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He was my crush for ten years.

I came across the article of @sc and @Pachuchay sharing about thier crushes and as I was reading their comments I remember my crushes way back then. Before I share it here , here's the article of sc and pachuchay. ***To all the boys I loved before*** https://read.cash/@sc/to-all-the-boys-i-loved-before-b6ff6bed ***Crush or Crushed.*** https://read.cash/@Pachuchay/crush-or-crushed-57c1be89 So before I start , I want to share what are my types. I mean what's the reason why I am attracted to a guy. First, I am attracted to moreno guy as I find them so manly. Second , I am attracted to smart guy , who's not right? Third , I am attracted to a mysterious type of guy , the silent type of guy but there's something more inside him. ***Elementary Days.*** When I was in elementary I had only one crush. He was my crush from elementary up to fourth year High School. Long enough right? But it's true. When I was in grade one he was my classmate , I think I am six years old that time and I am attracted to him because I find him handsome. He has a fair skin like what I like and he was also smart. He was our second honor that time and the first honor was his cousin and that cousin of him was very close to me. I am not with my crush because he has a different set of friends and also it feels like he was envy with his cousin because he was only second honor. My feelings for him was kept hidden. I didn't tell it to my classmates because I don't want to get bullied. Some of my classmates teased me with his cousin because we were close. Grade six came and he was our class salutatorian and his cousin was the class valedictorian. Because they have High honors , the parochial school in our hometown offered them a scholarship and when I heard about that I got sad because I can't able to see him on High School because I am going to study in the public school. ***High School Days.*** Since they are studying in private school while me in public I had no chance to see him everyday until on my second year in High School we became active in the youth organization in our parochial church and every Tuesday and Thursday after our class we are attending activities in the church. Everytime we were in the church I can able to see him because he studied there. I am staring at him from far and he's not aware that I'm there. On those times that I saw him I feel so much happiness and it feels like my day was complete. I even wrote a letter on him every time I saw him and keep that letter on the box. Then last year of High School came and I will be going to Manila. I asked our neighborhood which is joymundido in noise cash to get some photo of my crush but I told her not to tell him that I am the one who asked for it. Then joy came holding a picture but the picture was my crush when he was a kid. She said he only stole it in the house of my crush. ***College Days.*** I was in Manila that time when I knew that he was studying in NEUST and my classmates in high school was his classmate too. I asked my former classmate to get the number of my crush and then gave it to me and he did. I texted that number and I introduced myself but it seems he was not interested to me. I keep in texting him and sending him a group message until someone replied introduced herself as a girlfriend of my crush. I replied to her saying I am not harmful and she replied me with the message " what a word " . After that I stopped texting him and even crushing him as I put myself of liking him for a very long time and ended up like this. ***Worship Days.*** So way back 2013 , I had a boyfriend that time , lets call him Mr. Hot Air Balloon. So Mr. Hot Air Balloon invited me to attend worship service in our hometown and when we came there I was surprised because my crush was the one who preached the gospel infront and I have learned that he's a pastor that time. ***We had a conversation.*** Last 2018 we had a conversation because I asked him about the details on how to -apply for dedication in the church. I am planning to dedicate my little one in their church but thins change because we found a nearer church here in our place. Now , the last thing I knew about him was he got married last December 2020. `Authors note: I have a part two of this article about my High School and College crushes.`

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