Beauty? Who told you that you dont have one?
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,No matter how many times i heard this old adage, still I'm not convinced because i grew up with a thought that i have a kind of face that could stop a clock, it means i find myself plain and ugly! That's why at the end of this article I'm writing a short letter to myself to fully convince her that looks is not just about for an outside beauty,but it's more on the inside and being true to yourself. All of these perception started from here:
Elementary days
Eversince when I was a kid, I grew up thinking that I'm extremely ugly. Ugly for me, which means in a real sense! This feeling of insecurity started from elementary grade up to the time that i graduated highschool. I don't know why I'm one of my classmate's favorite in terms of bullying. Perhaps my immaturity and being childish lead them to do such! I admit I used to fight with them also in such a manner that I acted how the way boys act during those times! I used to act like them before that others mistook me as a lesbian. I love to wear shorts and t-shirts and prefer to hang out with boys while all the girls at my age often talked about their crushes. Others even engaged into relationship that early while as for me all I'm thinking about was to play all the time, although i have crushes then but it never occurred to me to enter into a relationship that early. For me it's a big no-no in my part! Maybe i think differently from other normal girls who already love to wear make up in such an early stage. Im asking, am i really normal at my age? Maybe there's something wrong about me that holds me back to become normal like others
Highschool Days
My inferiority complex started to get worst during my highschool days. Why? Im not confident with who I am. Everytime I look at my other classmates, i can feel I'm different! They are very womanly while I'm not. Everyday I kept on comparing myself to them and I can tell that they are attractive girls that most of the boys in class can make head turns and others even fall for them! I can't help myself get jealous of their stunning beauty particularly during those times when I started to have feelings towards opposite sex! I thought i was immune to their charms until one day I'm starting to have this deep desire towards this particular boy. Though i have so many crushes but here's this one guy who outstand them all. At first, i just let my feelings grow, I'm not even expecting them to love me in return. I know my limitations, i know where i stand! Seeing them from afar, i mean my crushes is already enough for me! But they wont leave me in peace, they keep on bothering me, pestering me, especially with with my looks! I blamed my father for that because he's one of the reasons why I'm always being bullied. Father used to have my hair boycut, his reasons, so i can have it ready all the time even without fixing much!
The bullying continue and it goes on and on until it became a daily routine and I'm already get used to it! Anyway they're the ones getting hurt physically because i hit them real hard everytime they teased me!
My highschool memories is all about bullying, studies, and puppy love. To sum it all, those memories aren't that bad at all but it leaves a marked and contributed a lot of how I perceived life today. With this reason, I'm writing a letter to my inner self hoping for a positive result.
Dearest Inner Self:
You may stop from there! Stop thinking about yourself that you're not pretty because you are!
You may not exude a beauty like britney but you have your own that makes you unique.
I know you started it all wrong, you started the wrong perception from the beginning! It's not just about the outside beauty but it's more than meets the eye!
Remember we are wonderfully made and created by God according to his image. All of his creations are beautiful and so are you. You might think that you aren't pretty because you're just as shallow as what you think,sometimes what you see is what you get! You're so stupid! There are many opportunities in life that you didn't take because of that negativity.
No! It's time for you to change and flush that out in your body. Look behind with the things that cannot be seen by the naked eye!
Perhaps you only have the wrong notion about beauty because of your negative outlook in life that blinded you to see the reality.
It's time for you know that every woman is different, every woman has it's own potentials and that's what makes everyone special including you! Imagine when god created us with the same physical attributes, everyone is just like someone else then no one will stand-out, how boring life could be if that's the case.
Everytime you criticise yourself, you're doing it with God. Im sure you're still not convinced, but one little secret to become beautiful is when you know that you have it in yourself. If you think that you aren't, then that's how others also sees in you.
Learn to appreciate what God has given you, enhance it the way you can because everything you feel about yourself will reflect and radiate from within.
Stop comparing yourself from others and embrace the reality! Each one of us is different and that differences made us all unique. You'll never know that being beautiful equates bigger responsibilities and consequences. In fact, others find beauty as a curse. Why? Many beautiful woman are not happy, they are prone to earthly temptations. Some of them were being raped and harassed and become a victim of this world's cruelty. Can you handle that situation? So if not, the best thing that you can do is discover your potentials that god gave you and make the most out of it in order for you to become the best version of your self.
Believe it! Feel it! Remember what you believe, and what you feel is what you are.
Truly yours,
Other self
Im writing this article , knowing that there are lots of people whose confidence level are extremely low like mine but I already conquered it all by embracing the reality behind the beauty of life. Enjoy reading and I'm hoping you will learn from it.
By the way thank you to all my generous and supportive sponsors old and new for trusting and believing in me! You're a great help and you're one of my motivation to write more in this journey. Thanks!!!
God bless everyone!!!
nabully din ako nung elementary at highschool days ko at same tayo sis I am not girly kind of person.Pero para sa aking We are beautiful in our ways.Yung beauty is in the eye of the beholder ,kung sa tagalog depended kung sino nakatingin sayo kasi yung iba my halong inggit kaya kahit anong ganda mo na pangit ka pa rin sa mata ng inggitera