It's night already in my place and I can now feel the cold breeze touching my skin. Here, I am on the balcony thinking about random things that I wanted to do. Ow, today is our exam day which means I really have to work on it. Yes, I did already but there are still questions that I can't find the correct answer. Gez! nakakabaliw hahaha. Anyway, since I don't have any topic to write about, I guess today is the day to spill the beans.
I wanted to quit. Yes you read it write I wanted to quit writing here in read.cash not because I found another job but because I don't know maybe I can't find any motivation to write on. I always feel bored though this sometimes gives me happiness. The reason might not be acceptable but it is just that I'm tired of everything, as I grow older it seems that everything makes me exhausted. From schooling to this, from where I am to even going out. I don't know what's in me but I guess I have to relax for once but do I really need to stop? Wshh! I can't even stand my decision co'z the other part of me wanted me to continue my journey here. Usual reasons:
Inspiration. When I can't find any inspiration I always wanted to quit, no inspiration means no motivation. I can't write when I don't have a reason to do so.
Topic and Content. One of the most difficult parts of being a blogger is to find the perfect topic. No topic means no content. When I can't think of any and feel like it's nowhere to be found, I want to quit. I don't really want to pressure myself on thinking about things when in fact I really can't.
Place. This doesn't mean finding a place on the platform but it means finding my place here in the real world. Having a noisy neighborhood won't do any good. I can't think properly and if I can, it always stops since I was distracted by the loud noise they made adding the vehicle that was passing here to there (the house is near the road). Kids were laughing around which I can't concentrate, the noise of the television and even the videoke. I am sensitive, yes I am. When I want to write I really hate noise, even just neutral noise, concentration is what I really need.
Journey. Is this really my written journey? Have you ever thought about this too? Where it instantly came into your mind is this where I should be? if you don't then I do, I always ask myself is this what I want? Does being here give me the true happiness I ever wanted?
I have a lot of reasons to quit writing, reasons that give me a headache when I overthink it ahahaha. In fact, when I first ever started here I already wanted to quit co'z my main reason is I don't have any topic to write on or sometimes I'm busy. Bur guess, it's been 4 months and still here I am. Maybe because I got it all wrong, I was wrong that I don't have a topic to write on co'z I always have. I was wrong that I don't have any motivation to do so co'z I always have. My eagerness to learn, to discover things, to widen my knowledge and to share as well. Does it make me happy? Yes it did, there might be thousands of reasons to stop but I always got this one reason to continue and that is PASSION.
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