A day without him

Blog:133-13th
Date :July 20,2022
Time :4:51pm

For the people who's been following me here, I am sure you all know what I am been through this time. Especially in my marriage life. At first, my plan was to wait till the electricity at my parents' will was fixed before we move in there but then I changed my mind yesterday morning because my husband ignores me like I am the one who has at fault.

I am fed up. I can't live with him anymore. I need to leave him quick or else I'll go crazy. He is the one who made a mistake and why he has the gots to be mad at me and show me a cold treatment. Bagag nawng(Thick face)Even if we are not okay I still do what he asks like to pass his Resume and Application. I still care for him because I want him to have a job, of course, so he can support his son. But when I got home from work last Monday, he doesn't even say thank you. Then yesterday morning he's ignoring me like I don't exist. He eats his breakfast alone without calling us to eat. I was in the same area where he eats but he was acting like he doesn't see me. I felt so hurt.

So I told my daughter to pack some of her clothes and some clothes for her brother because we will be leaving soon. When I got home yesterday my husband was asking me where is the key to the motorcycle because he wanna use it but I told him we will be leaving so he can't use the motorcycle. He doesn't say anything. Maybe he thought I was just joking. We leave the house with only two backpacks. When we are about to leave Uncle Pino(The owner of the house where we stayed) was asking me why I really need to go, of course, Uncle Pino didn't know our situation, he was telling me to talk to my husband and try to fix it since we are already married so I just answer me that we are just married in the paper but he doesn't respect me as a wife. When we arrive at my parents' place, I was worried about my husband knowing that the last time I leave him he committed suicide, well he was so drunk at that time. I chatted with his sisters to look over their brother since they already know what happened the last time I leave him. It takes time for me to send my chat because we had a terrible internet connection at my parents' place. If they just have electricity then we can use our PLDT home wifi. We can only have faster internet at dawn time. I feel at peace when I woke up in the morning knowing that my husband was okay.

However, since I didn't bring a lot of our stuff yesterday I had to go back to my husband's place to get some important stuff. Of course, I know hubby will try to bug me. When I arrived he was busy cleaning the house since the door was open I just get in and start getting the things I need and pack them while doing some packing hubby started talking to me, asking for forgiveness and chances. He started crying knowing that I will never give him another chance I can forgive him but it was just for my peace. I gave him a lot of chances but he is abusing my kindness knowing that every time we had a fight I always give him a chance. I told him that he forgot when the last time we had a fight (last month) he promised to change and he will never do it again, I even told him before that if ever we will have a fight for the same reason then we will be over.

Today is the first day without him. I brought my son to my workplace around noon. My daughter felt bored at home because she can't access the internet and she also needs to register at Comelec. My son enjoyed watching his favorite videos on YouTube. He can choose whatever he wants. He falls asleep around 2 pm and wakes around 3:30 pm.

Ending thoughts

I am at peace knowing that my husband has already admitted his mistakes and also accepts my decision. He understands why I have to make that decision. I already forgive him. We have to be civil to our son. I just hope and pray that everything will fall into place according to God's plan.

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