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Cheers to my 4 months journey here in read.cash. Who would have thought that I can reach that long where in fact I really wanted to quit in the first place? Gez! I can't imagine that I already wrote a lot of articles, this shows the real me behind my name. This platform is my saviour not just financially but emotionally as well, when I don't have anyone to talk to I have y'all who listen to my rants and ramblings. As of today I celebrated 4 months with over 91 subscribers, thank you for your non stop support, that means a lot to me. As I calculate my income, I could say it's not that bad as I earned almost $280 (14,000) and I'm near 1BCH. However, I don't have that cash in my wallet as I already spend it on some other necessities including bills, food and other wants. Maybe this seems to be a good reminder for me to pursue my writing career through this platform, it might take time and effort but I'm willing to learn from those aspiring authors. FOUR

Failure. My journey isn't as easy as it tells, I experienced failure not just with my abilities to create a great work but with myself as well. There are instances that I really wanted to quit as I thought my writing skills weren't worth it nor enough. Adding that sometimes Rusty won't visit me and that I lose my self-esteem to write more, to work hard for it co'z I already saw what would be the edge if the road "disappointments' '. When I don't write it doesn't always mean that I am busy but it is also because I don't have any motivation and courage to continue, why would I when I know I will fail.

Overthinking. I can't let that word stay away from me co'z it was in me after all. When I fail I always overthink that I deserve it because I am not capable of doing so. I am a failure and will always be, this kind of mindset I have when I used to overthink things where in fact it doesn't require. It stops me from doing the things I love, it stops me from growing and learning, it stops me from taking my next step to move up, it stops me from showing the real me.

Undeniable. This is what I am, not just a happy, positive and easy go lucky Probinsyana. I am a weak woman who needs someone to lean on , who needs crying shoulders when I feel I can't do it all by myself. I am what I write. My heart outs when it's needed. I am undeniably in love with this platform.

Remedy. Read.cash is my remedy in l the pain I have. My medicine helps to calm my mind, where aspiring authors are found, where valuable lessons in life are shared and where meeting new people seems to be meeting new opportunities. Words are found where authors talk about life, love, travels, journey, pain and rants. My remedy is somehow different but this is the best.

For all the people who were there through my entire journey, a million thank you for your support. You mean a lot to me without you, no Probinsyana is here. Without you, I can't find my peace and beautiful place, without you guys I can't show the real me. Cheers for more months and years to come, it might be tough but I'm pretty sure I can. I might have thousands of reasons to quit but I always have this single reason to continue. This is life whether to go up or down. Special mention to my "kabit in life" @JustMaryel.

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