What is insecurities mean? It is a person with high levels of insecurities may often experience a lack of confidence regarding many aspects in life. It may be difficult for that person to form lasting relationship or attend to daily tasks, due to a self-perception of helplessness or inadequacy.

Insecurity often causes negative thoughts about ones ability to fit in others, reach goals or find acceptance and support. The condition often accompanies anxiety. Individuals who experience the feelings of fear, worry and self doubt that characterize anxiety may feel helpless to meet the daily challenges in life. They may find it easier to resist dealing with stressful situations, feeling inadequate equipped to handle them.

Me as a human being have a many insecurities in life. I always have a self doubt. Maybe because I got that from one of my traumatic experience. When I am in Grade 5 one of my classmates always bullying me. She is the only one who always did that to me and take note "she" which means a girl..Imagine a bully person is a girl. One time during our lunch break while my friends and I are having a chitchats she came near to me and she said "you are ugly duckling", "ang panget mo",and "sipsip" on my own face. My other classmates specially the boys laughing so hard and at that moment I feel shy and I cried. Then suddenly my teacher came and asked why I am crying and my friends told her what happened. My teacher started to got mad and she said if I were you I will read my books instead of doing that bullying and non sense things.My teacher said maybe you are all jealous because Mhy is intelligent.Im not telling this not because im proud to myself because honestly I graduated in elementary with high honor. And I am a teachers pet according to them thats why they are always bullying when teacher are not around.I am 11 years old that time and in that age is the start of being a teenager. And my self doubt start and my confidence gone.

I started to feel shy and I started to avoid some group of people. I feel like they are always laughing behind my back. My bully classmate words are always in my mind. It is like a nightmare to me. And my mom notice it and asking me what is wrong but I didnt tell her, I said its nothing. I am a jolly person before and it change because of that.

Days pass by I feel like my self confidence is back with the help of my friends. My old self come back. Time heals my insecurity maybe. I started to join some of group friends and didnt shy anymore. I feel reborn again. I feel like Im out in my dark past.

Until one incident happened, my self doubt come back again after I found out that my boyfriend is cheated on me. If you read my other article you know what happened. He cheated on me after a years of relationship. And many questions hit me again like in the movie.

Am I not enough?

Am I ugly?

Kapalit palit ba ako?

Is there something wrong with me?

That questions are always banging in my mind. One time I asked my friend if I am ugly and he told me this.

Kung panget ka, ano pa kaya hitsura ng maganda, sadyang tanga lang siya at hindi siya kuntento kaya ipinagpalit ka niya.

Maganda ka, sexy ka pa, at mabait ka, sadyang may mali lang sa kanya.

Its not your fault, its his fault.

But even my friend said that Im still doubting on my self and I dont have a confidence anymore. He is my friend, ofcourse he will tell me that good words...hehe.

But I need to overcome this, because if not what will happen to me. I need to move on. Sometimes I am telling to myself as long as you didnt hurt someone or anyone go girl. You are the boss of yourself, you are the only one who can manage your own life to be in a right track. There is someone who can appreciate your worth and who can accept the real you. All of us are beautiful in our own ways and I need to keep that in my mind. Maybe we can do mistakes but remember we are only a human who can do mistakes and we are not perfect.

ACCEPT YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE IF NOT WHO CAN.

By the help of our family, true friends and love ones and specially yourself we will overcome our insecurities in life. And ofcourse by our prayers too because God is the most powerful of all.

Maybe all of us have insecurities but it depends on us how to manage and handle this. Its up to you how to gain your self confidence again. And lets try to appreciate other people. If you see her beautiful say "you are beautiful", if you see her or him wearing a good dress "it suited on you", " your smile is beautiful", "you look good", " you smell good" and "you look nice". Because sometimes that simple words have a big impact to others. Sometimes they need that to lift up their selves specially when they are feeling down. That simple word or gestures is a big help to others. Appreciate other people. Appreciate yourself. We are all worthy and we are all beautiful.

" Dont let fear or insecurity stop you from trying new things. Believe in yourself. Do what you love. And most importantly, be kind to others, even if you dont like them" - Stacy London

Dont let your insecurities to rule your world.

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Thank you again guys for reading this article of mine. I hope you like it. Until next time. Muuuaaahhh ♥️