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it's been a while... have a lot on my head i need to write out...

We can plea with God! Fine... Let's tone it down... Good news! Yes, we can plea with God. From the OLD to the NEW… We can very well plea with God. He hears our prayers… UNFORTUNATELY we don’t know how to pray. That is actually the problem, how to pray? Abraham did plea for SODOM and God actually played along, unfortunately only about 5 people who heed the call. Thus, destruction of Sodom was truly eminent.  *Abraham Pleads for Sodom* *Genesis 18:16-33* *Abraham begins asking for the city to be spared, if there are but 50 righteous who are in it. He boldly prays, “Far be it from thee to do such a thing, to slay the righteous with the wicked, so that the righteous fare as the wicked! Far be it from Thee! Shall not the Judge of all the earth do right?*  Taking Abraham will likely be “a good sample but we are just ordinary people, not a man of God. Lest, the chosen one!”. Fine. Then let’s take the “THE PARABLE OF THE PERSISTENT WIDOW” to its text that we may have a very good sample that we all can relate. *The Parable of the Persistent Widow (I’m not going to put all in here, just the highlights)* *Luke 18:1-8* *4 “For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’”*  *6 And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly.*  This is how the WIDOW made it work for her! Justice with due persistence. It is done with FAITH, how else would she get justice if not relentlessly pursuing? Until her cries were heard… This is how we should pattern our prayers… persistently! For God to hear our cries, that’s for sure. Like I have mentioned, we really have to do it right for it to be effective. It should be persistent, unceasing… and of course, nothing evil!!! Eiyt!  Oh! We don’t need a very elaborated prayer. Simply pray what we need, persistently… and He will hear. He has ways to spoil His believers. Yes, he does… but that is with a condition… Persistent prayers, though not all the time – but most of the time. That’s why, we can plea with God through our prayers.  *Matthew 7:11* *If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!*  Well, the Scripture really contains everything we need to know how to be saved. All we have to do is really open it, read it and let the Spirit work its magic on you. God bless.. Image: Pinterest March 22, 2023

Healing, Comes with a Price... Repent... *John 5:14 - Jesus Heals a Lame Man* ***14*** *But afterward Jesus found him in the Temple and told him, “Now you are well; so stop sinning, or something even worse may happen to you.”*  LENT. I have flooded my FB page with passages and some messages that had either solicited enemies or converts. LOLZ. I'm not back because Rusty is back. I'm back because this is the easiest way of writing vs writing on my phone, it's painstaking doing the writing on the phone. So, decided to compose and publish it here, then copy/paste on my FB page! hahaha! Yes, healing comes with a price. "Sin no more, or something even worse may happen to you". Let me continue this series of message that being a christian is a continuous process and is not a one-day event. The moment you believe in Jesus, it is, sorry but a painstaking task of reformation. PAINSTAKING, why? You have to be diligent in the course of transforming your heart and soul to abide God's will. Then you have to make it a point that you made yourself available to talk to HIM, everyday! How does transformation takes place when you are always away from HIM? Ayt? Not just in prayers but you have to read His word so your heart and soul will be nourished. Like we take our meal diligently, else we will be malnourished. Right? Where else would you find God but in His word, the Bible. Reading novels like Sidney Sheldon's wont help you gain advantage against temptation? Or the worldly writings , not of authorship of God... "Eph. 6. [12] **For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."** How else do we expect ourselves to overcome the FLESHY or worldly desires of the heart when we were barely equipped? Of course, again, reading His word equips us. How else will we be guided? For this reason, there came the SCRIPTURE and yet unutilized? Aha! We let the Bible seat on the altar without touching it when it was supposed or designed to be touch everyday until it is rotten. Keeping His word sacred by reading it everyday, mutilating the pages as it will serve its purpose. What purpose a book is so if not read? hmmm.... *Ephesians 6:10-11* ***10*** *Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.* ***11*** *Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.*  How can we stand against evil schemes when all we do is... How can we stand strong? We know what we do everyday. Our daily routine, does it include spending time with Him? Talk/communicate with Him, for just a minute or so? When He is only calling for us to spend a minute or two, saying a very fast prayer… and in time, we can call upon Him all day long! Well, that’s when we have our hearts transformed by His grace. Only by then, spending a little time with Him everyday… A minute today, tomorrow 2… increasingly? Perhaps, slowly but surely… yup! That’s how it is… That’s how it works. Well, He has almost like a beggar, asking a little of our time – all this time. Aren’t we heeding the call? Spending this little time is a start, then repentance in on going. God Bless.   Image: Pinterest 3/21/2023

Write: A Writer's Gift Well… I am talker, that I am and a lot of the people who knows me will attest… I can talk for hours! But… I’ve always considered writing to be my best form of expressing my thoughts, specially the innermost thoughts hidden from many realities in this world.   Somebody wrote, he doesn’t like it when the writer starts writing like “the gust of the wind causes the leaves to swirl around into….”. He pointed out that it reduces the reader’s intelligence and/or something in this light. Hmm…   Well, I will beg to disagree. Writing is actually best when… the writer is able to engage it readers on the most detailed part of the story that is written. Whether it be an adventure, horror, drama and many other themes as this enhances the reader’s experience! It’s really not just about intelligence but rather the connection between the writer and the reader, the reader is able to connect to the very thoughts the writer has to offer. Getting involve is one thing, experiencing the writer’s world through his works is another.   When you feel feelings you never thought you would feel. Troubles your mind when it was supposed to be just a subtle experience but stirs up the spark inside, is another level of experience that the writer is able to turn on the switch for a new heights. I consider it as one of the beauty of a writer. Enabling reader’s senses to explore new heights, adding up more of the excitement every page has to offer. One of the gifts a book has to offer to every reader that seeks new adventure. To anyone who is sick, pinned into the boredom of their beds, is something a book and the writer can offer.  A temporary escape from the reality one has to bear. From the four corners of their hospital room, pinned to the slackness of the bed, nothing but a book that gives a fair distraction from all the troubles of the day. Soaked into the vividness of the excitement of the story, filling in the loneliness of an aching heart for a new excitement. The thrill to feel the adrenaline rushing in as the reader awaits each page. Something that is awesomely great. Engrossed and fully absorbed into the reality created by the writer, unveiled in each page the reader has to read until the end. This was the beauty a book has to offer. During the time television was non-existent, that even the theater  cannot match its magnificence. All the more now with the presence of the internet, books still abounds. Story writers from all around the world convenes in a platform that offers bountiful reads worth the finds and our time. So… I truly applaud the many story writers that engage their readers well, with their tale to tell. Appreciate the talent, rare as it is for not many are given such a talent that most often neglected, -worst envied. Thank u for the read! December 13, 2022 Image: My own

Problema karong panahona. Ambot oi… Dili sad ko ka ingon, age gap, kay baw lang! Kay maskin mga batan-on mangreklamo sa uban batan-on nga wlay batasan, dili ma ikog, wlay kaulaw ug uban pa. Sus, daghan kaau ug sumpay. Sa among panahon, parehas raman ug reklamo mga bata oi. Same-same ra ang sitwasyon, naka nindot karon panahona, halos naana tanan! Kulang nalang ilawng na lang intawn. Mas nindot karon kay kabalo lang ka mangita ug kugihan lang ka, makakwarta ra jud tawn ka. Tung-una, hasta jud lisora! Ambot lang oi, unsay deperensya sa mga bata karon ug tung-una. Maka dungog ko ba nga, papa trisikad driber unya pugson sa anak mopalit anang tumbler nga tag 800 intawn! Oiiiiiii! Unya dili na motunga sa ekwelahan kun dili mapalit!!! Waaaaaaaaa! Wla man nag ingon-ani akong mga anak, mosabot man sila mo ingon ko wla mi kwarta. Tagaan pako ug pamiliti kun wla na jud ko! Hay, salamat jud Lord! Karon, sus tawn… Gamayng kasaba, nag lu-eb na? Hala ka! Maka drama, one whole! Unsaon nalang! Kalisod na lang i-istorya kay daghan kaau ug rason. Bitaw, kanang gamay nga disciplina sa eskwelahan. Kanang malabayan ug eraser! Hala! Uso kaau na sa una. Karon, hala! Dako na kaau ang issue… Wla jud ko kasabot, maskin gi esplikar na jud na ug kapila, wa jud ko ka gets! Unsa diay mawala kun malabayan ug eraser atong mga anak oi? Ha? Pride nato? Sus! Magpasalamat ta oi nay moputol sa sungay sa atong mga anak labi wla ta sa ilang kiliran kanunay. Kasabot man ko nga nay daghan maestrang abusado, labi na karong panahona nga palabi sad ka abuser, nga manghikap na sa atong mga bata kana sila. Kana siguro, mo react nako. Nah! Ma atlan palang bayot ang maetro sa akong anak, nah! Makapatay jud kog anang panahona. Lagi, magsugod sa simple nga buluhaton pero man sad gamayng disciplina sa maetra… ayaw sad tawn mo palabi oi! Kanang lang guro, lisod sad kay dili tanan bata himsog. Daghan na sad karong panahona ang mga bata, luyang ug masakiton nga wla lang damha masakiton diay. Pero sad tawn oi. Mga ginikanan, palihog lang sad ayaw isarado ang inyong pangisip nga dili sa tanan panahon pwde nato ipahigayon ang tanan gusto sa atong anak. Papaningkamoton sad nato sila para makab-ot nila ilang mga ambisyon oi! Oo, natural mana nga ganahan ta ug nindot nga butang. Ako bitaw, naningkamot manarbaho para naa koy mahatag sa akong mga anak maskin nindot na jud kaau iundang pero, inahan man ko. Naka nindot lang sa akong mga anak, naka hisgot na jud ko sa ilaha nga wla koy kwarta ha! Kinahanglan ko manarbaho ha para naa tay kwarta, dili pwede mag sge lang ta huggy ani kay wla tay makaon. Ang kwarta sad, dili pwede sge palit unsa imo gusto kay mas importanti naa tay makaon kay butang! Ok! Magstorya ko sa mga bata ana oi unya magtigom mi para makapalit ug CP ug uban gamit nga dili kaau importanti. Ok! December 7, 2022 Image: our won

