Hello Rusty, Even The Tiniest Effort Deserves A Compensation

Really wants to appreciate everyone who took out time to respond to my previous article, about God caring for us. Am sorry if I had sounded a little bit ungrateful or just too biased to realize that the life I live is God's precious gift. All the comments made me feel better though am still trying to get myself. 

Today am here to rant and I hope you will bear with me. Have come to realize even the biggest passion becomes longstanding when there is appraisal. When I was a child, each time the session ends and the successful students are called to the podium to be awarded for their hard work. 

I was not always called, mum will always return home though angry but she will always cover up with a smile. It went on for sometime, until she began to appreciate my little win.  At every end of the session, she will always take me to the dress shop to get me a new dress,congratulating me for having completed the session. It meant a lot to me and then I decided to stay focus and study harder. I became the best out of being praised for my little win.

I was wrong to rebuke others for writing for tips or not writing with enough passion. I was wrong to shut them off, making them feel they were ordinary beggars looking for a way to source there daily bread. I was so wrong, and am pleading with everyone to forgive me.

He hasn't visited my articles for quite some days now and am already losing focus. Not me writing for the tips but writing because I was always applauded.  

Am really sorry to friends I hurt with my earlier actions, I never knew being rewarded by rusty was not just for monetary gain alone, but was also a pat in the back telling you nice work, you wrote well today. Now all my articles am confused if I ever got it right, didn't I use the right words or my punctuations weren't properly placed ? Was I too quick to judge others and did that give rusty a wrong impression about me already. 

Passion without compensation, leads to reduction in services, am so down right now and don't even know what to write anymore. Am so happy for everyone who tips me, it's really encouraging, I must confess, but when I don't get that notification by rusty, it makes me worry and fidget.

Dear @TheRandomRewarder , I never wanted writing this in the first place, but it seems am losing out of your random visits, maybe not in tips but if they could be a notification also for the number of times you read an article maybe I would have been relaxed, knowing fully well I didn't do welll by to put in more effort. If only you could comment on articles too, just to tell us how you feel about our writings, maybe we could change, because right now, I lack the courage to carry on.

Just waiting for your honest response @TheRandomRewarder .