Stalking my past flirtationship

You have read that right. LOL. It was probably 2 weeks ago when I stalked my last flirtationship. Out of nowhere I just decided to check his Facebook. I know I have commented this on one of @Jeaneth's noisy post on noise.cash that I was planning to check "his" Facebook (or I think I have already stalked him. LOL) because I miss him. For some reasons I just missed him during those times and then I realized that around those times 4 years ago was the time that he started not talking to me. I have already shared the story about it but he was mad at me because I stayed until 12 midnight in a restaurant alone. You may think that he's only worried but that restaurant was where our old workmates were working. He thought that I was waiting for someone that is why I stayed until those hours. But honestly I only waited until I can book a Grab. That day was the day the Uber stopped their operations here in the Philippines and booking a Grab car was really hard. I think it was around 5PM when I tried booking a Grab. I was still inside the train going to Quezon Avenue station when I started booking a Grab but it was too difficult. Cabs, jeepneys and UV express were also difficult that I decided to go to a mall to kill time. It was only at 12AM when I was able to get a Grab. It also rained that afternoon when I was waiting for any public transportation that it made it even harder to get a ride. Bad day, bad timing.

To make the long story short, he got mad because he thinks I have a new guy. Only to find out that it was him who had a new girl. I think I received 191 exclamation points from him as he was really angry at me. I thought that we would be able to patch things up after a day but we didn't. I still messaged him on Viber after a couple of days but I never got a response. Weeks and months have passed and I have never heard from him.

I even thought that he would greet me on my birthday but I was surprised to find out that he has a new girl. She was actually pretty. I found out about it when I had my advance celebration at the store where our friend was working. She told me that she and her fiancee together with her other friends drank at the store where my past flirtationship was working and then they continued drinking to a different spot when he was already out. Even if my past flirtationship came with his workmates, our friend told me that she felt something with the girl that he was with. I immediately checked our past conversations just now to see if she sent me a picture of that night. I ended up checking my friend's thousands of photos. LOL. When I was suppose to save it, I accidentally pressed the exit button. No photos of that night. LOL. I do not want to browse those thousands of photos from 4 years ago.

So going back when I stalked him. His current girl did not change her profile photo. Her account was private so I tried my best to still look for new updates about her and my past flirtationship. And boy oh boy, I was really good in stalking. Indeed, a girl who has been cheated on is better than any investigation agencies. LOL. I was able to find new photos of my past flirtationship and his girl. At first I thought that the photo was their second son. Their first son died after 48 hours of being born. Yes, I know about that as well. LOL. So they were able to make another child and still it was a baby boy. When I saw photos and videos of the baby boy, I was curious if it was a throwback photo of their second son. I still browsed that Facebook profile and confirmed. It was their third son. OUCH! They have a new baby that is almost a year old.

They are really living like a happy family now. They are not yet married but they looked like they were really happy. I am happy for them but I was really heart broken when I saw those family pictures. What made it hurt even more was when I saw a video of them when my past flirtationship was cutting his second son's hair and the mother of their children was beside him while holding their third son. Double kill. LOL.

I had those "what ifs" after I have stalked them. What if it was us? Would we also have some babies? Would my parents allow us to be together? Where would we live if we end up being together? Would we be living here at my parents' house or we would be living alone as a family? What if I did not go out that time 4 years ago? Would we still be together? What would be our future if we ended up together? Would we live happily just like how they are right now?

Currently they are living together with the mother of his girlfriend. And I think the mother is into cryptocurrencies because she had a lot of shared posts of Axie Infinity. Or maybe my past flirtationship and his new girlfriend is the one into crypto. I really do not know because I cannot view the Facebook of his girlfriend.

I do not know if I will stalk them again in the coming weeks, months or years. I have already moved on but sometimes we do get curious about their current loves that is why we stalk them. LOL. Have you also stalked your past relationships? What did you see and how did you feel? Maybe because I do not have someone in my life that is why I stalked him. Or do you guys still stalk your exes even if you are already in a relationship. Let me know because I did not stalk my first love when we were together. That ends my stalking journey. LOL.

P.S. lead image was one of our photos together. As much as I wanted to share some photos of what I saw, I cannot.