Burdened

November 30, 2021

The day ends at ease but why do I feel burdened?
I was so sure that a simple warm bath will make me fin.
But nothing works out well
What is happening?

I feel so lost, so empty
I want to work my way and grind but I just can't think on what to write
I usually do useless posts but my hands can't do it
Did something happened today?

I called home, they're fine, saw my son laughing
After the happy call comes again the emptiness
Maybe food will lift me up so ordered some
But even though I'm full still feeling nothing

I tried to read but nothing comes to mind
Superiors call for a massive work tomorrow
I didn't fear about it,
There's something bothering me but I don't know what it is

So I settled to a solution I always do
When I think of nothing else to save me from it
To wept my heart out
Until there's nothing left to weep

Am I weird? That I didn't know what's bothering me?
Or am I just overthinking things I shouldn't have?
And, what are those I'm thinking
I said it's all empty so I can't find answers

I don't know what's gotten to me today. I thought it was just tiredness from work so I settled on taking a bath and then eating full meal. But I am still empty inside. Glad baby gerl Jam accompanied me and let me laugh a little even though I want to cry.

I actually planned to join mamsh MomentswithMatti pregnancy journey challenge but I put it into drafts alongside missjo's random questions for I can't finish it off.

I'm lying on my bed(sofa) but I am still awake. I've been listening to Adele's playlist but it just made me cry more. So I shift it to Moana's playlist and sang "You're Welcome"

I guess I need some energy boosters. It's the start of December tomorrow but I'm feeling like this, what a shame. I need to recharge my mind for another marathon of work for tomorrow for we have way more stuff to get for it's the last month and waves of deadlines are coming.

haaaaaay

Do you also feel like these? Being sad for no particular reason? Being empty and just wants to cry and cry until your eyes sore from crying? And you want to erase the loneliness away but you just can't? damn , i'm old enough to be like this. ugh

Sorry guys, I'm kinda not doing good today so pardon my existence.

Thank you for reading!
Keep safe & God Bless!
Fin!