Isa jud ka baldihan makahugas ug BASO? Dugay na jud ko ganahan ko mosulat ani… Hasta jud paeta anang mag linya ta bah sa lababo diha sa panty, unya ang gihugasan ra kay baso lang! Hayst! Nagpirmi nalang jud… Faet… Ambot lang ha, nagsalig kay dili ilang tubig ang gigamit or filingera lang jud nga dato sila sa ilaha! Faeeettt! Nya rason dayon nga OC man gud ko! Whaaaaa? Unsaon… Intawn mga higala, homana ang panahon nga ang mga tao dili kasabot. Sus! Tung-una itago pa man gani nah kay dili kaau makasabot ang mga tao! Maulaw nga bansagan ug OC kay “huna-huna” sa mga tao tong-una “salot sa katilingban”. Naningkamot ug usab sa kinaiya nga dili angay, o maningkamot nga matago ang kinaiya, dili kay naulaw siya sa iyang kinaiya kay kana nga kinaiya mausab mana! Dili maulaw, nakabati sya ug kaigo sa mga tao nga maoy magpailog sa iyahang kahuyang! Karon nga makasabot na ang mga tao sa condition, himoon na dayon ug rason? Pastilan! Hala sa! Na usab na jud ang panahon. Ang panahon tung-una magpabaga man mi ug nawng. Hilabina sa skwelahan nga grabe mangasaba ang among PE nga maestro. Kana bitaw ang tibook batchmate ninyo nakadungog plus mga younger years makasinati sa kasaba nga makaguba ug pride! Tungha lang gihapon pagka ugma, nya insultohon pa jud ug balik… Wla jud an epek sa amoa. Maskin taga-adlaw nalang jud ang kasaba. Ako lang ni ipadayon sa lain nga pagsulat kay nag rigor pako sa BASO… hihihi! Hayst! Medyo naglisod bitaw ko ug sabot kay “nagtipid man siguro tanan tao sa tubig” kay kita siguro naa pay nagamit nga tubig, tawn ang uban nasod naglisod jud ug maau sa tubig. Limpyo pa atong gamit nga tubig nga dili pa recycled, pero ang uban, ginamit na ang tubig ilang magamit. Pero daghan jud baso ang nakahugas nga binaldi ang hinugasan. Unsay naa sa baso nga kinahanglan ingon ana ka daghan ang tubig para malimpyo oist! Sure ba! Pag homan hugas kay lapwahan pa sa init tubig?! Hala! Naka share mode ang baso para ingon-ana ka mitikuloso paglimpyo? Tanan man gud workstation nay baso, imposible jud ang sharing mode! Dili lang kay binaldi ang pag hugas, sus ko, sobra pa sa 5 minutes ang paghugas nga taas na kaau ang linya! Faet… Hala sa! Dili jud maikog. Lisora jud sa kahimtang nga wla nay kaikog mga tao. Magpalabi sa gibati ba, nga dili raman gud siya ra usa ang gi atiman, kita man gud tanan! Hala, pwede! Wla ko nag guilt trip, kami tanan ang naagi-an ni Odette atong unang tuig, nakasinati ug kawad-on ug kalisod. Dili lang kay sa kwarta, hasta intawn sa imnon nga tubig, wla jud. Unta maka amgo dili kay abusaran ang pagka abunda kay sa panahon sa kawad-on dili ta ma KARMA ba nga hastang lisora noon pangitaon sa mga palitonon nga importanti. Ato huna-huna, dili unta ta mag ginarapal kay mag unsa mana karon kun ugma wla na? Sus! sge na sad baya ulan-ulan, wla uroy nahadlok sa!? Simbako lang palayo! December 04, 2022 Image: my own

Magbinisaya ta bi, para gamay ray makasabot! Hahaha! Nagtoo oroy mga taw dili ko kabalo mag binisaya?! Englishera lagi, kapoy man gud magbinisaya kay hastang taas… Mobo raman gud ug English… Savvy! Aha! Ingon-ana ang deperensya… Gets na! Maayong buntag sa inyong tanan. Alegre mag binisaya oi, kay mga tagalog dili makasabot. Ilabina nga murag nasuko ang pagstorya, aws, alams na… Plus, sus! Pun-an pa sa balikas nga wala ngari, wala ngadto… Unsaon nalang… Mga sinultihan nga “sus!”, sikat na kaau karon sa youtube nga wla gani siguro kasabot unsaon paggamit sa “sus!”… Hala! Sus! Lang gihapon… hahaha! Na pay “sa!”… Aw! Sadya maminaw sa silingan nga hastang isoga mag away kay “isug lagi manulti ang mga bisaya!” hahaha! Alegre, kanang mag inom ug mag abot ang mga istoryang mini! Nah, sa mabulsa lang… Kay kaning akong storya karon, wla say tumong! Hahahaha! Basta nagbinisaya lang ko… Pati gani si AI, wa jud siguro kasabot sa akong gipanulti… Sge lang, mag mugna rako ug daghan binisaya nga gisulat bag-o matapos ang tuig… Para lain sab ba! Di ba! Toink! Nakamugna lang ko kay ni uli man gud ko sa akong pagbreak, unya sa dihang mga kasakay nako kay mga estudyanti man, hastang sayoha ni adto ug skwelahan! Asa ka, alas singko palang gani padung na sila sa skwelahan?! Toink, tog paman akong bunso ana oi… Unsaon! Ni uli ko kay wa man gud ko ka andam sa iyang baon karon kay wla nakoy bugas sa balay and gitapol ko ug luto ug sud-an gabee… Nagrebeldi akong anak kay nagtoo siya nag sge lang kog katog! Bitaw, sge lang bitaw kog katog karon panahona nga nasakit akong kasingkasing! Char! Dali ra jud ko maluya ai, gamayng laba, sus, wla na… Piyong na! Taod-taod, mata na sad ko… Manglimpyo, nah, maluya na sad… tug na sad… Ingon-ana ang akong kinabuhi karon paghoman nako mahospital atong Hunyo. Nagtoo siguro akong anak nga sayon ra nga dali ra maluya… Sus, tawn, dili intawn kay daghan trabaho matangong. Kinsa man gud intawn ganahan magtapun-ok ang mga trabaho, unya mogasto na sad ko ug sohol para ma apas ang labhonon og limpyohonon? Pag sure oi! Hastang mahala na karon panahona, mogasto pa jud ta ana nga pwede raman na nato mabuhat. Sa ako lang siguro kahimtang, hinay-hinay lang noon. Hihihi! Pasensyahi na jud ang masakiton kay wla jud damha nga masakiton diay ko daan ug kasingkasing. Karon nalang ni gawas nga gor nako! Lolz… Taga-eh higayon ang gor, please lang ayaw na ninyo labda! Hahaha! Sabta nalang…. Wla naman koy sumpay oi, diri nalang ta kutob oi… hahaha! Salamat kaau sa pagbasa! December 3, 2022 Image: my own

Choose the people in your life that helps you grow. Molds you into the best version of you! I guess a part III then? Hahaha! I don't want to sound trolling or stalking... An old adage says, “No man’s an island”. Man forms allegiance, -brotherhood, for many reasons but I think mainly because there are bigger goals to achieve and it’s easier done when united. From childbirth to adulthood, it is a must that we will interact with and know people. All through our lives, we meet people that come and go! Some stay for a while, while many else go. Either somewhere else they deem to be or to their last sleep. We all go through this process, the same process except we learn differently. We meet people that can actually create or destroy lives. People who unknowingly, were the goal while others learn to be deceptive and play victims, -unknowingly too they claimed! Whether or not, it affects us directly, we have the responsibility to ourselves to protect ourselves from all adversities. We have the responsibility to ourselves to be with people who will guide or teach us to navigate through these times. While it’s unfortunate at some point we made some discoveries of the misfortunes, we are still lucky that such discoveries reached our end. And it’s up to us to either learn from it or live with it. We really are given the choice to make our decisions. Our lives, our decision. It’s a matter that we alone at some point deal with it. How we treat it is how our future is shaped. So trust in yourself to make the call and whatever that is, don’t be afraid to make mistake(s) because it is truly natural to make one. Without it, growing is almost impossible. Mistake is part of life and we all go through them without exemptions. It really matters how early you grasp its meaning and impact on your life that is enough to make a decision, either for a change or to remain. Sometimes we are forced to face situations we don’t want to face. Like we can't wait for it to vanish but sometimes it doesn’t go away, while others do! We have no choice but to deal with it for us to have peace of mind. Choose to be with the person who treasures you. Who helps you grow up amidst challenges and holds your hand while you are at it. Choose those people who choose to be with you not because it is convenient for them, and leave you hanging when it is not. Perhaps this is the most part we are missing, we never knew if we were just for convenience or until it happens. Choose to be with people who push you to be the best version of yourself and aim for the betterment every now and then. The people who are happy for the littlest achievement you get are not jealous over a small or little promotion at work. Those who are thankful for the smallest progress you achieve in such a difficult time have a lot to deal with. They may stay a while but their memories will surely last! Carved in your heart that lingers forever! Keep them. For they are treasures to behold and not everyone is lucky to have them in their lives. Let them know you cherish them so the charity you send will bring back tenfolds of kindness into your realm. Please! Don't take yourself for granted. Make a choice and not be blackmailed with their opinions or you being inconsiderate of their opinions! Why? Once they blackmail, you let them be... Oh no! There will be next and next, next! It will never stop. This is your life, fight for it because no one else will. When you show them you can hold your ground, people will stand beside you without knowing it. Your allies without telling you will stay strong with you. Believe that you have allies, because for sure in this world we are not alone. We all suffer the same, it is just a matter of fighting for the right cause. You may not believe me but there is beauty in standing your ground. It means you are hard to take down. And your allies as well. We will all be down but, it will take the heavens to take you down, especially when you put your heart into it! Thank u for the read. God bless. December 2, 2022 Image: my own

