Dear me...

Date: June 23,2022
Author: Sequoia

Dear me,

First of all, I would like to thank you for all the sacrifices that you made just to give the people you love a better life. Even if it means that you have to neglect yourself and set aside your desires and dreams. Even if you have to do the things that you aren't supposed to do. Thank you for enduring all the hardships, turmoil and challenges that comes in your way.

Thank your for being patient with those people even if it means that you have to delay your plans. Thank you for bearing it so that they don't have to. Your scars are the proof of your battles. Battles that the people you love never knew about. Battles that leaves scars in your flesh but especially in your soul as well.

Do you remember the time when you were asked to become the leader of the group? Unfortunately, you declined it because you believed that you don't deserved it. That you aren't born to be a leader but merely a support and a follower. Hey, look at you know, you are leading the family that you dearly loved. Leading them to a brighter future. Darling leadership is within us all. You just got to awaken it.

They may not understand your ways. At some point, you became harsh and strenuous to decipher but hey, please don't forget that you are doing this for everyone's sake. They may not see it now, but soon they will.

I know, you are exhausted. And sorry for pushing you to your limits. I am sorry for forgetting that you also have feelings and limitations. Sorry for denying you your right to rest. Sorry for always putting you in the last option and queue. Sorry for always pressuring you to figured out life as early as this. Sorry for comparing your path to someone else. Sorry for not accepting you as you are. Sorry. I don't have any words right now but sorry.

As you are about to reach another milestone in your life. I have no other desire for you, but for you to start living the life that you want and deserved. This time, I want you to cry your heart out. Curse everyone. Rant and just let the frustrations, disappointments, fears and discouragements come out . Let is flow and just free yourself.

After that, promised me that you will welcome the new chapter of your life with joy, positivity, contentment and deep understanding that life is unpredictable and uncontrollable, and you can't do anything about it. The only thing you can do is your response and ways on how to achieve your goals. I want you to engrave in the tablet of your heart that life is a beautiful thing and you should enjoy and cherish every moment that you are here in this world.

Love with all your heart without holding back. Be angry but do not stay in that stage for a long period of time. This time, never try to hide what you truly feel. Breakdown if you have to. Surround yourself with people who appreciates and love you. Never settle for less. You got this. You will get there. There's no need to rush. remember that all of us have our own perfect time. Most of all, always include God with your plans. Surrender everything to Him and you will be fine.

I love you and I am forever proud of you.

Yours truly,

Sequoia