It's Here, Getting Ready For LDR For The First Time
One of my non-negotiables or fixed terms when it comes to relationships is that I don't want to enter a long-distance commitment. My top love language is quality time. I can't compromise spending time with people I love. So, if I spend time with you even if my schedule is hectic, you'd know I cherish your existence.
In an eight year relationship with my partner, we had discussed this several times already. What if one of us left the country for greener pastures? How are we going to deal with it?
We both wanted to go to a lot of countries together - Japan, Korea, Singapore, and a lot more. We even applied to an agency in Japan, we're both qualified but we didn't pursue it because pandemic happened. My partner has all the requirements already but didn't push it through because W is waiting for me to complete mine. I was still indecisive then, because it was not my decision to go out of the country yet. I even had several breakdowns because I'm already thinking that our relationship would eventually end if W will leave the country. I just can't stop thinking of the what-ifs when we enter LDR and at the same time, I just couldn't leave the country yet for I feel that I'm still needed here. With all the stories I've heard, from families and friends, I thought I can't handle it.
Now, everything's settled. W is leaving the country for greener pastures and I'm so proud of what my partner has reached so far. I've been there when W was still processing papers and reviewing for IELTS.
This time, I've accepted the fact that we need to go through this road in order for us to grow. I don't want to hinder W's growth just because I'm scared of being in LDR set-up. I don't want to leave the country too just because my partner said so, well W isn't forcing me though. W's been very supportive in everything I do, and it's time for me to do the same, even if it means we're not seeing each other physically for two years or more. We even wanted to be engaged already so even if it's LDR, we know we're committed, to take it more seriously. But, being engaged is just another title for us to hold on to. I know we're both genuine with what we feel and do so we brushed off the idea. Plus, we're both competitive, we don't want the engagement to be the same with just any other day, we want it to be memorable as well. I don't also like the idea that we're just doing the engagement because we're scared of losing each other lol. If W really wants me, better make an effort while we're in LDR, of course, I'll do the same.
I guess I've matured enough to trust the love we feel for each other. Eww, so cheesy naman nito, di ako sanay hahaha
LDR means we are more responsible to make it work despite the distance. This is the time to prove that if we truly value each other, we'll make time.
W will leave a few weeks from now. I still have a few weeks to spend time with my partner. I'm not that sad though, I know I'm going an extra mile for this relationship to work.
I'll appreciate it if you'll leave some suggestions or tips on how to make it work 😁
July 21, 2022
C ikaw pala to? 🤣