A sister from a different mom, she said! Revolutionizing friendship… Part II of an article inspired by My Friends Left Me by @yoieuqudniram, inspired by an @ARTicLEE article. https://read.cash/@yoieuqudniram/my-friends-left-me-ebeb98a7 https://read.cash/@ARTicLEE/i-wonder-if-we-can-be-friends-d1baf73c Killing me softly will be difficult… hihihi! I live from a different dimension. Lolz. So, God took her instead of me? Hmm… We had a common perspective, we are devoted to our family. While she was more on the financial side, I was more on moral support. We were high school classmates but we were never close. 2010 hubby died and we started to reconnect on FB as FB was already alive and kicking. 2011 she told me: “you want change? Come and follow me!”. I grabbed the opportunity and still working for the same company for a decade and 2, to date. 2012 she started hanging around me while I quarreled with her to keep her at bay but it wasn’t a deterrence. She stayed despite and I came to accept her for that. Then we fought battles we chose to fight. She ran away from our devotion while I came hiding after a while. Her alligators and dragons, parents/siblings, because of the constant demand financially. While, I wasn’t feeding my alligators and dragons, but only left to defend my mom’s battlefield – her struggle with my dad, the first line of defense! Now, mom’s gone so I’m in the hiding… Lolz. When she ran away, to Australia, we talked like she was just next door. Every day… Like I was the 1st person she chatted with when she touched down and got used to Ausy life. Then her family complained we talked too much (after years of doing this) and that she barely had time for them which wasn’t true. But she complied, and I didn’t complain. I was happier and finally?... But.. She sends in projects to help me financially as a reward for being there whenever she messages me. And lately bribed the kids before cancer consumed her. Still, her family felt a little jealous despite my returning her to them on her last days. Perhaps because they never knew, we call them alligators and dragons, for surely they will be offended. And we laughed out loud at it. Shared the very moments which was not available to them. The things that scare her the most. Me not minding her making me a clown, chasing her blues away whenever she ended up in a private hospital room @Perth. While my family thought of her as my best friend!? Lolz… Truly, she was not. I never asked about her favorite color. I don’t know who was her 1st bf or her 1st kiss nor how many boyfriends she had. Nor do I know what her dream or ambition was. And likewise, she knew none of the mine nor met any. But one thing she made clear, I was the sister of another mom. Her mom is named Julia while mine is Julie. Coincidence? Lolz… She made me believe it was possible. For a relationship to be purely dependent on nothing. Not a relationship bore out of the “benefits” ripped from this connection but just really purely sharing what life had to offer. Like most people only post good vibes on FB to invite good vibes, pa twittum/pa-cute moments on FB for likes and subscriptions. I really prefer it to real. I don’t like it to be a relationship because it’s convenient for me because one day I will find out “it was all for nothing, just for the show” and vanishes life a “puff” in the air. It's a disappointing act. Naturally of course because what's the use of spending time together if not to bond? Really? To pry on my life and will be very jealous of the simplicity of my life, - the joy it brings to my family? Oh, common! A competition? Sorry to disappoint, I'm very non-competitive in every way! Yet, this is what I found, “a sister from another mom!”. There are actually many more, “a mama Vine, Ate Lorna, si Ate Marlyn, Anty Fe, nurse Vega and many more” genuine relationships that touched my life. Who took care of me while I was growing up and guided me while I was trying to cross untraveled shores. Supported me in troubled times and pushed me to face adversities I didn’t have the courage to face. Then I grew. I am grateful for all these. Something my family never knew! For one thing, I know, they never knew me… Yet they BELIEVED IN ME EVEN IF THEY WEREN’T SURE OF ME… They had faith in me and that faith pushed me to work the best for them. And I carried that in my heart that even if I was alone, I have their support carved in my heart! Forevermore… December 1, 2022 Image: my own

I, Me and Myself… Scare them else, my doorstep will be flooded… I was scanning read.cash and found an article My Friends Left Me by @yoieuqudniram, inspired by an @ARTicLEE article. Oh! Quite an interesting read for me because I just had an argument with my sister labelling me “no friends”. Lolz. Quite unravelling it is... https://read.cash/@yoieuqudniram/my-friends-left-me-ebeb98a7 https://read.cash/@ARTicLEE/i-wonder-if-we-can-be-friends-d1baf73c MALDITA, SNABERA. Don’t like it? Sorry. It’s been like this ever since, so please get used to it. Hahaha! And besides, I assure you I am reasonable with the “Maldita” thing. We had an argument because our eldest says “I have been like this forever and never listens, doesn’t accept faults” that’s why her friends asked her who I am quarreling at FB because I was so maldita. Our parents’ friends, who happens to be my friends too, was complaining I was quarreling someone on FB! AGAIN! Like she was screaming in my ear! She added a line, “God took your only best friend”. Hahaha! I ended the argument telling her that I really don’t have to tell the world I have friends. Have friends who told me they’d come to visit me (from Mindanao to Cebu) because they missed me, cried when I told them of my heart disease, sent me a grocery funds when I told her I left my wallet at home and no more fare to take a ride back home, lolz…  My answer to her line was, “oh no! she wasn’t a friend. She was a sister from another mother, -she said!”. It was her declaration. I am confrontational because I don’t like things to hang around on prolonged terms. I am less tolerant when it comes to this. It’s like I want the problem solved, immediately please! Like, now nah! I love tranquility and solace, anything that disturbs these, is confusing to me. So, it short-circuits me. Ok! It’s an agony for me to let it re-occur over a period of time – a week is already too long! So much more a month or year! It’s crazy! And after this, I’m good. Deadma, which is where the SNABERA comes in. You’ll find me direct and straightforward when it comes to problems but when it comes to perspectives, I’m usually reserved. For one reason, FREEWILL. And oh! I am not the kind of person who just seats around and look at my friend being abused or bullied in anyway. I don’t have the heart to let it be! If I had to bring hell now, then be it. This was why I was so MALDITA on my FB page, on several occasion! LOLZ. Though, I am very simple and don’t have trust issues even if my online life was being hacked by stalker… from my email down to reading my messages on messenger. It’s not that I trust people with my life but really its more of, I really have nothing to hide and you have nothing to use against me! Should you deem it to be! So, I really don’t mind. I have pictures but those were the times when I still want to preserve the memories of my growing kids, now they opted more of private life than exposed which is reasonable too! I honestly don’t have visitors at home, my current home because… Oh no! I’m still in a mess physically and is still navigating my way… So please excuse me for now, I will get hold of all these and open my doors which will be very horrific because… OMG. They will surely flood my doorstep. For now, I am still hiding because I couldn’t tell them not to come and visit me. I simply don’t have the heart. Surely, they’re all just waiting for an invitation to come but physically I am not yet ready. Though, it’s been a decade but it’s only been 2 years since I got on our own. So… Severing ties? Sure. As the bible says, “wolves dressed in sheeps”, surely there are a lot. I am not short in forgiveness but there are simply actions that cannot be taken for granted especially when safety is on the line. Hmm! Though, I seldom like a person, but I don’t really care of stature. Just be real and that’s all you need to be! I never like discrimination because I am a victim of it and labelling as well. I’m sorry, accept me or rue me. I wasn’t born to embrace the world and be molded on their rules. I don’t care if I am poor at least I don’t live by the world’s dictates. Bunso say’s, my “puryagaba face” is really scary! They both call me a witch, more like the maleficent type… Hahaha! It has it’s purpose darling! And that is scary because it was meant to be scary! But once you know me, it will be hard for you to let me go! Which is why I am scaring people away, else… My doorstep will really be flooded! Aw! Hahaha! Now really. Friends, family or relatives or anyone shouldn't be dictating you of your preference and change/mold you to become that suited their taste! You have to be yourself because at the end of the day, you will be the one dealing with all those problems/predicaments in YOUR LIFE and not them. Let them live their lives because they have their own to feast on and should be busy with that, and mind their own business. Thank u and sorry for a long reading. God bless. for a part II?... yup! November 30, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Playing Badlands II @ Roblox Hmmm… While my mom never appreciated it when I played online games, her comments actually are like I was acting child-like, lolz… For all I care! I am playing with them (my kids) or for them. It’s considered an Event’s map, INSANE. One of the hardest to beat and with a pricey reward, -the cowboy.  A cowboy is a sought tower because it can farm and at the same time defend, hitting 2 targets with 1 stone – it’s practical and convenient. Allowing any player an extra slot, for the five-slot allotted to bring with them into the game. It's DPS (damage per second) is quite fair for an early game but can be replaced later for a tower with so much more DPS like a minigunner, turret, or accelerator, or perhaps a medic. As I mentioned in the previous article, we almost beat this game – heart-achingly. Why? The Boss’ HP is almost like only 50K HP left out of the 700K, or 10K and 3K. And I thought my boy would cry because I almost did… hahaha! Damn! And one player said we lack DPS. While everybody agrees, I was clueless as to what DPS meant. Hahaha! Sorry, I am really clueless about the terms used but nevertheless… Now, I know better. Oh! One thing I still haven't found out is why they say "ABC" when playing a game... I still haven't asked my son. Perhaps, tonight! I honestly hate it when players are lobbying for recruits and insisting on using the strategies shown on youtube because we actually won unexpectedly without any strategies. And really insist on doing it VERBATIMLY. OMG! However, the game can be won without it. You experiment with it a couple of times. Just people doing their game and that’s it. And honestly, no one needs to look into those strategies because you simply just have to play it, as they say with a lot of SKILLS. And hey! I don’t believe players don’t have the skills, just don’t have the experience. Lolz. And importantly, bring in the best towers you’ve got and ACCELERATOR is a must! At least two players have these! Without cowboys, accelerators, and turrets, we joined the game. Only with Ace pilot because pursuit is expensive and we need an early game defense and farming is just almost impossible for early defense. While other players brought medic, current, accelerators, warden, and engineers, and together with our minigunner, militant, ranger, and commander we defeated it with our might! Lolz! Seriously, we don’t follow the strategies on youtube. And honestly, players following the youtube strategies are so RUDE that you can’t play with them. So bad because they wanted it followed to the letter! Like what? They are rude because they leave when the game is on! Wow! Like! Really… OMG! The 4th game. We started it like we already did, with fewer expectations than the previous 3 games, -fewer heartaches of course! Lolz. In the early game our HP was already cut in half but the medic was there to the rescue, OMG they spammed the medic so it serves its magic. We already realized that DPS should be attained at MAX but what can we do? Only 2 players have accelerators and we didn’t bring a turret because my son was stubborn. So we compensated by bringing in rangers at wave 20 onwards to max capacity and levels, strategically placing ace pilots on location advantage to everyone, spamming minigunners, and actively selling those towers not in use and spamming it on the locations where the boss is heading to obtain optimum DPS. And... We won! Oh! It’s a 40-wave game. Now, early defense and money is available because we got COWBOY this time… Oh! Can’t wait to play WASTELANDs… it’s insanely INSANE!!! November 29, 2022 Image: pinterest

