Saying Goodbye is not the hardest, moving on is.

Saying goodbye to our love ones is so hard especially if you are close to that someone. Even if they are just going abroad to work, just thinking of it make the heart of those who will be left behind aches.

But what if that someone left you for good? Isn't it more heartbreaking. She didn't left just to runaway with her boyfriend or runaway for the responsibility that she has in her hand to her family. She left for good as in, car is her coffin and with her white dress..

She's my sister, and the first born of our mother to her first husbandoo. She need to work early to help mother from you know. I can't remember when did she go to Batangas to work but yeah, she move from Mindoro to Batangas ang start working there.

She experience a lot until she finally become the OIC in her work. She start from the bottom, before she finally become the OIC in their company. She just visit us here in Mindoro if she has time coz seriously his work is really hard. But even if she was in a vacation she can't still enjoy it coz of the phone calls that she is receiving from her people, asking this and that.

She's the one who get me in Mindoro, I already share this on my previous article. It is when I work as a promodizer in Robinson Lipa. And in a month of my stay with my sister, I saw how exhausting her work really is.

She's in charge of everything, she need to travel here and there to manage this other branch. Sometime she get home very late like 12AM. She ate late, she sleep late. Sometimes she need to travel for an hour to be able to get home. I also experience it because one time, I come with her in her work and my gosh I pity her for the responsibility that she had in her shoulder.

I feel like she will just fall on the ground anytime from too much exhaustion if she spend more time in her work. I can see it and feel it. Good thing is, everytime she has free time she can fall asleep fast.

Aside from sleeping, she also love reading story in wattpad. And even if she comes home late she will still have time to read some stories that's her only escape from her work. She also love watching movies she's into action.

But her favorite or she loves to do more than anything was to eat. She loves to eat, she's "matipid" in giving money but when it comes to foods the word "matipid" is not in her vocabulary. You can see it in her face naman that she loves foods just like me.

I still remember when she visit me in Calapan. The time when I had my surgery on my nose to remove the nasal polyp that grow into it. She really spend money just to visit me, I know that the travel expenses is also huge that's why I am very grateful to her.

I miss her na, I don't have my kabiruan na in the comment section of my post. I miss her teasing whenever I post a picture of mine. We call each other "Panget" and also call her "Ate Riza."

You know, 2 days before she died she wants to video call but I can't accept it coz my load end that day. And nagsisisi talaga ako that I didn't accept her call. If only I didn't used up my load that time, I'm sure I had the chance to hear her voice and see her.

It happen so fast, she just started vomiting non-stop with diarrhea. My brothers partner call me that my sister need to admit in the hospital na coz she's still not okay and hinang hina na sya kaka vomit niya. I am also blaming my sister coz if una palang she admitted herself na in the hospital, I'm sure she's still with us pa until now. But, she didn't coz she's thinking the money that need to spend if ever she will be admitted in the hospital.

And the same day she was admitted in the hospital, she took her last breath. She was revived for like 6 times but she still left us.

It feel so fast and I can't still believed it. Just like that her life was ended.

They said maybe because she eats to much that time. Sari-sari na ang laman ng tiyan niya. Foods that can't be easily processed in her stomach.

Time fly so fast, tomorrow is her 2nd year death anniversary. I still feel sad whenever I think of what happen to her. She's just 30 years old, she's so young and has a lot of dreams but it's end just like that.

Wherever you are now Panget, Ate Riza ko, I hope you are happy there. I hope you are okay there coz we who was left in here was okay. I just want to dream of you tonight, I hope this wish come true. I just want to see you smirking face and your thick brow raising at me. I know you're with our father na, happily resting without thinking of anything. I wish you were here Panget, I didn't even had the chance to say I LOVE YOU to you SISTER. I wish you can read this 😭.