Having trouble sleeping? Irregular eating habits? Irritated always? This is a sign that I am abusing my mental and physical health.
I have been like this for months already, but it got worse this month. There were nights I felt like my head was going to explode. There were nights I felt like I couldn't control my anxiety, because whenever I close my eyes, I am seeing the worst scenarios in my head.
It is pretty hard, especially if I don't have something to divert myself from causing sadness. I felt like all my hobbies were gone. I lost passion for everything I liked to do before.
Maybe, this is the reason I haven't posted anything for a week already, because I just don't feel it. My mind didn't cooperate most of the time. My mind is empty from all the good content that I should write or share with you.
When did it start?
I don't know. I woke up one day feeling really tired. At first, I thought it was just normal tiredness, but I noticed it didn't go away. I noticed myself being so emotional (like now), and being so sentimental.
If you just noticed, most of my posts lately were very emotional. I don't know if my hormones hit differently these days, but one thing I am sure of, I don't like it. I want to get rid of this.
What are the things that help me get through this everyday?
If you are like me who have trouble doing things you once loved before, you are allowed to be not okay. The more you deny that you have mental issues, the more you'll prolong and worsen the situation.
Sometimes ,crying helps, but most of the time you are numb because of the pain, you can't explain.
Talk to your family and friends. If you find yourself uncomfortable talking about it, it's okay. Talk when you are ready, but don't forget to always talk to God. I do that everytime it feels heavy. And for some reason, the heavy feelings lightened.
Divert yourself by finding a new hobby. I don't usually do TikTok videos, but this helps me divert myself from anxiety. I create videos which make me happy and my content is my pets. You can start doing painting, reading books, writing.
Eat and live healthy. You know that one of the biggest factors that affect our emotions is our lifestyle. We should start being healthy. I am still slowly doing that, but I mostly fail because I do have insomnia. It is much more effective to do an exercise in the early in the morning. Vitamin D is very important.
Lastly, you have to surrender everything to God.
"Cast your burdens upon me, those who are heavenly laden. Come to me, and I will give you rest."
",you have to surrender everything to God." You said it yourself. I know it be easier said than done but it really is different when you surrender all to Him.