Starry Eyed Moments
It was a fine day. The weather is fine too, not too hot, and I could feel the cold breeze on my skin. It was perfect weather for a stroll, so I decided to take my dog out for a walk. Because I can't be out for long, it would only be a short walk. COVID cases are on the rise in our area. I put a leash on Odie and headed out. I have four dogs but can't take them all, so I just took Odie.
I was enjoying the walk when Odie started barking. It was not an agitated bark like he was annoyed, but a happy bark because he was wagging his tail. I didn't get it at first until I saw a cat from afar that looked like my Ash(the one that I lost months ago). I told Odie to stop barking because I didn't want him to attract the attention of the other dogs, but he just kept on barking. Then I looked at the cat once again, and my heart beat fast. I wasn't sure at first, so I called him by his name, and he ran toward me while meowing. "It was indeed Ash!" I carried him quickly while calling his name, and my tears were flowing down my face.
"Oh Ash, Mamita missed you so much! Where have you been? I thought you were dead! I saw your rotten body months ago. Or was it that I was just mistaken? "
I was crying while holding him, and he was rubbing his face against mine while purring. I guess he misses me too! And Odie was so excited and happy to see Ash again that he couldn't stop barking and jumping. He wanted to kiss Ash, so I put Ash next to him and they were happily teasing each other.
I am so happy. The ash that I thought died months ago returned home.
Then suddenly, he stops meowing and walks away. I called him and he looked back while meowing. I think he wanted us to follow. He just kept on walking and looking back again and walked again. And we just followed him until I noticed that I was not familiar with the place anymore. I looked back and I was in a different place already. "Have we walked that far? Far enough for us to get lost?"
And when I looked back at Ash, he was surrounded by other cats, and it looked like they were all happy to see him. They rubbed their fur onto Ash and purred and meowed nonstop. And then I saw cats from afar and was astounded when I saw them walk using their two hind legs. Like they were all walking like humans. And then Ash approached me while I was walking the way the others walked. I admit, I got scared, especially when Ash started talking to me! What the hell is going on?
"Mamita, you're in our world now." And you're right, I am already dead.
" Wait, what? Am I already dead too? "
"No, you're not. You still have a long life ahead of you. This is all just a dream. I knew that you still wished for me to return home. You still wish that it was not me that you found dead months ago. But you have to move on Mamita, I am already gone and I am happy now together with my newfound friends. I miss you too, Mamita, and I love you. I am so grateful that you fed me to my heart's content and made me happy when I was alive.
I was crying like crazy when he told me that and I held him tightly.
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This was the dream that I had this afternoon. It was so random because I was not thinking about Ash the past few days. Although I mentioned him once in a while, especially every time I saw a cat that looked like him. I even thought that maybe it was Ash. Months had passed since Ash had gone, and little by little I had moved on. Ash is my favorite cat because he was the sweetest. That is why I was so heartbroken when he died. Until now, I still cry every time I remember him, and while I was writing this, I was crying a river.
I guess this is Ash's way of telling me that he also misses me and that I should move on because I have other cats, his siblings, to tend to.
" Wherever you are, Ash, Mamita got your message. I love you, Ash, and I miss you so much. "
Date Published: July 26, 2022
Eto yunh isang bagay na sobrang nagoapalungkot din sa akin ate kapag iniisip ko panu kapg si Quatroo(my dog) ay nawala. huhuhu. Maybe Ash is always thinking of you ate, ans she's your angel now.