Grinding for Gems, @ Roblox… So my 9-year-old boy is happy for finally – an accelerator. Well, I mention that I was playing ROBLOX on an article I published… so this is it… TDS (Tower Defense Simulator)… I have been playing this game for about a month now or I started this November – a month since November is ending, lolz… I told my eldest I was playing Roblox, and guess what? He didn’t believe me. I had motion sickness so I can only play limited online games, much less those games that really moves a lot. So, basically I couldn’t play CALL OF DUTY. However, I do play: STICK WARS I & II (II, but most of the time lappy hangs so we quit the game), ML Chess and now currently TDS. Anything strategic seems to be a forte and getting stuck on it, -loving it actually. I honestly don’t like Roblox before since it requires a lot of jumping and movements. And lately, I just discovered TDS doesn’t need a lot of movement just the soldiers and placements of towers. So, I tried it once and loving it. It’s a strategic game, like its name, Tower Defense Simulator, a game defending its base, (waves of attackers) with the people/soldiers defending it referred as “TOWER” - given specific names samples are: soldier, accelerator, ranger, military base, warden and many more. So the player is given 5 towers to play the game, with several gamemode: EASY, NORMAL, Hard & Insane, and further divided into EVENTS/special maps where players earn special price, sample: cowboy earned through playing BADLANDS and gems playing HARDCORE. It's supposed to be a multiplayer (DUO, TRIO, or QUAD) game but still can play SOLO. Furthermore it's difficulty is categorized into: Normal, Molten and Fallen. About a week ago, my boy gets frustrated playing because he played it on matchmaking on a quad and unfortunately, most players leave the game so he's alone in the game and feeling depressed and angry. He just really want to play the game. His aim is to reach 50K in coins to buy golden crates, since golden skins seemed to have special abilities like in STICKWARS. Hating it when he gets frustrated and seeing that it only needs certain strategy to get into the game so I participated since I don’t know the controls. I am confident of winning even if alone because we won STICKWARS without paying for anything. Yes, in a week he got his golden crate but since the update on the towers is very random and got frustrated again because he want his minigunner to be updated but it ended up the SOLDIER (tower used for beginners) got updated because it was what I usually used – due to it inexpensiveness, lolz! Well, this game needs to farm (earn money to buy towers), what can I do? This is the easiest to earn! Lolz. And another week he worked for another golden crate and finally had his got minigunner gold skin. Little did I know he was really working for a COWBOY because it’s a tower with 2 functions: defense and farming, and only a reward from playing BADLANDS which is one of the Insane GAMES. Oh yes! We got it after 4th tries, but with heart-aching losses. 3 times we almost defeated the bosses, just almost and finally defeated it on the 4th try. Well, thanks to the accelerators of the other players and we made it. Yup! Horray! We concluded this journey earlier on 25th of November. He was so happy that he never stopped smiling. So… bound to play other INSANE TDS modes, and perhaps we will have a shot of winning HARDCORE and FALLEN! HARDCORE seems impossible to beat while FALLEN is just difficult but not impossible! However, playing HARDCORE now that we have accel seems petrifying for me to do because knowingly everything at HARDCORE is pricey. Though, it'll really will make him happy. Good luck! Thank u for the read. November 28, 2022 Image: Roblox

Almost! But not yet... OMG… What a surprise… ??? Or something I missed to notice that no matter how much I evade some things in my life, little by little it comes back… Comes back in folds I never would have thought it’d be. Before October ended, my mom’s friend – eventually we became friends, as all of mama’s friends are my friends, told me her 2nd son is going to be married on 12/28/2022. It was nice but what surprises me is that she wants me to do the decoration for the church! Like! Whaaaaaaat? Yes… It’s a long whaaaattttt! I was Halloween and she was busy with a lot of things so she said we’ll talk when she’s done with all the November affairs. Honestly, I just let it pass by and made a follow-up a week after Halloween, as a courtesy. Then she told me, they will be finalizing everything on the 15th and she will be in touch. And comes the 15th and I didn’t follow through with the topic, nor did I initiate communication. The truth is that I never seriously thought she will consider me to do the decorations. It’s a hobby but wedding decoration needs professional touch and seriously, having 150-180 guests is a lot of crowds which I am not exposed to. But then again, comes 17th… and she is pressing it. Good thing is that I won’t have to do the bridal bouquet and corsage, which is a big relief but seriously, church decoration? Oh! Mind you. I have several tactics in mind so she will change her perspective but really far from her imagination. But I do promise myself to really help her with the decoration should she really pushes with this. Right now, I asked for their budget so they will really think hard about how to go about this. This is actually the last of my cards so, I am crossing my fingers. I am not sure why she won’t hire the professionals who are in the business of doing this and simply implore my creative hands for a very delicate and importantly special occasion such as a wedding and everybody is there to attend. I am not pressured. Nor do I doubt my abilities to push projects like this and make them happen. It is just that I preferred not to. As I already mentioned there are a lot of them already in the business and many have strongholds. So I just really prefer to just be a guest and sit, relax and enjoy the party. I am doing this a pro-bono, -an experience to cherish. I am really glad that there are really people who are proud to flaunt my abilities, especially on important and special occasions such as weddings. Perhaps it’s an avenue for me to pursue “Jen’s Place” as a brand in the making. However, there are a lot of set-back and worries. I have no crew, equipment, or budget to start this project. Which is actually troublesome. Though this project, it can actually help on the jumpstart, however, I am not sure how it is going to hold. Hmm... Almost. But I am glad it didn't push through! Thank u Lord! November 27, 2022 Image: pinterest

I have a goal in the next days... I have articles to publish and hopefully I won't skip a day! Good luck!

