I wish I had his life

I looked above the sky one night time when I was at the shore sitting and calming my disturbed mind. It's not always everyday that I am okay. I'm not Yakult. I was just there by the shore just few steps away from my auntie's house. I decided to go there because I want to unwind and adjust my focus. There was a problem at home that ignited the fire between me and my mom for she will always be at the side of my brother who's 3 years younger than me (I am 21). We exchanged hurtful words and I did not felt any regrets after because she deserves to hear my side too. I have my voice as well that needs to be heard.

Because of that, I decided to be lonely for one night, all by myself. I chose to be by the shore because the ambiance during night time was so serene. No one could notice that I am sad as well. I bought 2 bottles of Smirnoff and just sat there thinking about my life.

What if we can choose our parents?

What if? Would you rather choose someone else or would you stick with your parents now?

We can't deny that not all parents are responsible. Some just enjoyed the part when they created us and then ignore us after they conceive us. Isn't it our fault to be born? Then why some parents neglect their children even the young ones? Can you imagine the street children? They are the ones who are neglected by their parents and worse is that they are being used by their parents to beg for money. Some street kids were even carrying their younger sibling who's just a year old. I wonder if they can choose who their parents will be, would they still stick with the kind of parents they have now? Because if I were one of them, I will choose to be with the kind of parents who will take care of me where I can have a bright future.

Then I asked myself the same question. What if I can choose my parents? Would I choose someone else?

I admit my parents are not perfect. They don't provide us with everything we want and sometimes even needs. They often quarrel as well. Our life is hard and our financial side is not stable that's why I decided to work. Sometimes, I thought of exchanging my parents to those ones who are wealthy. Let's be real. How lucky are we if we are born with wealthy parents. We don't have to worry about our allowance for tomorrow especially our future for our parents already have saved something for us.

I have this friend of mine who has a loving and kinda wealthy parents. In every exam, he doesn't have to worry about the admission slip anymore because all of his tuition are fully paid. Unlike me, or even some of us who have written a promissory note that we will pay our tuition at a certain date so we can take the exam. Though it won't take much of our energy, we sometimes felt sad because of it. We can't avoid to compare our situation to the rest of our classmates.

This friend of mine also had enough allowance so his mind would not get tangled by thinking how to make the allowance last for one week. He also has his own car which he can ride on everytime and can take him anytime to school rain or shine. Unlike the rest of us, especially me, who only rode a motorcycle to go to school that even if it's raining, I will still go because I don't want to be marked as absent. Though I got soaked with the rain, I don't have a choice but to carry on and still attend classes.

For these reasons, I think life is unfair.

For these reasons, I would like to have the life of my rich classmate.

I looked high above and saw a shooting star so I wish for something.

I wish I had his life.

Actually I tried wishing this many times when I see shooting stars for they said your wish will come true when you wish on it. I just believed them because nothing can be taken away from me if I believe.

But then after I drank all the bottles of Smirnoff, I went home because I realized something. Perhaps all I need was just an alcohol to absorb everything.

I know our life wasn't perfect. Those people who are born with silver spoon in their mouths have problems as well and they deal with something we don't know. There are no perfect parents. It's only up to their children on how they value the things their parents can give.

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