Hello my dear friends of the wonderful platform named read.cash and we're already on the fifth month of the year. What are you plans? I have lot off because my dear precious girl is turning three years old this month and your all invited.
Another month of my journey here in read and thank you for tagging me in I know God will bless you in your kindness.
I know all of us has their own insecurities mine was a lot and really distributed yes because after I gave birth my body change specially with my last child. I didn't gain weight like others but I really got more of a petit. But that was not I'm insecured off because I know my husbands affection for me will never change. I remember when his friends are visiting us they will make stories of my hubby they will try to tell me that he has an affair with other girl but In the end my husband will get mad because he really has nothing to hide. Sometimes I even tell him even if I die you're not hiding any bad secrets? And he'll just said he will not hide anything that will hurt me.
We've been 18 years together and he had four more siblings but I could say that his the only one that has a stable family. Their eldest is a single dad the second and fourth has no family yet but in the middle of 30's and the youngest, he had a wife but there separated his wife is teaching him a lesson.
Im more insecured because he weight much now and I'm afraid that If he will be seduce he might loose his control. There are lot of girls that was more beautiful rather than I and that's what I'm afraid off but i also think it will be the trial of our relationship. The key of our relationship was trust It can go beyond love I can't loved him more if I will not trust him with all my heart.
My complexion
Ever since I was child I was insecured of my complexion because my three closes cousins are a lot fairer than me. And sometimes up to now because I've no longer live on Manila this province will keep me dark but as a gained numbers of kids, I thought that I had nothing to worry about because I can stand staying at our house the whole day. And im not bothered anymore of my skin tone.
My hair style
Ever since I was kid I never get a chance to make my hair long its like a spell that whenever it get a little bit longer I will make fun of it and cut it myself. Also my eldest daughter didn't want her hair to be long. So after the results of a shoulder cut length I just pony tailed it, also because we experience a hot weather now. But now my chance not to be insecured because my youngest will have the beautiful Long black hair I want.
My skills in writing
The doubts I had was also my insecurities, before I got in here I was amazed of how people compose a lot of words that they called article. And as I hang in here I never thought how good they all are. Sometimes im scared that I'm just a shadow of everyone I admired of, but looking in my self pulling it all together, and even I'm no good to others I know I can! For those doubts thought me to become a better writers that I need to be.
Because read.cash isn't a battle to win it is a light of hope to everyone. A platform that will allow you to right whatever status we have. Smart smarter we all have our own reasons why we are here
And those insecurities will all turned to inspiration I may not an achiever an excellent one neither intelligent. But I know I have my own way of writing writing with my heart and I will never again hesitate to do what I really meant to do.
A mother
As being here in read.cash I know I need to divide my time being the person I want to be. Im Inloved with writing its like a different diary for me, and I admit that they we're a days that I will scream to them without further reasons Im easily annoyed when there are hard to teached. I was lonely and mad because I hate the feeling of being alone. Me vs my four kids what could I expect good thing that they have long age gap I might turned crazy if they were the same age.
I have a lot of questions and im insecured to know there answers, I know I'm not a perfect mom I do mistakes sometimes but it doesn't mean I didn't give my best just to fullfil my duty. I'm even happier because as the days goes by im getting used to it, Time management is really a big help and it will allow us to open the path we need to take.
Closing Thoughts
Dealing with Insecurities makes us more proud of our selves because we may either want to improve or waste our selves. Life is like a cryto sometimes the value is good sometime it's totally down just like ourselves sometimes in a positive mood or negative. But whatever it takes we need to remember that we have our selves that no one can beat even our own insecurities.
Thank you for your time reading and with all due respect I hope you my today's blog
Love, UsagiGallardo215 🌙
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