Either you stop chilling or you fail. Choose.
Some people spend their mornings productively; eating while working and talking to people. Some spend it relaxed, just eating and enjoying the morning air. And some skip breakfast and immediately go to work.
As for me, I spend my mornings these days quite lazily. I wake up, I get reminded to pray and thank for the new day I got, and then I do the first mistake for the whole day: I pick up my phone, unlock it, and go to my facebook account.
I just don't understand myself. I know that time management is important, that self discipline is all the more important. And yet, I don't apply those to myself most of the time these past weeks.
Examination week is just around the corner and yet I am not behaving in a way that should be prepapring myself for an exam. I am too chill.
Back when there are still face to face classes, you will see me trying to study all the time. Before going to school I study, while riding a vehicle on the way to school I study, when I get to school I study. It's what I do before the exams begin. I only stop when the teachers tell us to hide our notes.
But now? I don't know, I am feeling the pressure but there are only 3 days left before the exam. I haven't memorized a thing yet! It's frustrating and disappointing.
Why did I let myself fall into the loop of social media addiction again? Maybe I was bored? I think I was bored even though there's a pile of work for me to do. I'm strange and quite irresponsible for my age.
But this morning, I think something hit me on the head because now I'm awake. Awake and aware of the things i didn't do, and of the things I should be doing. I woke up early this morning, the sun wasn't that high in the sky yet and I yawn every 10 minutes.
I was sleepy, and tired, and my head hurt. But I am also tired of procrastinating and entertaining my laziness! And so i ignored all that. I got out of bed, boiled eggs for breakfast, sat down on my desk, and wrote on my journal to shake off the remnants of sleep I have in me.
I think by doing that, I got to call the train of productivity. I hopped in and until now the train hasn't stopped moving. I am still inside it and I am still doing my tasks. The sleepiness came back. The headache visited me too. But that's fine, I can ignore those. I'll have to take advantage of this surge of productivity that got into me.
Because if I don't, I'll be stuck in this lowness some more. And I don't want that.
So I'm gonna fight sleepiness, and work.
ENDING THOUGHTS: This is basically me telling you guys what hapened to my day today. It started out bad but i think it's slowly getting better. My forehead is hurting, but it's manageable. I can work some more : D
And once again, Thank you very much for reading my article!
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