Some Random Thought and the Birthday Celebration
Life for me is not easy. And to be honest living in this world is kind of hard. There's a lot of harsh things everywhere and if you are not brave enough to face them you will be left in the ground just crying helplessly. If you are are not strong to be on this kind of battle you will be crashed and even if you are left there unscathed the lingering thought of negativities will really leave you begging to be spared of the harsh reality.
It won't leave a scars in your body but you will still feel the pain - deep inside you. Isn't this is the most painful wound that anyone can receive and feel. It will never hurt you physically but your mind is what's much affected. That is why, even if I was put into a situation where my mental state is affected I still stand firm here with my strong mind. My mind is a bit crazy but if it's needed and the situation asked for it, I will be serious and face it head on.
And this is also the reason why even if Im bombarded with a lot of negative thought I can still smile and set aside those voice that is whispering in my ears to get crazy. I am not that weak to be affected by it. And I am not afraid to admit that I can't solve it all alone and if comes to that then I will just seek for a hand. I will cry if I have too and it is only the way that I can let it all go. If tears is elusive to me then I will create a reason to cry even if I hurt myself by doing it. If it is only the way to heal, then be it.
It is not like I will die on it. It is not like I will be punish if I admit that I am actually afraid with the situation I am in. Doing it will actually save me, I mean - it already save me. Because I never hesitated in admitting it. Life is already hard enough why make it more hard right? Why not just accept be happy? I know it's hard I've been there you know. When I am in that situation I feel like I was being strangled because of the pain that I am in. It is the kind of pain that is different from the wound that is inflicted by an accident.
It is the kind of pain that you will really wish, you can escape it. It will really make you crazy and if you didn't do anything about it, there is a chance that you will be crazy with the pain that it will do to you. As for me i'd rather have a physical wound that is treatable that to be in a pain that is hard to heal because it is mentally. In this kind of pain your fate will be tested also. Not just it will break your trust to your self but also your confidence might hit to zero. It's hard right? It is so extreme.
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But anyways, I'm just happy that I reach 28 years old in this world that is still the same which is a lucky go happy but now with goals in life. You might think of me that never experience such hardship in life because of how I view things and how I just laugh to all the problems in the world but that is how I made myself to be this strong. With thr kind of world that we have now we really need to have a positive outlook in life for us to go on.
Laugh with your problems and toy with it and that you'll be the one who will be toyed by your own problems. It's not easy to solve them all but it is not like it is unresolvable. You can still solve it. Yes we can. In every problems, there is a solution naman and that I think how problems is made. I don't know what's gotten into me but I guess being serious once in a while is not thag bad, lol. Minsan lang to, pag bigye na, lol. It's my day naman ee hihi.
And there ya go, let me also share this hihi. My body and my face is so big that I can't fit in this one frame. And now only half of the foods was caught, lol. Well it's better than nothing and - i'm excited to eat so whatever ┌|o^▽^o|┘♪.
We almost consumed that 2 box of pizza but because we are only 4 - there still 5 slice of pizza left and I just put it in the ref for tomorrows snack or maybe for breakfast, lol. We also had some Ice Cream yiehjjh just like what I plan.
Me Happy ┌|o^▽^o|┘♪
August 29, 2022
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Aruy! Achieved ang pizza hehe