. Those words just triggered me. Maybe the result of reading a lot of sad series where the people opted to leave a weak and weird people just because no one understands them. Or maybe I am sympathizing a certain person or even myself. I really don't know. One thing I can say, try to talk to people you know if they're doing fine. I know you've been hearing this sentence a lot as I am too. Easy said than done but really, you'll never know if you don't try. A simple "**Hello, how are you?**" "**Man, it's been too long what's up**". It may be just a simple words but it can mean everything to them. And before I forgot , thank you for the constant support and trust mate @Lucifer01 Thank you for reading!
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indeed someone often considers himself useless after he is often hurt by other people, but in fact that person is very useful for others, for example, by telling us about our sadness, other people will realize that he is very lucky because his happiness as long as he has is not necessarily someone else have too.
indeed we need people for encouragement to lift us up
That's true, we shouldn't predict that people are doing fine because they act the way, some are just hiding pain behind the smile
true and you can't even tell if they are doing fine because they laugh like there's no tomorrow
Mao na ako nafeel beb, kanang walay nakasabot nako. Di sayon pero giagwanta gusto nako mugive up pero di ko gusto mabungkag among pamilya
samot na ug naa ka anak..lisod mo give up kung naa naka depende sa imoha
mao lagi.pait ning natunong tas mali nga tao
Deep, sad, and suicidal... Hadlok man ni nga thoughts momsh hehe
negative jud siay kaayo kog panghuna2 mamsh ...mao man na siya tanan ako nahuna2 an gahapon...ambot lang
> amsh ...mao man na siya tanan ako nahuna2 an gahapon...ambot lang relax lang momsh.. tan aw kpop sa
Bagay naman nung song. Pinapakinggan ko habang binabasa un poem hehe.
So dark and deep and it's screams help and suicidal thoughts, but that person can't think to end his/her life because there's still people who love him/her. Hey mami that's one my comfy singer and I know that song po. Mga kanta talaga ni Linkin is one of my go to song when I'm feeling down.
so someone actually understand my thoughts...thanks beb
Epekto ni cgeh basa or cgeg tan-aw sad story mars hihi
mao jud Pars haahahah
Noooonabelssss, Kung ano ano tumatakbo sa isip mo. Andito lang kami kapag need mo ng kabardagulan 🥺🤗🤗🥰 u okay na?
wala lang akong tulog pero okay pa ko...bato kaya to
Very sad man ni nga poem mommykim.
cge lang jud na gapuyo sa ako huna2 gahapon beb ay...ambot ug nganu...or maybe napuno nlang jud siguro sa ga struggles hahaha
Mao, sakto lang pud nga ipagawas mommykim para dili mapundo sa dughan.
May hugot ba sis? hehe. I hope things are well with you MommyK. Sending you some warm hugs from the cold mountains of Luzon.
awww thank you madam..I badly need one
Cheers sis :) xoxoxo
The poem of yours sounds really sad po. Whatever you're going through right now mommykim just be strong po. And maybe na-influenced nga lang po kayo siguro ng mga sad story na binabasa nyo kaya bigla po pumasok yang mga words na yan into your mind po.
i did both baby ang ma influenced nang binsabasa at sa experience na din
Aww sana po maging okay na po kayo at ng family mo po. Tsaka maayos nyo na po sana yung mga problema nyo.
Ayyy murag naguol na gikapoy na gi samokan haha! But, I love the poem and I like that song too!