actually before 18 i experience this kind of situation where those responsibility hit me as a hard itself. when I'm 16 i Start losing 'em i may be sorounded by ppl but i felt like I'm alone, I'm lonely yeah i experience a lot in life. Life after 18 is really different, I started to realize all the things my parents have done those things that seemed so wrong for me were really right as I thought about it after 18. My Rebellious days were gone and now I spend my day doing things right, making right decision not just for me but also my family. I've realized so much after 18.

But no, it's hard asf since I am a breadwinner and my family didn't appreciate everything well. It makes me sad in some reason knowing that we can't be child anymore and from now on every step that we take will become a matter unlike before that we just take a step without even realizing what path it leads us. Somehow i realized that even i don't want to change it can't help because changing was the only reason for us to move forward that's why we need to be wiser specially in decision making, making decisions is our only way that will lead us of what future we chose.

After 18, you will feel the burden of life, the pressure of starting a good life and building up a good career. As you watch your parents get old and see the determination of your brothers/sisters to strive for life, you'll start denying yourself and the things that you really love. You'll think how to get on track of the fastest way to earn money to provide for the family (only the good and legal one of course). You do these things until you lose your own purpose in life and lose your interest of creating your own path. We all desire to love, help and become great but sometimes in our lives we realize that not all these desire are being fulfilled and things will not get well because we want it to be.

Everyone has responsibilities to take despite their age, some could face huge responsibility, realise things that’s they could never understood, at a young age even before adulthood and some not.

Back when I was 5, I always wanted to grow up fast and earn my own money, but now that I will be turning 22, turns out there are lots of things I need to consider before entering a part time job. I wanted it badly, but I am still stuck between doing it, or just focus on my studies and work after. I am not in a rush, I just want experience, new environment, new responsibilities.

You will start to pressure your self from the expectation of your fam. And you will embrace your growing stage and learn from experiences that you encountered from the past.

• Loosing of friends is normal .

• You always prefer to be alone

• And we think of trusting no one.

Insecurity, Anxiety, Frustration, Depression - This words will become part of life. If you are lucky , your life becomes smoother than others. There's a lot of struggle I've been faced after I turned 18, my problems become more challenging and worst. But, I do learned a lot from it. I met a lot of people noy just with different faces but also different personalities that challenge me on how to take care of it. I lost some friends and it's okay it's part of life.

After 18, your life will be unexpected, but you still have control in yourself, but not in everything. Many says enjoy the process because that's the key to success...I believed in that, I never rush about the things, I do compare my life to others, many times.

But It's also true that you have your and you must mind your own business. What a life they says. But It's awesome journey, don't care the status, tragedies, and many more that affects our way of thinking, I wish to be the poorest of the poor, because that's where will hit us, to be grateful not only in material things but also with the people, even those who we hated a lot. We will be still grateful. Having a deep understanding about life will help us grow a lot...

Though it was really a big changes in my life after 18 but what I realized and do until now is to enjoy the every day life that I have. Life after 18 you'll going to believe in the saying "we only leave once."

There are times where I really want to vent out, knowing there's only me myself who will listen and understand the situation where I am right now.

Author's Note

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