September 23, 2021
How are you today people? Are you feeling good or not? I hope you are all in good condition wherever you are in the earth. As for me, it's pretty obvious what I'm feeling today.
Have you ever experienced something that when everything was already planned but later you know it is being cancelled? What would you feel if there's something you need to do but the situation won't allow you?
Frustration is an emotion when someone's expectations are not met. It is a feeling or emotional response to stress. Additionally, Wikipedia stated that frustration arose from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of an individual's will or goal and is likely to increase when a will or goal is denied or blocked.
This coming Sunday is my mother's birthday. Last month, my sister told me that my mother wanted me to be present in her birthday. On my part, I also wanted to go home. I missed them so much. I miss the feeling of being in our house. Where I can be myself. What I mean is I can express everything. When I want to joke around and laugh hard. I missed the good vibes, the people, EVERYTHING.
When September 1st came, their province imposed a strict travel restriction. There are many requirements needed in order to pass the border. I got worried reading their announcement. But I find ways for me to attend my mother's birthday. I require some of my acquaintances and they told me the necessary requirements that are being checked by militaries who post a guard at the border. I was happy since the requirements are accessible. So I believe that I could go there. I already planned what I am going to bring, my outfit and other stuff.
But unforeseen circumstances happened. My partner's mother is done with her vacation at Holland. She is currently having her hotel quarantine at Manila. She will finish her 10 days quarantine on Saturday, and on that day she will be flying home. My partner and I are bit worried because she wants to finish her quarantine at home. Yesterday, my daughter has a fever until this moment. She is very fragile at this moment and we are worried about her if my partner's mother really have a home quarantine. My partner's uncle advised us to stay at my partner's father temporarily until his mother will be done her home quarantine. But my partner is not comfortable with his father. Even me, I am not also comfortable with his father. My partner believes that his father is still using drugs secretly. Thus, we are now confused what to do.
With this situation, my plan on my mother's birthday cancelled. My partner told me that it will be hard for us to go to my mother's birthday since we can't bring our daughter. I can't leave my daughter in her situation now as well. Arggghh! It is very frustrating. I was so excited back then to be with them but our situation hindered me from being with them. My partner asked me to cancel my plan. I have no choice but to concurred. Since morning until now, I am very frustrated but what can I do? It seems like fate didn't conform my plans. Maybe I'll just wait for another chance.
Sometimes in our life, we have many frustrations and disappointments. Our goals that we failed to attained can give us the feeling of being irritated and frustrated. But as they say there are things in our life that are beyond our control. In order for us to calm our frustrations is acceptance. We need to accept that there are things that are not meant to happen. And that is what I'm doing right now. I need to accept that our situation right now is not easy because of this pandemic. I need to accept the fact that not everything I planned is achievable. I remember, there was a person who once told me, "do not put your expectations too high because it will lead you to a bigger disappointment".
That is for today people. I thank you once again for your continuous support. I am forever grateful to all of you. Stress less. Happy more. Godbless everyone and be safe always.
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