Life: How much Grind does it take to make it through… Money really does work in so many ways… To celebrate occasions and able to invite a lot of guests with sumptuous foods and end up alone after the celebration. A wedding reception of our liking that feels magical all through the day and the next weeks, months, or years, faced with the horror of unfaithfulness. Mansions build on expensive stones only to crumble with an earthquake strikes. Assets disappear in the wink of an eye because the market is bad? So, how much grinding do we need to ever be satisfied? Until one day our bodies fail us? Not minding that all the hard work and grinding will end up losing our health… a sacrifice worth taking? Or say… box out a colleague to get the promotion we ever wanted?! For a career climb? Stab each other at the back for such a step away to become the next boss? Not the next boss perhaps, but the attention we ever dreamed of? Or for the recognition we never had?! Lolz… Grind for the material things we craved for? And at the same time, recognition? Fame and attention? To be regarded as the best of the flock? Hmm… Well, the only reason I grind is… to earn money. Nothing more. The next I just realized was to grind more to earn gems on roblox games… hihihi! Seriously because I definitely don’t want to spend a dime buying robux, it’s expensive! I need money okay! Who doesn’t? Money to buy food, shelter, pay bills and the basic necessities and some foolish caprices, alongside my kids. Nothing much. I am not in a need of a mansion for a house, I am just in a need of a bahay-kubo for one because it’s refreshing to sleep on. Simple, yet comfy and not expensive. If to have a car, nothing luxury, a jeep will do – the old type used during WWII. It’s not expensive and gasoline wise – for our joy ride on a weekend, if possible. Okay… I’d worked hard during school days… not from being on the honor list to top lists but working at home… Didn’t work nor aimed for scholarships, especially for academe because I had to be home and help mama to earn our daily needs by cooking for her orders. I missed this part. Perhaps, if I applied for scholarships but couldn’t take a blind eye and not help mama with the chores. Getting a scholarship even an academic was something I couldn’t because it would mean, mama had no help for her orders. I didn’t work hard at school, I worked hard at home to assist my mom. Many say were are at the END TIME? So, really… the REVELATION, read it? It’s horrific. Ever wonder what happens when tomorrow one of the predictions happened, the greatest EARTHQUAKE is to unfold… Well, the 2013 earthquake in BOHOL was a shake I couldn’t forget. I just gave birth and it was a hell of a shake. So what happens to everything we ground for? Our beautiful house, our reputation, a million likes, subscriptions and so much more… in the end, what we do need at these times are the basics: food, water, medicines, shelter, blankets, and all the necessities to survive. Well, these are just the immediate things we need. The next should be money for exchange but can we still withdraw our money from the banks? Hmm, I don’t think the internet will be freely accessible at this point. Just thinking. We will be celebrating ODETTE's passage coming December. It's something many people are thinking over this holiday season and are still afraid of. Thanks for the read. God bless. November 23, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Hesreal I have been playing roblox, which explains why I was out of this road for a few weeks. Hihihi! Grinding to get cowboy and now accelerator. Let's talk about this journey in the next article. Okay… I was talking to God about how things were going as the year is ending, and the current state of affairs. One part complaint and one part real talk. The complaint and real talk are about my sister, our eldest, and about my STALKER. Well, to overtly describe her as “dawo”, greed in English but not exactly. The definition is more defined as “crave to have it all to her self, self first before anyone else”, is more like this than… While STALKER. Hmmm… I complained a lot and the latest was I communicated with his best friend way back in high school. Telling him of the predicament we are in and I asked him to help me tell STALKER to stop. With his girlfriend, I tried to make sense to them of my request, “to help me tell him to stop and let me go!”. We are real friends, they made me part of their circle – “the boys’ camp”, they’re all boys… It’s been a month already and his best friend took his time and came to our province to “arrange a schedule to talk to him about my requests” I was really taken aback because he came back for my request. I guess he understood the severity of the request and I believe, he is not answering my messages. The answer I sought was taken with repulsion?! I am happy because he released my email and now I am using it but no longer the primary email since it was easily hacked. I am transitioning the email usage to yahoo since it’s less accessible than google. But like I complain to God about our predicament. “Why is it so hard for him to let me go and stop watching me!”. It’s really been 2 years already and the “time, effort, and resource” he’s using is unimaginable. And it’s really weird! I honestly don’t take it seriously because most of the talks within this group is really just jokes. And the saying “wla’y tinod-anay” is the mark of this group. So seriously, I’m not taking or buying it to be a serious matter and of importance! While I was talking to God, the reply seems instant. Something caught my eye, a commotion on the street with street cars with prints on its body “HESREAL”. Hmm… I know he is real but… hahaha! Can I still argue? I know it’s a shallow call or answer but I already have these answers for a while now. He is staying and not going for now. So his presence in our lives will be intense from this point on as he is visiting my eldest at school now more than ever, during lunch break. Like the song “what’s best for you is worst for me” ?! This is somewhat the after-effect of the requests I made. Seeing his pictures with these guys seems to have a better effect on this physique and well-being. Perhaps if I only let him do what he NEEDS to do, as long as he is not harming us, like what my eldest says… So be it. Hayst… God answers the way I never deemed it to be! That’s why I really have to brace myself whenever I pray because His answers are really out of expectations. I know this by now. Trust and have faith everything will be good, in time. Thank u Lord though, at least I have someone to talk to about it. Thank u for the read. November 25, 2022 Image: my own

Everything I own. Now I am writing… hearing the music ***“Everything I own” by Bread, “I would give everything I own, just to have you, back again”. “is there someone you know, you’re loving them so but taken it all for granted. You may lose them one day, someone takes them away and don’t hear the words you long to say***.” A general concept of life, short and nothing is predictable. I was once young and clueless of what the world was about. Living through idealism and by chance guarded the principles I grew up with, together with morals and manners. Lolz. Uncompromisingly straightforward and the rest is history… One thing I don’t and will never regret is how I spent my years growing old with my mom but I prefer to cut the years short so I will have the time to explore the world on my own. I have more experience navigating through the intricate folds of what they called this “world”. For those who choose to live a life of solitude is easy while for those who choose to have a family is not as easy as it sounds. Like the same old adage, “it takes two to tango”. A relationship, no matter how many years you’ve been together, it still undergoes the same old cycle, - the usual roller coaster ride. And it’s not easy to hold each other’s hand all the time. To whichever path anyone choses, there are consequences or risks to take. Sample. A woman will choose, career over marriage/wife. Thus, having children or marriage is not a priority. Same goes to men, they may choose to marry at the later stage in life. Both has consequence or risk to bear and with the same results. Birth risks is on the play, failing health too is another thing to look into. We all get to go, the after-life! It’s really just a matter of when.  How our life is shaped, is dependent on our priorities in life. The ones we hold dear or “GOAL”. Often times the goal is:  “career path”, “vocation”, “fun/adventures”, “treasures”, et al. But really? At the end of the road, what will be the ultimate goal? Because, as mentioned, we all get to go! On our last sleep, last breath… the last minutes of our life is what? Get to be measured on what? How rich we became? How famous we were? How many houses we have? The bylines we submitted? We all get to leave everything behind, even memories fades in time unless immortalized. Not even the clothes we wear, gets old, dreary, left somewhere to be feasted by microbes… Hahaha! I am really getting older as I am writing these tones. But really… I want to get to my last sleep with a smile on my face. Getting ready for my last breath in the arms of my children. The small hands that I used to hold while they are growing. Wrapped in their arms as I am making my passage. Possible? Oh! I can only say, it’s a lot of hard work and sacrifices. Truthfully, we don’t get everything we want or need. We only get to prioritize it and cherish it as it lasts. To me, my children are the treasures in my life. Hard work and sacrifices, I have to work to provide for them and at the same time serve them at home, cooking meals and other chores for them. Have to play and teach them how to read, make follow-ups on it on their progress. Make sure everything is well and running. So much to do? Hahaha! But I get to sacrifice the climb to success as I can no longer afford to be “on-call” for meetings and others in the middle of the night because I am teaching them to read. I don’t want to leave the house because all the reasons in the world including, laziness. I just want to stay late in bed and cuddling the little ones. Friends at bay, waiting for a get-together, if possible. Patience? Oh! They eat your patience whole and alive, like nothing more is left but burnt out. We all get the chance to have that one thing we desired the most, lucky to have two or more... And mind you, you will never know until its all done with, then realized that you have actually let go of that most important desire. Many tend to "take them for granted" like as a the song stated. Why? Because we think they will stay for a lifetime. Yes, like what mama did, she stayed but still in the end she went away, in the arms that truly made her happy! Back to the one who LOVES without condition, our Creator. And to this, I gave everything I owned, staying. Being beside her, was not the greatest pleasure but the greatest honor. No regrets but next time, given the chance, I will have it shortened - to give space for growth on both sides. We do get our chance for something, grab it while its there! Nothing in the world is more pleasurable than to MEAN WHAT YOU SAY. Like when you say I LOVE YOU, don't take the words for granted. It's a clear declaration, if you can't stand up to it then don't say it because it will only be a disappointment. Many are afraid to give the best and the truest, because they are afraid of being hurt. But, all of us get to be hurt, who isn't? Even God is hurt the second man disobeyed his commandment. Remember, we only get to live and witness this life. Yes, it's our choice still. We get to choose if we live inside a mirror full of facade and empty inside. Or get real, fall, get hurt, wounded and stumble... For life is short and it's definitely a roller coaster ride! Thank u for the read. God bless. November 17, 2022 Image: our own

Tomatoes on a carton box I have to learn to live with the feeling of having a lump on my throat for months now. Resulting from the heart illness, hopefully soon I will be able to cope. Can’t wait for that time to come. Surprisingly while the weather has been very chaotic, extreme hotness and coldness, and yet my tomatoes thrives! Despite being boxed on a carton box, they are alive and harvesting. Though easily rot but the soil is intact for a while before it withers away. A way of disposing them properly I guess, recycle, making use of them to the fullest. And yet, the tomatoes thrive… I am happy that they survived despite all the conditions being exposed to. I didn’t harvest the fruits because I was thinking of making them ripe first. Though they may have enjoyed the heavy rains but the hotness was something they didn’t enjoy. I noticed those that were near ripening, they were most harmed and damaged by the heat. They almost skipped ripening and goes immediately to rotting. Which was not good, if I was slow, then I won't be able to harvest them or pick them just at the right moment and not enjoy their taste. They tasted exceptionally good despite the conditions. I can’t believe they bear with my caprices. The soil, all sand with almost no fertilizer except when we do tuna, it’ll be watered with fish bones. Without fish… hmmm, oh! I forgot I was able to spread some amount of coffee grounds on it just this year, and I am not sure it was enough. Urine too would have been some good source of fertilizer but I don’t collect. Now, I am thinking of collecting this too to encourage the orchids to flower. They are good source of organic fertilizer that encourages flower to bloom. Well, this is something I have learned from my grandma and was able to pass it down. Another are those egg shells, a good source of calcium. Well, here I am overthinking that they were not fertilized but then again. They are well nourished I should say. My manure will not be arriving anytime soon because the bearer has no concrete plan on when to bring them. So for now, I am enjoying the fruits and hopefully to enjoy more! Ah!!! The salad just tastes better. Thank u for the read, God bless. November 16, 2022 Image: Pinterest

