Limang Daang Piso / Five Hundred Pesos

Limang Daan

Hindi yan Payb Way, kundi Limang daan

Anda, money, kwarta, five hundred, Limang Daan

Limang Daan na nagpapasaya sa aking Inay

Ang nagpapaliwanag ng mata nya parang sa christmas light

Nagpapaningning daig pa ang bituin sa limelight

Nagpapa indak na may kasamang sigaw

Sasamahan pa ng kanta na ang lyrics ay ligaw ligaw

Subalik mabalik tayo sa limang daan

Balikan na rin natin ang aking nakaraan

Nakaraan na puno ng kahilingan

At ano iyon? Ang mapasakamay din ang limang daan

Noong unang panahon, noong nag eexist pa ang Jejemon

May isang jejemon girl na humiling ng mamon

Hindi lang mamon kundi pati na rin hamon

At hindi lang hamon kundi pati na rin maong

Maong na pantalon na maaaring pagsuksukan ng limang daan

Na maaari nyang magamit para sa kanyang pangangailangan,

Sa mga gamit na maaaring pakinabangan

At pwd ring sa Paaralan

Kay dami nyang hiling hindi lang limang daan

Merong ding selpon na de keypad na sa kaklase nya'y isa lang laruan

Puno ng inggit ang naghahari sa bubot na dibdib

Animo'y bida sa teleseryeng inapi na di mapag bigyan

Ngunit sa lahat ng yan, limaang daan ang nangingibabaw

Maaaring papel lang yan sa iba pero napakalaki ng halaga

At ang papel na yan ang hiling na mahawakan man lang nya

Ngunit sa kinamalas malasa'y malas nga siya.

Kung sakaling limang daa'y kanyang nahawakan

Malamang na'y nagtatalon sa saya animo'y nakaabot na sa kalawakan

Hatid na saya, panigurado di nya mapag kakasya sa pusong naligayahan

Ngunit tatatak yon at yon ang maaari nyong panghawakan

O limang daan,

Bat kay hirap mong abutin

Daig mo pa ang may striktong itay

Sa manliligaw mong tagihawatin

Mapapasakin ka paba?

O katulad ng manliligaw na pinaasa

Ako'y ibabagsak rin

Damn it babe, awts, pain.

Let me tell you the meaning of this. I was in High School when I wished I have this 500 Philippine money or $9.03, I mean I own even one of that. Just for experience you know. A 500PHP that maybe given to me to buy anything that I want. The value of is too much already and you can even buy a grocery that is already worth of 2 weeks. The price of rice that time is not that high compare today. Those canned good and some other things, they are not that expensive. So the Value of that 500 is very big and I wished I have that before.

I wish I can freely spend it to the things that I want, foods or just everything. That amount to me before is really hard to get. I can't touch it easily like what can others do. Some has the allowance while I get 10PHP everyday or $0.18. And because of that I was jealous always. And to buy the things I want, I have to save it for weeks so I can have it. Compare to my classmate before I feel like that money is difficult to touch. During that time, my imagination is so active that those I wish I have, I can only have it in my imagination.

In my imagination, everything is within reach. I including that 500PHP. In my imagination, I am loaded of that 500. That I can just get it on my pants and buy this and this and this. I sound so materialistic but yeah, I really am. But those things can make me happy. Those are the things that can help me. For the kind of mother I have where every cents counts, I can't just ask and cry to have those things. Mom has a very cold heart and even if I cry to have her comfort me, she will just get mad to me more.

"Why I can't have it? Why others can? Why Mom is like that? Didn't she love me? Or is it because I am really not her daughter that is why she's like that." I have so many question in my mind. Yes in my mind. I never tried to voice out. What's the use. And I'm sure I will never get it. Because I think we can not that poor naman. But why it is very hard to get jt? Why only me? I am so immature that time but good thing I never voice it out. Because I understand now. And that wish, to have that 500php I never get that before but what's important is today.

I am proud that I can earn it now. I never just ask for it because I work hard to get it. If I want something for myself, I have to work hard to get it. From my own grindings and not just depends on my Mom. Coz I know now how hard to get it.

Those envy that I felt before. I am just laughing to it now. And also it become my motivation too, hihi.

August 11, 2022

--