“Do we necessarily need money to be treated as humans?”

Have you ever experienced that feeling of when you're considered worthless and have never done anything right your entire life?

My life sometimes is close to this.

I was belittled and still belittled by the people whose eyes are waiting for my downfall and mistakes. Even I didn't mind their life choices and actions.

I first experienced being criticized when I decided to stop working and stayed at home from my pregnancy and chose to be a hands-on mom.

They look down on me because I am only staying at home, earning NO money at all. That I am jobless and just another mouth to feed. Yet, I just wonder why they're very affected when they're not the ones who are feeding me and my family?

Life during those times was a day with terror and nightmares, I was being condemned and was told I have nothing to be proud of. That I am worthless because I have no income and couldn't bring money at home.

To be clear, I have no problem with my husband, he understands me and he wanted me to be hands-on with our family. However, some people love to judge.

Those happened 4 years ago, but the heavy feeling, whenever I remembered them, is still here. I couldn't forget it and the people who belittled me and judged my life like I was just a useless being.

It was in the year 2019 when I gave birth to my secondborn. At that time, I was determined to get an extra income to help my partner. I already shared it here in my article, “How BCH changed me”.

To make the story short, I came across read.cash and until today I'm still actively publishing my writings here. Who would ever think, that this woman who's belittled and was criticized is now saving and receiving BCH for a year now?

Who could ever say that this woman who's known as a shy and quiet one I could write thousands of words and bravely shared them here in a world that's full of strangers?

Who would ever think that this penniless and worthless woman is now the one they call out for financial help?

I'm not bragging, I'm not earning or holding a huge amount of $$$ here, my point of writing this article today is that, do I need to earn first to show to them that I deserve to be called and treated as human?

I just always turn emotionally whenever I remember my old self, carrying my innocent little boy with all their eyes on me.

I still remember how a family member made fun of and judge me because of my situation.

There was a family reunion in the family’s ancestral house at that time and all the invited ones were the closest bloodlines.

I was putting my son to sleep in the room of my deceased grandparents when my Aunt called me to help wash the dishes. I told her that I will put my son to sleep first, but she gave me a faint smile and called my cousin instead.

With a loud voice with a hypocrite’s tone making sure that everyone in the house could hear it, she told my cousin this,

“I'm so sorry, you need to wash the dishes alone, your partner (referring to me) can't make it... because she has a child!” and she laughed.

Everyone in the house was silenced, I inside the room was trembling but I never drop a tear from my eyes. Instead, I looked at my son's innocent face and started to wonder and prayed.

What's wrong with her, how could she treat me that way, when she's supposed to be a family, why?

At church, together with my Aunt again, we went to the Parish office, she paid for the prayer mass of her deceased parents who are my grandparents, and I was there to inquire about my son's baptism.

While I was filling out the paper, I was told by the office secretary to attend the mass on 3 consecutive Sundays with my husband and son as part of their seminar.

Then my aunt at the back asked me,

“How often do you attend Sunday masses”

“Lately, I couldn't attend masses every Sunday consistently,” I replied.

“Why?! You're supposed to attend masses! You're not living the Christian spirit!”

Then she turned and looked at my 9-year old cousin who was there together with us and said,

“You, you should study well and don't follow other people’s path, okay?!”

She told those words suddenly in front of the people around, as she was referring to something or about me, I felt I was put to shame publicly.

I was feeling miserable and worthless when she was criticizing my disposition and me as a person at that time.

I wish it was all just a nightmare, that as I wake up in the morning everything will be fine.

But it's far from reality, it was a week of hell being with her.

She just actually came here for a vacation for a week. And as she went back to Pampanga where she currently lives, I was relieved yet the scar she left me is forever carved in my heart.

I just wonder why should other people and worst a family treat someone badly because they're not financially fortunate?

Just because I am penniless and have no profession to be proud of, they look at me like I'm just dust for them to freely step by.

A year ago, 2020, the time I met read.cash and BCH, I started my small e-loading business from my articles, people around me started to glance at me differently. Some of them were now the ones who asked for a little help whenever they need my help.

And when some of those judgemental people suddenly knew about me writing some articles online, they look at me like I'm a decent person.

It's all because they're all believing I am making money.

Yet they don't know that I am just still an ordinary woman whom they have known before. It's just, I just learned my lessons, and those lessons were brought by them for me to figure out.

I learned to ignore and disregard the hurtful and hateful words, and don't let the harsh criticism affects my life again.

I was never ashamed of myself for choosing to be a hands-on mom and wife in my life until today.

Because of their judgments and negative opinions about me, I earned an inspiration to continue, not to prove them, but to prove myself that they are wrong, that I can do more and better even I am at home, thanks to read.cash and noise.cash, and of course Simon, you genius! Thank you for letting me join this BCH adoption, I would never think I could greatly embrace it in my life presently.

Maybe some of you may wonder if I fought back before, No, I didn't. I just let them judge me.

But I never regret that I never fight back against them before, because this is me, I won't let myself and my morals go down after them.

That's why the BCH I keep on receiving here has been a huge part of my life for a year now until today. That's why I couldn't be grateful more, though this coin is being criticized by others too, this coin helps me to recover myself from the crazy society I am living in today.

The nightmares I had 4 years ago and the one year and some months being here gave me new dreams and goals in life, it seems my old dreams were reborn and I could still see myself with BCH in the future. 🤞🏻💚

Today, I can still see other people belittle me, but they don't matter anymore. I just pray to God that those people who stepped on me won't do what they've done to me to anyone else, ever again. That they will realize that people don't just need money to be treated fairly as humans.

That we all deserve respect because we're just living the world temporarily. The money, the wealth, and the material things are just momentary, just like our life here on Earth.

No one can prove the existence of the fountain of life yet, and no money could save you from your end that's why being humane isn't a sin and will never be a sin.

Written by: @eommaZel ✍🏻🥀

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