Earning Opportunities Seriously. Content writing isn’t something I know off. So, I won’t pretend that I know much but I am going to explore the arena. Pardon me, I am old-fashioned and still haven’t paced up with the changing times. The times where information is ever evolving and although many “complained of information overload”, but that remains a wonder since everything now is about information. Without it, exploring possibilities seem null and void. Being around here at read for about a year now, I am glad to meet people of the newer generation, some are part of the generation that I belonged to, and older generation as well. It is such an interaction. An ever-growing community that helps people explore possibilities, especially the earning side. Of course, this brings about the evolution of everyone who stayed and helped them hone their writing skills, intently trying to impress the AI with this generosity. And indeed many are successful and many are also trying still. What makes it just right is that the newer generation I guess, a mere observation from reading contents here, is that they are able to take advantage of this. Giving them the earning power that our generation never had. And while they still have their busy schedule at school, they get to grind more and are excited to give inputs whenever they can. However, there is a downside to this. Writing is exhausting both mentally and physically, -actually draining. Especially true when you are writing with emotions, the poem writing. Writing in abstracts has the tendency to drain authors very much. So does the novel too. The intricate feelings incorporated into it are overwhelming sometimes that you have to search for the right words to explicitly tell the tale, giving an overwhelming impact to readers – or let’s settle with just the right impact is already something. Although, research too is draining but… there is more advantage to it. One of course, research is now easy and very feasible done online. Whereas, during our time, only when our library allows. It was far exhausting before, not only draining your mental/physical resources – finances too as you have to visit other universities to complete the research. Wow! But now, the unimaginable access that even archives are retrievable, online libraries are just a search away. What a change! With all the access, any reason not to write is complicated. However, as already mentioned, writing is exhausting. Withdrawal from writing is one excuse, next is writer’s block, the most common– nothing comes out no matter how hard you tried to think. Well, this is reiteration but really, just blank. People would say, it just easy, just type… hahaha! Easier said than done, sometimes it works while many times I failed – though I am not heartbroken for not writing. Well, all said and done. We aim to grow each time and growing needs to refresh our goals and motivation for doing it so. We are all too familiar with these downsides so it’s best to develop a healthy habit to address them. Set aside some time for yourself to do physical activities. Sample, I loved gardening so, every day I put some part of me going over gardening activities. Muse myself and indulge then I’d find a topic that motivates/triggers the need to write, like yesterday I was harvesting the tomatoes I planted. Though, I haven’t written about my tomatoes but I will in the succeeding articles perhaps if not another urgent topic to write about. The key to writing. Refresh the motivation every time. Develop a healthy habit of balancing thinking and physical activities as this may trigger the writing need. While my friend was truly a writer, her interaction with the world helps her motivation to write, refreshed. So she really has the “need” to write all the time. While I am not as interactive as she was, she was an extrovert while I am an introverted type. I have to balance it out with physical activities which really helps. Earning opportunities come and go. To be able to fully take advantage of this, developing a balanced system to counter writing blocks is a way to be consistent in content writing. Thank u for staying. God bless. November 7, 2022 Image: pinterest

Rice: the new formula Months ago, I have complained about how rice spoils easily these days. The rice that we used to cook before lasts for a day or even more, making us enjoy fried rice for breakfast. Sure to it, it was truly economical. However, as the years went by agriculture developed some GMOs (Genetically Modified Organism) to address the growing needs as time changes. Like, atmospheric and weather conditions, the so-called “climate change” has drastically affected agricultural products as well as its impact on the economy. Currently, a storm just passed by our city and the massive rain it brought with it caused landslides in the central mountainous area of our province, where it affected several homes “that were completely destroyed and buried underneath the landslide debris”. Well, this is just part of the many stories told during the passage of the storm. Unfortunately, many cities did experience floods, though expected but, this is just the aftermath of the storm. All knowingly that the drainage system either failed or just doesn’t work. https://cebudailynews.inquirer.net/472298/as-soil-continues-to-move-in-busay-cebu-city-asks-intervention-from-natl-govt And another storm or tropical depression is expected. May or may not effect us directly but we are already affected by prices of commodities amidst the storm. Due to lack of supply? Because travel was halted due to storm and many more reasons related. And there isn’t really much we can do but, seat and wait for it to weather. Then I discovered about rice. The rice formula that we have been so used to using since old times has drastically changed too. This is one of the reasons why rice is easily spoilt. Even with rice cooker usage, it's not as it used to be. The secret actually lies in how much water you put on the rice. Little did I know that the measurement has actually changed until I tried it myself and continued to do so. Even instructed my kids that the measurement has changed. Now I no longer complained but am enjoying the fruits of such discovery. Enjoying rice more than a day without getting spoiled and can save on gas too! Oh! I was truly happy that I could continue to enjoy cooking rice and not have them spoiled anymore after the day ended. And this is where I came to appreciate GMO concepts implored in agricultural products. To suit more of our needs, lesser water usage, and resilience to current weather conditions at the same time economical. However, I am still not fully convinced since this may result to what was contained in the news “of the plastic rice” that many claimed to have eaten. Hopefully, it will never result to that. Thank u for reading. November 03, 2022 Image: pinterest

Stalking... 2 years. Being stalked. By someone I know. A friend back from high school, not really friend but a classmate and barely know him. I couldn’t even remember we had a conversation back then, just 10 yrs ago when we met at a birthday celebration. That was the only conversation we had. I never knew he was there until things were popping up out of nowhere. Things were missing, cups, towels, coat/sweaters, t-shirt. It never occurred to me somebody was watching until I saw him across our convenience store. And the following days he was following me as I do my 20-40 minute-walk. I really barely know him, though profiling him during our encounter 10 years ago, he’s nothing someone I should fear. The only thing that’s close to that is that, harming my kids but he’s not into that. So far, it feels like I know the guy more now as he was stalking me. I don’t know the intents of stalking me. Ignoring him for some time may have been the motivation but I don’t think it’s enough to establish reason to stalk. Yet along the way I can say he’d learn a lot of things about me that were not open to everyone else. Despite of course that I don’t have anything to hide, there are a lot of things strangers don’t know about me. And despite of my straight-forward approach, many still doubt it – not that I care because it’s really beyond my control. Most of all, he learned of our secrets that we share at night with the children. The things we discuss and the things we hide in between ourselves, our clumpsiness and failures - only to find out that someone is listening from the rooftops. He learned too much, my sleeping habits, regular habits, knows where I keep my money, the clothes I wear, and even sees me on my sleep. Stole my phone in the middle of the night, yes, he passed through our walls and I cannot refute. This is just the annoying and irritating part. Apart from all this, he has been harmless. But, I really don’t want this to continue. So I reached out to his friends, the ones who really knows him. Unfortunately, they seem to be consenting him. Hayst! I was complaining and what I got was description of the current me. How I look, dressed and behaved. Wow! And it was really years since the last time we saw each other, 2018. Imagine, they talked about me… Goodness! I realized I am heading for a dead end. But perhaps his action will be halted because I reached out to his friends. Well, really. I can only cross my fingers and hope for a better end. I just really want to move on and live our lives. Meet new friends, which currently, most of male the friends seems distancing making me wonder if he ever did something to them. Well, thank u for reading. God bless. October 28, 2022 Image: ours

Rainy days and Mondays… It has been raining since Monday until yesterday. Now, it’s good to see the sun shines brightly again but… Never had I thought weeks ago the sun was truly scourgingly hot that it burned the leaves of my phalaenopsis. A species of orchids that has wide leaves and beautifully arranged flowers. Mine was still growing and thriving, with its leaves burned, hmmm… I am wandering how long it’ll take to recover. So I hid my orchid tower back into the house, not placing on the veranda because it was there where I placed it and was scourged. Now I am filling in the veranda with mint and a lot of Vietnam roses, together with some cacsulents. I really wish the Vietnam roses will grow fast to enjoy the beautiful display of flowers on my veranda. But, they are just 2 weeks old. Hmmm… I am excited to watch them with beautiful displays as they mature. A bit of show off since they’re on the veranda/terrace. An addition is the Christmas cactus, little did I know it liked shaddy and indirect sunlight. It was late I read about it and transferred. Hopefully within the month it’ll flower since night breeze has been extremely cold these days. Afternoon is coming and is already cloudy outside. Expecting to rain again later or tonight. With a little hope that the coming weekend will be all sunny especially with the coming Halloween. People are looking forward for a warm atmosphere where people can enjoy the sun to the fullest. Unlike when it rains, people seems reluctant to go out. Getting all wet and cold isn’t something they like. While the Vietnam roses and dragon fruits are well flourishing up on the roof deck, many plants had died due to extreme weather. Either rot by the rain or scourged by the sun. Though I have some strawberry left, I was thinking of relocating below, as they will also exposed to the same amount of sunlight needed to fruit. Tomatoes are flourishing despite the scourging sun, and is not suffering from it. Bitter gourd is flourishing too while many died. I doubt cucumber will survive and the chili as well. So I will be placing them together with the orchid tower and calathea. The weather is really odd these days, too much heat and too much wetness… just too much to bear the most. Yes, as the weekend hits me with another lesson to learn. Due to intent rain, a snake not passed by but trespass our walls. It passes through small hole on our wall and… my lizard friends were trying to take it down, but the snake was fiercely fighting them off. And it goes into the room of my boy and hide there the whole day. I didn’t fight it off because I don’t like snakes, so instead, I heated the room with the lights because I was afraid it might get out and goes into our room. The room heated up and lo! The plan worked, the snake went out on its own. Confirming the old adage about snakes that “it doesn’t like fire”. On the other hand, kuya was also fighting off a snake on our ancestral home because he was staying there. The snake too fights but when you fight back, oh, it runs like a coward. I don’t know, I just found this interesting to learn. Snakes attack to scare the prey, intimidating but when you fight back, it really runs like a coward. While on the other, heat them up and they also run like cowards. Thank u for reading. October 27, 2022 Image: our own

