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Why I Deactivated My Facebook (07.27.22 earthquake update.)

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I deactivated my facebook to avoid people who were the reason why I am like this. It's not because I'm running away from someone or because I don't want to talk to someone, it's just that I really don't want someone to add to my headache, especially the things that are already giving me a headache.

That's why I chose deletion so that no one can send messages or call me, even my acquaintances, I'm too lazy to explain to tell my side over and over because they'll say it's like that and they won't listen. If you notice, in my last article I said, "Some people are dead and blind." which is super true right? Because, the people who I thought would listen and believe me once I say this or that don't listen. That they only listen to themselves, and they will never understand me.

It's not that I'm annoyed or angry, but you can't avoid being really irritated. Because, I'm not the person who won't go to work just because I feel something. Hello? My anxiety level is high so I can't really go in because I'm sure I'll cry while taking calls. What do they want me to do? Should I laugh or should I cry when customers call because I'm not okay?

I cannot really tell them that I will not go to work just because of this reason, mental health is not counted as a valid reason for not going to work or not being able to go to school. People don't recognize mental health as one of the valid reasons, they will compare you just because they don't know what you really feel. It hurts to think that despite everything, you're just one of the things they need so that the client doesn't scold them because it will be counted as a bad record.

What about the people who can't sleep well because of too many thoughts? Those people who don't know what to do to get well?

Those people who are dreaming, even in simple things, that someone will believe and listen to them? What about us? How do we try to show that we need help? How we try to smile just to show how good we are, how? With so many thoughts on my mind, I don't know where to start and how to escape from everything. I don't want my partner to cover all the expenses and I don't want her to pay for everything because I will be leaving work and all I can do is write.

Being the one who understands my feelings, I suddenly realized that time that at the end they were right, it's only me who understands my real emotions. I suddenly realized that no matter what I explained, no matter what I said, they would not understand me. They have many reasons, they will say that you feel this way because of that.

I don't know if I will choose to explain, if I will choose to say the right thing. Because for sure you won't listen either, you won't listen to me and you won't understand me.


So earlier Abra experienced a 7.3magnitude of earthquake while here in Baguio we experienced 2.1 magnitude. I'm floating earliernsince I just got out from work and I have no idea that it's already an earthquake lol. Late realization lmao, but hopefully everyone is fine


Final thoughts

  • How's everyone? Me? Here, I'm getting ready for my work later. It's still at 10pm but I love taking bath early so that I won't missed anything later and I just need to get ready to go to work.

13 days left before my last day, I'm not sad or anything. BPO is my dream job but I don't want to see my health suffer because of being awake all night. This is the most saddest part of being a call center agent. Whenever you used to love your job, that's where all unexpected things happening.

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Only one person can understand you and whether you believe it or not He is always there...just reach out and talk to Him..

God Bless you langga

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1 month ago

Yes momsh, lagi ko sya ginagawa kasi ang pangit ng takbo ng anxiety ko now

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1 month ago

So sorry for that beb. Just take your time. I know you'll be fine soon.

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1 month ago

Yes po ate

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1 month ago

Minsan sis we have to cut the tie muna. Anyway, I hope that everyone is okay, I didn't even know that there's an earthquake not until I saw it in the news. Luckily, we are in the Mindanao

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1 month ago

Oo mga sis eh, nakakaawa mga nasa abra.

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1 month ago

Always remember that all things happen for a reason. Makakahanap ka pa ng mas magandang trabaho. Hindi natutulog ang Diyos. Nice context. Stay safe and see you around.

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1 month ago

It's just my first time to see u here. Bago ka?

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1 month ago

My friend also wanted to resign her job which is BPO. She already felt the anxiety and breakdowns the moment when she took the call. She said that it is also a toxic working place and it is not healthy anymore.

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1 month ago

Everytime na nagtetake calls ako teg jusko di ko kaya, naloloka ako tas minsan umiiyak pa

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1 month ago

Halah grabeh ung toxicity nuh

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1 month ago

Keep safe po.. Balita ko madami din damages diyan sa Baguio..

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1 month ago

Sakto rin hehe pero salamattt, oo sa LA Trinidad balita ko may nasira

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1 month ago

Ingat kayo diyan langga. Grabe yung lindol sobrang lakas langga. Nalungkot ako sa mga news grabe. Hanggang ngayon puro lindol yung news. 🥺

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1 month ago

Sana ate di na masundan, maski ako kanina nagulat masi forst time ko maexperience un duti

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1 month ago

Pray tayo langga. Wala na yan. Tiwala lang kay God. 🙏

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1 month ago

I once worked as a BPO agent, pero di ko rin kinaya. Sobrang nakakapanghinga ng katawan, tsaka iba talaga yung balik sa mental and physical health. Keep safe!

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1 month ago

True! Ang hirap matulog sa umaga as in

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1 month ago

aigoooo lapit ka na -pala matapos sa work mo dzaaiii ingat ha.

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1 month ago

Oo sis, araw nakamg. Naiisipan ko mag awol minsan e pero eala me magawa

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1 month ago

Oyyy wag na ilang days na lang eh, baka maipit backpay mo no.. if meron ka??

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