This is how I've been lately!

Hello there, Read. Cash! It's been a long time. This past month has been challenging; busy days knock me down, and failures knock on my door.

 I can't even express how frustrated I am with what has occurred; I've become somewhat demotivated and weakened by what has happened to me.

So that's how I've been lately.

I am aware that I am not in good health. Sometimes I makeup emotions to mask the real ones, listen to stories to distract myself, and watch movies to feel less alone in these uncomfortable feelings and situations.

I'm struggling now but I don't want the people around me to know. It's been difficult to pretend that I have almost everything under control when, in fact, I'm mucking things up and don't know what to do. I know it's difficult to talk about the things running through my mind lately because I no longer understand myself. Some things need to go my way, and others start to go wrong.

Sometimes I question my life and the difficulties I face. It's difficult to pretend I'm having sunny days when I have storms.

Knowing that the vulnerable me has no place in this world hurts me. As a result, I write them. I write them because everything in my "written me" is adjustable and therapeutic, and nothing hits me so hard when I'm alone. Because, in my "tired me," every second of people who showed up is significant. Not because this is "me lately," but because I will always be like this. I promise this "me" will be fine and even better.

I'm doing my best.

Trying your hardest only sometimes implies pushing yourself past your limits.

It's not always about pushing myself out of my comfort zone and into the unknown. Trying my best is as simple as getting out of bed, making coffee, and hoping there is more to see in life.

I know it isn't easy, but I don't want to give up. This isn't just my battle; I know I'm not alone in this bottle. I am aware that I have God. Even when things don't go as planned, I trust in His plan. I'll make it through. I'll be strong and keep fighting while taking breaks!

I am manifesting a good and positive future!

I miss writing here; how are you all?

It's already March, and I'm hoping for good callings, the right opportunities, blessings, and unexpected good news and growth for all of us.

This month will also be the month for people ready to embark on new life phases and chapters.

This will also be a month of healing for those who are disappointed, have doubts, or have lost their self-esteem and confidence.