Personal Vlog:Deja vu of Fear
Here I'am like a crazy idiot lol. Wearing a headset but no music. The feeling of fear is coming back again. The feeling of anxiety is crawling slowly deep within me. I will never forget Typhoon Odette who almost make me deaf last year.
It hits hard and leaves a scar in our hearts. We celebrated Dark Christmas and Black new year because of this typhoon. It was hard during this time but we manage to survive.
Today, Typhoon Paeng hits our place again and it felt like yesterday since we experience the ruthless Typhoon Odette. It's like I'm being paranoid whenever I will hear the sound of heavy rain and the swaying of trees because of the strong wind.
Typhoon Paeng is a tropical storm bringing heavy rain and strong wind. As for now, we are under typhoon signal number 1 but the rain already vanish from everyone's homes!
Our neighboring cities were hit by floods and are suffering from their loss. Especially those animals that they raised also vanished. They are crying for help and are rescued. The evacuation center is full and the typhoon is still in our country.
I hate the quietness because you will hope for peacefulness but in just a minute or a second, a strong wind will surprise you followed by heavy rain!
The trauma of typhoon Odette is coming back but we need to stay focused and vigilant. I'm afraid! Very afraid! But I need to stay alert and observe my surroundings. If we let fear conquer our whole being then we might lose everything!
The roof is noisy as if shouting that they are here again to give you trauma! The dogs are noisy too. Even if I'm wearing a headset, I can still hear anything from the outside!
I want to sleep but my eyes will open every time I heard a screeching sound. This will destroy my inner peace! But I can't help it when mother nature strike. It's our fault too for throwing garbage everywhere. We are being punished!
The cold wind blows with rain this morning. And we are blackout! And my power bank is low bat. Hopefully, these two lines can fill my battery until the electricity comes back.
The worst part is I'm not ready for anything! It's because of money. Yeah, I don't have it for now. We are waiting but it didn't arrive. It's just a game of fate and Destiny always tested my patience.
Good thing my all-time motto is "Patience is always a virtue." Everything will be fine soon. Just hoping for a happy and peaceful Christmas. Hopefully, there are no more typhoons. All people have phobias and fear in their hearts.
A Deja vu that haunted our minds. A Deja vu of trauma that we don't wish to experience again but it's happening! I'm sad for those affected areas that already have high floods and are on red alert. We are on red alert too. My phone will surprise me with a warning beep that will scare you more. Saying to be careful and that we are under a red alert due to heavy rainfall.
Hopefully, the electricity will come back soon as my cellphone is running out of battery. For those people out there who are suffering from typhoons. Hang on and fight! We can surpass this calamity.
Thank you for reading everyone. Keep safe always!
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I understand you, Ate. Sino ba naman kasing di ma-ttrauma kapag ganito ang na-experienced, right? Just like 'yung sa Aurora, di pa nakaka-recover from Karding tapos ito na naman. Sunod-sunod na either sa kanila magla-landfall or sa neighboring province nila.
But, kumusta ba jan sa inyo now? Di naman kayo pinasok ng baha like before?