Catching Up! It’s been a lot of Mondays and weekdays that passed me by and haven’t written anything on Read. I miss read.cash and the community. Missed a lot of friendships here! Hope I will be able to make it up and write again. To my awesome sponsors! Thank u for sticking with me… Well, I have several good news for me. My book I’ve written for my son is now officially searchable on line. Hmmm, I’d like to share and just so bad I will be losing anonymity since this is what I loved the most in this channel. https://www.authorhouse.com/en/bookstore/bookdetails/847380-jens-place I’d love to say my utmost gratitude for this entitlement and enable me to publish with AUTHORSOLUTIONS. This is truly a gift that I’d appreciate so much since publishing is really for free. Hmmm, I’d like to express my gratitude too to READ.CASH because this platform has endowed with me with so much space to write, giving me an audience that is as awesome as the platform. Hmmm, I couldn’t ask for more but be grateful and appreciate it so much. I have been anxious for this and finally it’s been out but still anxious because I still have 2 books on queue, waiting for HR’s approval. Ah, these are meant to be a “coffee-table-book” for my children and grandchildren to enjoy reading, something to leave behind when I am gone. The books contained a lot of my articles here from READ.CASH, making it a compilation and a lot more stories to tell. I had a lot of catch up reading my notifications and lo! My goodness, I love the exchanges between my favorite peoples. This is actually what I’ve missed so far, the very good exchanges between people. A never ending exchange of idea that never failed to be backed up with concrete logic and rebuttals. Hmmm, every educational. I just loved the exchanges as it really encourages people to think and standing their ground defending their cause is something I have admired both people. Respected them more for standing their ground and despite the differences in beliefs, they remained. Oh! How I loved reading the articles mostly profoundly written. It has brought so much comfort coming back from long absence. Despite of course the market, still on the downside, but which market is not? Oh! A good read worth mentioning from @bala41288 “It takes 6 months for human body to heal from almost anything”. Well, I am truly looking forward for my body to heal knowing now what’s the fact behind my illness. But so far, what I’ve learned is that the “HEART” really has a mind of its own. It doesn’t follow the mind, no matter what, they can “synchronize” but not controlled. So my body is speaking to me on a different level, so to allow me to heal. Right now, I’m reducing “heart assistance”, medicine - term used by my doctor so it will not be too disheartening to accept the fact of “heart failure”, from 2/day to once a day and for the high blood pressure to lesser dosage. Shhh, I took care of it because sometimes my blood pressure gets to too low. To note, what I eat really contribute so much on the road to better health. Thank u for sharing such insights. I cannot mention all the articles so well written that I can only manifest through comments and likes. And to all the beautiful people in this community, we all remain together in our daily journey! Thank u so much for having me around and will continue to support the community by writing. October 26, 2022 Image: our own

Taking Risks Here’s the thing… the hard truth in life… we get to meet someone or some people and we get to feel the chemistry in there. And as we grow older in life, there are just priorities we need to weigh. Risking… It’s easy to say just take the risk without really thinking hard "what I am trying to give it up for". It’s easy to get overboard about our daily affairs and I’ve already jumped into the roller coaster ride once and going through it again, is another risk to play. Not that I regretted it because it resulted to a wonderful blessing. But as I grow older, I get to think of it often as much than it used to. Before it was just a piece of cake and even now.  It’s not really more on morals, teaching my kids/boys that… I believe I have stand my ground for the past 10 years in teaching them that. So morals isn’t the matter in question right now. Now they are older, I’m thinking of the possibility of finding another love? Finding another love in this lifetime, twice – is awesome. They say “love on the second time around” is a lucky shot and it’s a rare opportunity. Taking my shot or not. Hmm… Like I said, harsh reality of this world is taking risks and not everyone is honest about it. And like my boy stated it, “sometimes truth hurts” so you cant be 100% true at in this lifetime… hahaha! At my side of the table, love is a  risk. Why? I really have nothing to lose except my sanity… hahaha! To be honest, I have nothing left to lose. One of course, I am ageing and my sons are there, well, almost there taking their lives to their own direction while I’m just around guiding them. However, perhaps I would say I would me more reckless if I was younger. But right now I have everything to think about. Weighing the risks: 1.       I am really happy with things in my life. Although, having someone to talk about things, help you out when you need to sort out important things is what makes having a relationship important but… 2.       Sharing with someone is good. Like I share my plans with my boys, laying down my decks so they’ll know what I'm thinking and for them to be honest with me is something is really good. Although, its not going to happen that they will share everything but at least we can be honest with each other is what I can expect from them. Risks to take: 1.       STD. True there are vaccines for that but what’s the guarantee? My friend took the vaccine but she died of cervical cancer caused by HPV virus. I’m sorry but you know. The person has personally, the best character and the sweetest guy in town, but you will never really know how many STDs he has?! I’m sorry, but the world is very much into “friends with benefits” and “exchange partners” is just as easy as switching to another phones these days. STD just doesn’t really manifest on men except HIV (it manifests to everyone). And its not easy to tell him to take the tests because you know, it’ll hurt a lot – opens a lot of argument ranging from “trust to injured pride”. You can't dictate to your partner "what you think" but can only suggest if your partner ever come to cross on thinking about it, then "injured pride" is another result of it. Though, both of you are going to take the test anyway but… You’ll never get to think about it when you’re in a relationship until you’re sick or him sick one day. Right? This is really serious for me, why? Its not just cervical cancer hurts and all other implications, if this can be prevented, then why not? Right? Implications like finances, you’ll be left to tend for yourself, facing the processing by yourself is one of the worst thing that’ll happen. My friend has a husband but she ends up making and going in and to the hospital by herself. Hearing the news 1st hand by herself and has to face everything, from the diagnosis to bills by herself. So… If I were sick, I’m good being alone because I am already alone. But worst is being alone when you have a behalf or supposed to have somebody by your side and is just not there – hurts. 2.       Relationship problems is one of the worst! Hahaha! Perhaps I just lived a very long single life that adjusting is just too much?! 3.       Older men has commitment issues especially those on 40s and up. So… Me? No commitment issues, I was once married. Cheating issues, oh no! I’m certified faithful. Hahaha! – just love myself this much! Well this is just about the things that crossed my mind on the topic! Resolve. Seriously, I’m open for another relationship. All above I’ve mentioned are the risks I come across, discussing with myself. But it’s really up to the universe if my universe will allow to collide with another universe, well that’s for the UNIVERSAL MASTER to synchronize… hahaha! But seriously, STD is a SERIOUS TOPIC, not welcome every time… Sometimes it too late to realize that until "**My boyfriend/girlfriend gave me STD**"... Cervical cancer really hurts! I just heard someone who is on stage 4, bed ridden and just waiting for her time. Left alone with only a care giver to attend to her! For a lingering thought. **What’s life to live for if not to share the treasures you’ll find with your LOVED ones?** Happy birthday to my Joy! EJ - the book was written for you and bansoy... Thank u for the read. October 18, 2022

I beg your pardon, Ms/Mr! Hayst! Forgive me for my aghast expression. Actually my heart’s bit reacting but…  Hmmm… I really lived so much in my cave that going out, on social media – the worst, and discovering that people really does label and name “names”. Makes me understand why articles like: “insensitive/sensitive”, “introvert/extrovert” and the likes flooded this platform ever since. Worst is that when they packed in groups like “group chat”, all of them alike, they feel invisible. Ok! Hahaha! Story I stumble into some “affairs to remember” for the prevailing silence here. Hmmm… I meet a lot of people needing help coping and had tried a lot of activity, following procedures to do it right. There are “group chat” used as a support system as not everybody knows how to handle pressure. I have team up with some good people, many of which I can appreciate because they have the strength to share with those with lesser. I even cross path with a social worker who is like me “kalog”, English means “shaky”, “unsteady” but we usually call someone who constantly “hyperly-interactive, that teases a lot”, who actually made people laugh in the middle of crisis – is the best description I can find. It’s a legal battle that only a few realized the seriousness of the topic. So… I was added to a “supposed-to-be-support system”, the GC, without me knowing. I was added to 2 GC before-hand but I left. The real reason why I left is I find their acts non-sense, although they’re really trying to ease the tension but… I can understand “kalog”, “kanchaw” is like “banter, tease in a joking way”, I really don’t mind but to take the topic with considerate seriousness. Others already died with depression and you still have time to talk about your “bedroom escapades” and the likes? So I left. The same GC, comprised with the same people. I was called “disrespectful” and “attitude”. When in the 1st place, 1. I only asked for someone else to be added because it was taking a toll on her, granting of course it’s a “support group”. 2. I didn’t know why I was added – didn’t request for it. And whola! Hayst! They all answered differently. ??? duh! I can understand I was arrogant! Lolz, I am aware I have the tendency, pardon me though. But, my point is that “I left because of this non-sense behavior”. Though I don’t have the heart to tell them that but it’s leaking superbly… Like their procedures are not in place and they didn’t even know how added me and approved? It was supposedly strict community but something like this leaked? How inappropriate! This is not child’s play! Lives are at stake. Ok. They fight amongst themselves regarding the procedure in adding people and didn’t have any idea how I came about being added and now these are all blamed on me? I just don’t think it FAIR. So pardon me Ms/Mr. If you hadn’t figured out your roles as admin, how to place your procedures and tackle it discretely and professionally. Please, have the decency to admit it to yourselves and change! Not blame it on someone who, doesn’t even have an idea what’s going on… only asked to help someone who was in need of help! Because this GC was created as a support group. Resolve Hey! Take responsibility on your actions and don't! Don't blame other people if they had stronger coping mechanism than yours because, we don't need to know each other to RESPECT and share the same point of views! What's the point of diversity if we all shared the same mind set? Not everyone is needy! Some are and many are not! So, get hold of yourselves and grow - you are all bunch of children in an adult form! Because not every thing about this world is about you and your group! Definitely, there is safety in numbers, and its not supposed to be used to bully people! And its not an avenue nor appropriate to use such because everyone has the right to their own ideas and individuality. Sorry, if you grew up insecure and unable to find the best in every one. But that insecurity isn't our fault but for you to learn and outgrow! Don't pass it on to people, because they also have their own issue to resolve! Thank u for reading. October 16, 2022 Image: Ours

