One day everything has changed when a virus named Covid-19 attacked the world. Who would thought that this virus could kill many lives, people losing their jobs, gives panic to people? We are all facing a pandemic right now, and it's highly contagious. As a student and teenager at the same time, we also face different new system which affects our current life. Changes have no exemption. The new learning system has been so rough. Many things I used to do before cannot be repeated anymore.
When face to face classes still exist, I woke up around 4:30 am, or 5 am. It's because our classes start at 6 in the morning, yes, it's so early. The battle here is about taking a bath; it feels like the water made of a bucket of ice. Swear, touch the water, and you will freeze. But now, when the Department of Education implemented the new learning system, I can wake up whenever I want—kidding, unless I heard my mother's loud voice, and after that, my mother will thump the door of my room.
There are so many things that I need to deal with while battling with this new system.
I admit it's tough to focus when they put too much pressure on you. I remember when my adviser told me to work with my modules a bit harder than before if I don't want to lose my title in the class. Of course, I took or saw that as a compliment, but I can't deny that I was really in a mess at that time. Study, study, study, I can't do anything but advance reading. In reality, the outcome isn't good; I lose focus on what I have on my plate right now. And it's hard to gain your focus back if you already feel unmotivated by what you are doing. I lose my spirit along with the guide. I realized that multitasking isn't a solution; that will take you longer to finish your works. So learn to do things one time at one hand.
I don't know what to say about this. It has been my definition of myself. You will feel happy if you try to put things off. But the exchange of that is a bunch of overwhelming worksheets piled up together. Sometimes, I want to do my tasks, but my other self doesn't want to cooperate. When I try to use my phone while doing my modules, 5 minutes later, I will end up scrolling in my Facebook feed. Not a single piece of worksheets I finished at the end of the day. And that keeps on happening over and over again. You will see yourself cramming, and you can't blame anyone considering it's your fault. I'm still working on this attitude of mine. Could you give me advice instead?
Sheesh. This one is tough. I tried to write all of my schedules in my notes and stick them to the wall, but it's not working. I can't follow a single one of them. Distractions are one of the reasons why I can't manage my time. Although I have some free time, it's hard to the activities when you're holding your phone. And I'm still living under my parent's roof, and I should at least help them with the household chores. One day has 24 hours, but it feels like I always lack time. I'm trying hard to align my time. I feel like my free time is only during midnight because that's when my mind functions well. The time where people in the house are already peacefully sleeping.
As much as possible, I make sure that I'm in the right place to answer my modules. I'm not the kind of person who doesn't mind where they placed. I can't just answer my modules in my bed, and I always sense that my bed is pulling me, so I may end up falling asleep. I can't work in a noisy environment either; it's pretty destructive. That's why I have my study table, where I can work on my modules there. It's also good to do your activities in an environment that can inspire you to finish your works.
We are now looking forward to the 4th grading period of our school year. But we still haven't seen our grades from 2nd-3rd grading and the other subject were still left blank. If our adviser is planning to shock us, please ma'am don't. Everything may seem rough, but there's a solution to every problem you are experiencing. I always believe in myself; if others can do it, I can too. But I'm always aware of my limitations; that's why I don't put too many expectations when I know in myself that I can't do it. I stick in my mind that my future lies in what I'm doing in my current life. However, I don't add tomorrow's anxieties on what's top for now.
I want to take the law course; it's the only course that awakes my interest. I'm still perplexed by it. Nevertheless, no one dictates what I should do in my future. Yet my mother asks me if I don't want to take education, and I was like, "no way." But, perhaps, you'll see me teaching one day, who knows? I bet it can change. Mayhaps I end up not entering college. Lol.
Anyway, I also want to mention here at @deedum for encouraging me to take law. Ate, I'm so grateful to be motivated by a professional like you. Thank you for giving me advice about what kind of path I will enter. That somehow helps me to be ready. I just don't know if that's motivation or warning because I'm kinda scared, kidding.