My plan

Counting has officially started. I received a message from our neighbor who was my college batchmate. She updates me with the partial and unofficial presidential tally. I remember when I was a kid whenever we would watch news that it was still manual counting. Manila papers on the board and they were using permanent markers to tally each votes. I am not sure how long it takes in tallying those votes per precint then but thanks for the counting machines as it has been easier now.

Now let's get down to a more personal and a little serious talk. Lately I have been feeling a little unmotivated. I do not know why or when or how but I just feel like I am not that excited to check my notifications here and on noise.cash. I may or may not have published or posted on both platforms but I feel as if I am not the bbyblacksheep (or Jonna) that I once was during my whole journey on both platforms. I admit that there were moments when I have felt like giving up and the first time was when I lost almost all of my seed phrases. Thankfully, I had a few BCH saved here on my read.cash account that I have not yet transferred to my wallets. And I was also thankful that I logged in to my account on my dad's new phone that time and did not logged out so I was able to retrieve my seeds. With the little BCH that I had that time, I started again and I was able to stand again with the help of my virtual friends. I was really on the verge of giving up. Then after a couple of months, I got demotivated because I was not earning like how I used to before. However, I remained thankful because I was still able to pay my bills and I was also able to save even a little of my BCH.

And now I am feeling it again. I think I am just worried with what I saw on my notifications. I haven't read the articles yet from some of our fellow read.cash users but of course it has something to do with this platform. You have probably read and commented on some of their articles or even made an article of your own but can you tell me what your Plan B would be if there will come a time that we had to say goodbye to both platforms? Honestly, I was worried when I read those titles on my notifications. Until today I still do not know what my Plan B would be. There may be some other money earning platforms but I must say that read.cash and noise.cash are different and I am definitely sure that you will all agree with me. Not only did we get to earn on both platforms but we were also able to express our feelings, thoughts, rants, opinions and everything else just by publishing an article or making a noisy post. We all had the opportunity to earn while enhancing our writing skills whether it was in our native language or in English. Some of us became creative in making fictitious story whether about love or horror.

I have said it a few times before that thid platform had helped me not just financially but also mentally, spiritually and emotionally. But right now, I cannot say that I am mentally, emotionally and socially well. All of a sudden I just felt like I am losing interest not just in publishing articles or interacting with someone but life in general. These past few days I have felt like my contents were not something that I have given much thought. I have also not been a little inactive on noise.cash. Am I stress? I think not. Talking about stress made me look at my past records on my smartwatch but I only had a few times that my stress level went up. I was thinking why I was stress yesterday from 6PM to 8PM. It was during the time that we had to look for another pizza place online. And even if we had placed our orders, I didn't realize that I was still stress. Probably my subconscious mind was thinking that we will be able to eat around 8PM. But I was half asleep after we placed our orders because my migraine was so annoying.

Anyway, I am not sure what brought about this sudden lose of interest. I guess my Plan B will be to really focus on my business and Youtube channel since I have been on hiatus for more than a year. I do miss working in restaurants but I think I already had enough customer complaints and irate customers before. I feel like I am done being an employee and what I want is for me to be an employer. And while we are still able to enjoy and benefit from both platforms, I think it is about time that I should really save something from it so that I can have what I can say that was from all my hard work and dedication. It may be something that can make me remember that it was from read.cash and noise.cash. I know almost all of my Shopee orders during the pandemic were from my earnings on both platforms. Even if I used my card in my last purchases, it will still be my earnings that I will use to pay for it. But wouldn't it be nice if you will have a 7-digit savings account that was from these platforms or build something that you have earned from here? Those are what I also like.

If that day will come that we cannot use both platforms anymore, I just hope and pray that the virtual friendship that we have built in these platforms will still carry on. Who knows maybe we can all get to meet each other. There have been some people that I know who just met in this platform, seen each other and became super close friends and the rest was  history. For now, let us enjoy and grow our friends while earning and doing what we love. I will try my best to bring back the motivated me and sociable me.

May 09, 2022

P.S. lead image is a photo of my planner that I took before.