Cover Photo Poll: Soliciting your upvotes please! I am at awe with the book project at hand and stuck at personal design for cover. I’ve been wondering about it for the past few and been really occupied since.  I thought having the manuscript and whola, everything is set! But oh no! In my dreams… hahaha! The easy part is the manuscript, the rest is chakabells! OMG… Like I have set aside all other activities because I was so occupied with converting my photos from 72DPI to 300DPI. I am not techy and I think everybody knows about it and somebody stole my phone, and I just figured out that there are a lot of useful free apps on phones than on lappy! OMG… So, conversion was a heck for me using the lappy. I got so frustrated looking for FREE converter and it took me almost a week until I found it. Tadang, 16-20 photos converted.  Hayst! And you may think conversion was the only problem? Ayt! Oh no! Writing was just the easy part, the design part is hell! Hahaha! Like I have to come up with the cover design and unfortunately we don’t have a template for this? Like whaaaaat? Now, google search it and Google will present a thousand ideas to choose from… Got me drowsy and dizzy… hahaha! So, that’s how my week was! So, I opened PPT and worked on some slides for the best cover page. Would you be so kind to help me with best cover page for me please? Lolz… My designs and the production is yet to present their ideas. So… Hey! I am not a designer so, spare me your lectures, hahaha! But your suggestion is highly valuable… Char! Oh common, don’t bash me for bad taste, really need your help to solutionize this… hahaha! I getting crazier by the day! LOLZ… I am really just a SIMPLETON… hahaha! Merci!!! Thank u all friends. I had this poll posted here because you are my favorite audience! Thank u, thank u... I almost had my name on the byline!!! good i didn't forget to edit... waaaaaaaaa... Photo cover 1 Photo cover 2 Photo cover 3 Photo cover 4 Photo cover 5 Photo cover 6 Photo cover 7 Photo cover 8 Photo cover 9 October 09, 2022 Image: all mine

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Money Attitude I was surprised… Somebody presented me with a very good attitude towards handling money and… Well, good riddance and thank you for teaching me such. I never thought that such an irritating attitude can be eradicated. Previously… I honestly would raise hellfire for a debt unpaid, and in as much I’d embarrass myself after doing such, but that’s just the impulse working perhaps!   Dairy... I am truly indebted. Not because I think other people who borrowed money from me is stealing from me or mistook my generosity for philanthropy or somewhat in that direction. Them borrowing money from is basically comes from borrowing because they’re in need, does not even cross the line of trust. It’s just basically they need the money. My problem is I have no trust issue and I basically money naturally doesn’t fall for that. Perhaps that’s why I am broke because of such attitude? Ahh, I don’t really care about what other people think about it or about me, for this matter. What matters most to me now and before, is that I can sleep over trivial matters. Embarrassing because I used to… grrrr! I get overly mad for unpaid on the promised date. It’s really not because I think I deserve better but rather, I realized every after collecting from my friends, it’s bad. I really felt bad. Embarrassed myself to the point of “I humiliated myself” in front of them… aw! Why now? Economic issues arise from time to time without deeming it that it’s just really around the corner. Unfortunately, it just happened to them. I already know that I fall short on my budget, so much more for those with bigger families and many piled-up issues to the point of suffocating. Now, I get to be invited to their houses and open their arms in welcoming me there as part of their family and my family as part of theirs. Ok, everyone needs money. Who doesn’t? For whatever purpose that may serve, it was mine in the first place, and “I have every right to collect”. True… But why do I feel bad afterward? Honestly? Well, I feel that I was greedy. Indeed. I need cash but somehow cash has a way of coming and/or, I found a way of supplicating. Like my grocery just fits the payday’s grocery. And some few bills and coins at hand. While the intent of paying is there, unfortunately, there isn’t a penny to spare? Just really none at all, and knowing that is really, it's why I feel bad. I know this, which is why I feel bad because… Although there are people who really disregard the promises and failed to pay but, that’s personal vendetta… hahaha! I hate my intuition and all that… People think that I’m crazy. My criteria of friendship is different from the usual and, they all based their criteria of the person on 1st impression. While I don’t. It's not judging but I call it assessment. Assessment and judging are two different things. When I do judging, I basically don’t like the person outright, like just by looking at the person – I instantly don’t like and the person can pass through anything no matter how good or how hard he tries. Basically cannot be reversed. While assessment is a way of profiling a person. And even if we only met once, I immediately do that by 1st glance/meeting. I’m naïve and trusty, but that’s just it. Even if you killed 10 people in your life, if you choose to share it, well, perhaps I’ll just laugh it out. I’d prefer knowing the person without even asking their name. Odd? Yeah, it’s actually more interesting to know people’s stories than their names! I’ve been in and out of economic crises and somehow, I made it through the rain. Keeping the faith is something that made me through the rain. So, I am quite thankful for that somebody that changed that perspective and made me more kind, now than ever. For those abusive, well, life is nothing but cycles… Just wait and see yours come. While every cycle I’ve gone by, I am sure – very sure I’ll get by. So in the end, I really have nothing to fear because at the end of the day, MONEY can be earned and be wasted anytime we please. This is what we worked for every day, ayt? EARN for a living. Thank u for reading. October 05, 2022 Image: Pinterest

How my 1st Monday of the Month Started. 1st Monday of OCTOBER OMG… what a day… Started out the day slow and prepared my lunch and for bunso. At the same time, happily eager to go to work because… It’s the start of the month and my book project is in progress. I am excited on a whole new level! I mean who wouldn’t be excited! At the very 1st Monday of the month! Lolz… I really planned to sleep in the office for few hours but, I got busy. So, I ended up writing “author biography” with 300 word, “about the book” for 300 words too and, preview with Keynotes… like.. Ok, im done with it… I went home, feeling all done. But there are lots of things to do… one, my cover page isn’t… I don’t have an idea how to!!! And the back cover? OMG! The interior? Really? This tedious? I thought having the content will be done with it? But no! hell, my goodness, this tight… that I need to hu? The details which never went through my head! I didn’t expect, I have to run through all these details… arggghhh! Yes, there is what is called dust jacket? Like hu? Plus the FLAPS, in and back? Another hu? At the back of my head, what am I going to write here? I really thought it was just content and no editing is the concept which is really befitting because the content is already good to go! It’s just a “coffee table book” in lieu for magazine, use to accommodate visitors while waiting for me? That’s just the concept… and here I am, at awe at the sudden flush of urgency or adrenaline? I mean, who would have thought? I didn’t dream to publish, I only want to publish for the sake of publishing… Ok enough… but this is not the highlights of the day. At home. I arrived home pretty early musing all about this. So I mentally went through all the stuff again, and consulted with my sis about the intro and all, she liked it. And, tadang… bunso hasn’t arrived after 90minutes I was home… and got so alarmed that I had to go to school searching for him and got home only to find out he hasn’t arrived… OMG! My heart went wild fire that my pulse rate actually reached 116 while BP is 163/100… waaaaaaaaaaa… and this is despite me drinking medz, alright… Like, I have some business running into blotters, PNP and NBI, got my phone stolen while I was asleep and it was really all, so hellish… Then I started accusing a guy because he just happen to be in between the events, between me blotting and stolen phone, that he may have took my son! OMG, when the mind is fogging due to my heart condition, and this wasn’t the 1st time… So embarrassing! And bunso arrived 10 minutes after chatting the guy whom I mistook for someone! Ahhhhh! Recollection Hayst… I was just glad the guy understood. Take it that he is a social worker and was feeling my pain, he sympathized or pity me which I don’t care. But it was truly embarrassing. He ended up consoling me because I was really in a panic mode! Grr… all the while bunso do this after school, doesn’t go home after because he was playing with friends… Alright, my bad. I should have asked but he never told anything. My heart condition really got the best of me. My mind is really foggy when the heart get tachy, though I am conscious but hell, I started thinking irrational things. I should be able to take hold of this, specially now its recurring. Hayst!   Thank u for reading. Oct 04, 2022 Image: pinterest

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Monkey King Frugality is crucial at times of economic struggle. Struggle is real they say especially when all prices went up while paycheck is still the same like years that passed. Earning and buying power is no longer at par and with the growing kids, all the more we mothers are looking for frugal ways to fit budget. Rice Rice is a major commodity in every Filipino or Asian household. Over the years, it hasn’t changed but the commodity has. Why? Say, you cook rice in the morning and it is already spoiled at 6 pm and even if you try to save it and keep it inside the ref, still it goes spoiled. While rice about 5-10 years ago, goes over night without getting spoiled. Which is why my boys were really enjoying the rice-left-over turned into their favorite fried rice the next day. And that’s every day, of different kinds: eggs with ham fried rice, garlic fried rice, egg/ham/veggie fried rice and many more combination. Then, we can still save left-overs and really save on RICE and other ingredients and even gas. Now? What has become now! We used to go for GANADOR because of the quality of rice and does not go spoiled immediately but now? Oh no! It’s already spoiled before the day ends and I feel so bad throwing away those spoiled rice because I never threw them away. So to save from throwing them away I only cook for a meal but that doesn’t save me from gas. And if I continue to do this, my LPG consumption will be reduced from 25 days down to 20 days? My consumption just increased because of the poor quality of the rice, -easily spoilt! Its no longer frugal to buy GANADOR. I switch to other brands and still the same until I found MONKEY KING. Way too frugal and rice quality is like as GANADOR but doesn’t spoil easy, a real-left-over rice for a good fried rice in the morning! Now, I can save on rice and at the same time on LPG consumption. Realizations I am aware of the GMO thing on food and there are advantages while there are also disadvantages! However, I’d prefer to have it the way as it was before when food were still not easily spoiled. Bitter gourd that used to have a 2-week shelf life, not just days. Need to use it before it turns over ripe which is really sad because it affects not only our budget but also our health. Not only that, it saves us money but our effort as well. I am sorry, I am really the kind who buys in bulk and going to the market every day is just really a waste of a lot of resources: money, time, effort and even gas. Why, the time and effort going to market especially when its really traffic, should be used to rest the body for tomorrow is another combat. While money and gas, of course if we buy in bulk we spend less on gas – thus saving money. Sept 21, 2022 Pinterest