Changing after Losing

October 10, 2020

I lost all my Bitcoin Cash because I was too stubborn and decided to risk everything. Including the one in the paper wallet, just 1 month before the November 2020 upgrade, which is a betrayal due to this addiction to the site BCH.games, and how simple their interface and how easy you can forget that you are essentially gambling your BCH. I had promised to make sure to keep it safe, and I had now lost BCH worth PHP 50,000+.

I'm writing this so I can warn everyone of the dangers of gambling and to tell myself to no longer play this game as much as possible and resort to bringing back 6 BCH by my own terms, even if it meant writing articles that will not get too much attention as 1 BCH is effective ~$250 and it meant being able to top the Top section of Read.Cash, something I cannot simply do without being famous, and I have been not that well-known yet.

It's actually a cathartic experience being able to gain everything for a few months and lose all of it, and I will have to simply stop using the website for a very long time. I apologize for all that I've done for myself, and with this lesson, I will learn how to be better and avoid these sites as far as possible.

I feel better, however, that 0.1 BCH has been turned into Tron and is currently being staked, and I also feel a bit better since roughly 0.25 BCH was used for me to finally allow me to put it to Steam and then 0.25 BCH were in my bank for a while, which I also lost.

My father had warned me about this a lot, and I can't blame myself for not following all of it. I apologize to him for all of it.

Right now, I will have to use all my remaining cryptocurrencies (and CoinPot faucets) to slowly recover all of the BCH I had wasted, and once I have 1 BCH all from my own earnings, not those won in a casino-like site like BCH.games, and when I do get this 1 BCH from all my hard work, I might promote BCH.games again, but I won't use it as much anymore.

I learned a lot from this day. I've learned that I'm not of an article writer as I wanted to be, I am a storyteller at heart. I've learned to not let greed take over and ruin my expenses because of a casino-like site, and therefore this will merely strengthen my resolve to never use a casino when I manage to get enough money to raise my family from poor. I've also learned to fully focus on what I love the most and ensure I get through college so I can ensure that nothing will stop my goals when I am knowledgeable enough to get into the wider economy, where I will have to face heavier difficulties than I have now. I'm too young for all of these, I should just focus on being a student.

This pandemic is really something to behold, I admit. Even if I am not able to get enough to save, I do admit that Bitcoin Cash allows you to be your own bank, and it's all on my fault on getting into this state.

Thank you all, and I hope that this lesson will serve as something I will really remember. Of course, to remove something means to replace it with something different for the next 1-2 months, because it's really attached to me now. I don't want it, and I will now move to replace it with something bigger, and therefore create little slices of life I can hopefully store here for everyone to learn.

This is Rowan, signing off.

Thanks, dad.