Because I Am Not A Kid Anymore

How are you all? It's been a gloomy day. I felt like sleeping, but my workload keeps on stopping me. This kind of weather makes me want to eat all day, watch Netflix and chill.

Yesterday rained so hard. My youngest sister went outside to play early in the morning because it was sunny then but when it was lunch time, she came back because it was raining really hard.

My mom saw that my youngest sister's friends are taking a bath under the rain. My younger sister asked if she could try it too. She hasn't experienced it yet because she always decline whenever we tell her to enjoy the rain.

Now that she's a bit grown, heck time flies! she's already tall, she wanted to experience it with her friends. Luckily, my mom allowed her and off she went! I thought my mom would disagree because at times, she's a killjoy.

Before my youngest sister go out of the house, she asked me if I wanted to go too since my eyes shine whenever I ask her to enjoy it. Of course I said no.

She asked, 'Why not?'

My petty answer? Because I'm not a kid anymore.

I laughed at her reaction because this is how she reacted:

Her reaction: What? I don't get it.

Then she went outside to have fun.

I actually contemplated the words I uttered. Why do I, or maybe, we, use this kind of excuse in having fun?

There are times when I want to do what kids do. When I babysit my nieces and nephews, when I take care of my younger students, I feel like playing with them too. Playing freely, enjoying and not minding what other people would say. Now that I know better, why do I push the kids to have fun while here I am, restricting myself? haha funny how ironic it is!

Have you experienced it before? When you want to play in the playground, wanted to try those rides for kids (I remember @Ayane-chan, she mentioned before that she likes to ride the train for kids but then she remembered she's not a kid anymore, hello Ayane!) but you can't because for us, only kids can have fun, but that should not be the case.

I don't want my sister to think that having fun starts and ends with being a kid and that when you grow up, you can't have fun anymore because all you'd think about is how other people perceive you.

So, what did I do?

I joined her and her friends and that is one of the best decisions I've ever made! It was liberating! I felt free and happy at the same time.

We shouldn't suppress ourselves from having fun. Play that game. Enjoy that ride. (even if it's the ride for adults, go ahead 🤣, if you know what I mean!) It's worth our time.

When was the last time you enjoyed showering in the rain?

August 9, 2022