From Talentless to ...

I came from a looking rich but technically poor family 😂. My parents can't afford to send me in private school where I can take an extra curricular like music, sports, arts etc. That's why I always envy other kids who can do whatever they want because they can afford it but I used that feeling to have a talent. I copy them 🤭😂.

Dancing

I really love dancing since I was child and even I have a crooked foot 😂. There are steps that I can't copy but I always dance in rhythm and right timing. The first song dance that I tried was "boom shack-a-lack" and followed by ging gang goolie" when I was in 2nd grade school. My aunt have to watch me practicing to protect me from my bullies. When Im in a 5th grade, I choreo secretly the "my Sharona" , why secret? I'm shy and I feel that they will going to tease me because of my crooked foot 😂. After that, I never practice for me to improve but everytime that there's a mandatory dancing, they can't criticize me because I can dance gracefully 🙈😂.

Singing

Well, I really don't have a good voice and as I've said on my previous article, my directress laughed at me when I joined the Choir 😂. But now, were dueting in star maker karaoke 🤭. Even my voice is sounds like a cockroach (never heard a singing cockroach), it didn't stop me to sing in the bathroom 😂, and disturb my neighbor 🙈😂. But mostly, I'm just day dreaming that I'm the one who singing the song that playing on the radio or mp3. Because I am a music addict, I'm the one who teaches to my friend that always joining in singing contest how to sing the song and the right timing 😂. When me and my friends have get together and having a karaoke as bonding, I just sing with them without a mic, because all of them have a great singing voice while me have a big hand to clap for them 😂. Until I joined in karaoke challenge led my great friend that makes me practice every week 🙈. Because of his support and good words, I enjoy the challenge and I practice alot to improve more. And now, I can sing a Whitney Houston song 😂 (in a cockroach version 😂)..

Playing Kalimba

I always dreaming that I can play a music instrument like drums, piano and saxophone but I never had a chance to get a lesson for it because we don't have in public school and my parents can't afford to enroll me in music lesson. I already tried to play a drums and beat box once and I really enjoyed it, but I can't buy those kind of instruments even I save for it because my grandma and my dinasour aunt will not allow me 😂. So I got an interest to playing guitar, how many times that I had a guitar but never learned, until now, I have one but I don't know how to play 😂. And I noticed that my gf always amaze to some people who knows how to play a music instrument, I was like- I have to play even one music instrument, Until I saw a woman playing a kalimbA on YouTube and watch all her videos , and decided to buy it. Then boom! I can play now because it's very easy 😂, I just have to be a pro and play it in my own style. So I have to practice more. Maybe the harmonica will be next 🤭.

Crafting

I'm not really into crafting but I need to learn and make a sample for the family business so I search on Pinterest what crafts that I'm going to copy 🙈😂. Then I saw the quilling and string art and make alot of samples of it, I'm not good on it but until now, there's an urge to me to improve my craft on it and use again in business.

Drawing and Painting

I know that I'm already have a talent on drawing but I didn't focus on it. I never asked my parents to make a project for me if it's related in art, I'm not the good but I know now to draw. Even my friend always ask for a help when she was still a teacher and need to draw. I just recently found out that I can paint too 😂, I just copy my best friend and my gf push me to continue it. Now I paint some pots and wood crafts and going to sell it, but of course, I want to level up and improve more. I want to try to paint in canvas and want to try digital art in the future .

Photography

Before I joined tsu - photography app, I already had an interest in mobile photography. So just timely that I can improve mine, but it didn't happen because I focused how to learn in editing plus my style is very different to them. So when I move in other app, my gf commented once that my posts is always inviting an interaction, because it's genuine and funny. So I was like, so you complimenting my caption because the picture is not that good 😂. But when I saw my gf complimenting other people because of stunning pic and place, I was like - noooooo! I should be good in photography too even I don't have a stunning place 🥺😂. But still, I want to focus on my style - minimalist mobile photography.

I thought my singing voice will not improve because of my cockroach voice, will never learn even one music instrument, and I never expected that I'm going to paint. I did that because I was inspired, I want to be adored too of some particular people, admired and to be proud of too. Yeah! I did it just for it, but improving it for me. Well, I know I'm not still good like others, but I'm still on the processing of improvement. How old I am? I'm 37 years old but still growing. Don't stop learning...

I remember my friend when he told me that I should have a talent, but I answered him jokingly - I don't need that , I'm pretty. But he take it seriously and told me - you can be adored to your simple beauty but it's different feeling when someone compliment you because of your talent. And now, it hits me..

Feel better.. for real 🖤