I fixed you, how could you destroy me?

It's always like this, well I think it's just me. Because we want the other person to be happy because we love them, we help them to get over things that made them broken and somehow things that might've hurt them. We helped them in their healing process. It will never be easy because there are a lot of things you need to give; strength, understanding, patience, yourself, and even sometimes financial support.

Because you want the person to be whole again, you are getting some parts of your being just to fill in the gaps in their lives. Unknowingly that as you give them the things they need for their healing, you are slowly spent and broken. But we will never think of being broken. It will never come to our minds that we are breaking. It doesn't matter at all because we love the person genuinely.

It's just what we always say, we are just in love that's why we will do almost everything for them. At some point in our lives, all of us have become so dumb because of love. That our sacrifices, and giving ourselves to them are part of loving the person. The question is, why do you want to fix the person you love and make them whole again?

First, maybe because of love we can't them to be whole and fixed. Isn't it satisfying to look at the person you love smiling and looking so happy because they got over their past, they have peace of mind? Because we're always like that, we depend our happiness on the people we love. If they're happy with something, we feel happy too. It's a cliche, but it happens when you love someone. It seems like we absorbed the love we are giving despite the uncertainty that not one hundred per cent, will come back to us.

Second, we are trying to fix them because we want them to know that our feelings towards them are genuine and valid. We do things that make them feel that they are loved and treated well. We will be with them on their journey of healing and will stay until she gets healed.

Lastly, we are trying to give them because we're broken too. We are yearning that after we fix them, they could fix us too. It's in your mind that they will give back the same effort we are giving them, that they will also fix us from getting broken. But it doesn't happen all the time.

Sometimes, we will be forgotten because they're already healed. That's why we always end up hanging by a cliff, left and broken. Regrets are felt right after. Because we give too much that there's nothing even left for us.

And I think it's part of loving. Fixing someone and getting broken.

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Hi, it's me Noelle :)