My husband went to the hospital yesterday for his follow up check-up about his intravitreal injection and also for the result of his series of laboratories. He was the one who went there because as you all know my readers, my mother left the house again and I am the one who will take the responsibility of taking good care of my son and niece. So he went to hospital by seven in the morning because his schedule is nine thirty in the morning. By eleven in the morning I call him and asked what happened to the check up and he said the doctor who requested on him for some laboratories was not available that time that’s why his doctor referred him again to other doctor so that the his doctor will knew the result of his laboratories.
Upon checking on his laboratories they found out that he has some nodule in the lungs. The doctor said its just a small spot but its not a tuberculosis. Then the doctor prescribes a medicine that he need to take until December 20 before his follow up check up again. When he arrived I saw the medicine that he was saying but its not a medicine, it’s a food supplement. The name of the food supplement is keltican.
He arrived at the house by 4 PM and he started to share what the doctor told him..
Next month will be his last intravitreal injection and the doctor said after that injection we need to wait for four month to know if the injection is effective and heal the vein in his eyes. If theres an improvement then he will continue the injection again but when theres no changes theres no other choice but a retina surgery. I told him that after four month we will check if we can do the operation in the public hospital so that we can save money.
Then he said he asked the doctor why the one that is affective is his one eye only and not the both and the doctor said theres a cases that organ didn’t damage in a same time and from there he got scared and think what if in the future his other eye will be affected also. Then he also asked the doctor if the operation will be successful , does his eye will be back to normal and then the doctor said it will not back to normal. It will remain damaged but the damaged will not going to continue.
Then he stated crying and he said he wants to see us for longer years and he shared the he was crying while riding on the jeepney while listening to the worship song entitled unchanging God. He shared me what the song leader said “ Jesus save to yesterday, now and forever. He didn’t fail us from the past so that He will not going to fail us today. He is the same, He is true and will never fail. “. And he added , he will surrender all of it to the Lord because he know God will never fail him because God is the one who created him that’s why God is also the one who will heal him.
As much as I want to show that Im strong I cant. We cried together and I said to him that it is not accident that you heard that song while on the jeepney. It is God who made it. He wants you to feel that He is there with your fight then he cried again.
I am also afraid on the idea that he will going to be blind thinking the worst case scenario but I promised myself that I will do everything to for him, for his medication, for the support, for the courage so that we will be hadle it positively.
That night we prayed together asking for healing but it is not the healing itself but the messaged that we need to know why we are experiencing this. We are for healing but we also lift up and surrender all of worries to Him. Then we thanked all of the people who help us with this battle. Those people who cared for my husband and for us. My husband thanked God for giving him a wife like me. I am crying while he was praying because I remember when people told him that “ nakachamba daw sya sakin then he replied hindi pa pwedeng deserve ko. “
As of this moment we already surrender it to the Lord but it doesn’t mean the we will not doing anything. Like what I always said a prayer without an action is dead. What I mean in surrendering we will not be worried because we lift it up on the Lord and like what I said on my husband don’t let ourselves to be stress on the things that we cant control. As much as we did our best then God will do the rest. God knows the desire of our hearts and I know He will never fail us.
Sorry for typo error if there's any. I didn't proofread this one. Goodnight guys and godbless. Thank you for reading.
This makes me sad :(