April 11, 2022

It's the April month here and summer hotness is on it's peak also it's our Holy month of Ramadan we do fasting from morning time to evening time ( in this duration we didn't eat or drink anything) and also my terminal exams are going on and today is my third paper.

As usual yesterday, I didn't study any single word so after doing sheri I opened my book and start studying. My Paper Timing is 12:00 PM to 3:00 PM. So after reaching into the university I just continue studying different topics.

At 3:00 pm after finishing my exams when we reached in our bus I feel that summer hotness is out of control and am feeling that just death is near to me and the most difficult thing is the distance of home from bus stop.

Thanks God I reached the home, put my bag on one side and try to sleep. But still just one thing is going on in my brain if I Died due to this heat stroke what will be the next.......?

• My all dreams stay incomplete.

• My death become the main loss of my parents all remaining relationships may be remembered me for two to three weeks and then totally forget.

Also I feel that the book of my Good Deeds is totally empty and if I Died today then what I say to Allah that why I didn't offer the prays on regular basis, and to the large extent I didn't find such a good deed which I told to Angels and said to them please open the door of paradise for me.

Also I feel that am totally afraid of death of young age. May be all these thoughts come in my mind that recently a young lady died in our village, she is affected with brain cancer. But still she had the hope of life and said to everyone that prayed for her that she defeated to this disease. But death defeated her and after listening the death of her, her aunt also passed away on the same day Allah give them highest rank in Jannat (Aameen).

In my life first time I faced this thing so this thing somehow frightened me and that's why in these days mostly I asked myself if I Died today what will happen. My all things, my degree, my name all things just stay there only the book of good deeds will go with me.

Death is bitter reality of our lives and our real life will getting started after death. The life of this world is just like an examination but we foolish people are busy in decorating our temporary and doing nothing for the life after death. So also give importance to the exams of life so you will be successful after death.

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