Am I cheating?
My boyfriend and I have been together for six months now. So far, our relationship is getting stronger despite the distance between us. We seldomly see each other only because of the nature of our work. He stays in the city kilometres away from the town where I'm staying. At some weekends we meet secretly in a place where somewhere only we know. Yes, we have a very private relationship. Both of us had a reason why we chose to keep our relationship a secret from everybody. It's not like we are already committed to someone else and we are cheating on them. No, it's not like that.
We are not allowed to meet in public places, afraid that someone will catch us and tell our parents that we are dating each other. Yes, it's all about family issues.
We enjoy meeting behind closed doors, we play, talking about our workmates, how the week went, doing what lovers do, etc. We enjoyed all of those because what matters for both of us is that we are together even for the shortest of time. All of the time I missed him but what can I do? Time is not ours yet to hold.
It's undeniable that sometimes I feel insecure every time I see some of my male friends on Facebook flexing their girlfriends in their stories, tagging, and mentioning them on some random sweet posts. I wanted to experience how it feels when you get a notification that he tagged me in a very sweet post. In our situation, it's impossible. As much as possible, there should be no one that could get a hint about us or else we will be separated. That's the only thing that I keep in my mind so I should stop myself from thinking about bad things.
Then, there comes this guy who lives next door to the apartment I'm renting. There was a certain encounter that made me talk to him and be friends with him. He was nice and also good-looking.
Ever since that encounter that happened last week, he keeps on sending me random messages. He was funny too. He keeps on inviting me for a road trip which I always decline. I don't want to lie to my boyfriend. I just told him that I don't like going out and that I prefer on staying at home, but I'm just lying because I want road trips and food tripping.
Then, one day, I received a notification it says, "Karlo, mentioned you in a post." I got nervous so I opened it immediately, I was too stunned to react to what I saw. He mentioned me in a post that says, "Mention the most beautiful girl you met this year." My name was mentioned with an emoji with hearts in its eyes. I can't deny that I am fluttered. So, this is what it feels like, I thought so. I told him to delete his comment with my name, I'm just being careful someone might see it. He politely deleted it. I'm feeling guilty actually because I'm having a conversation with some other guy behind my boyfriend's back. I know I should stop communicating with him but, there's a part of me that is enjoying his presence. I don't have any intentions but just to make friends with him.
But, I think it would be better if I should stop talking to him. I don't want my boyfriend to look at me differently because of some random guy who did nothing but gave a lot of confusion in my head. Am I doing the right thing?
Hi, its Noelle! I miss you all!
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Hmmm, secret lovers... so, have both of you considered what the future behold if ever?! You can still keep this as a secret though for now, then what about tomorrow? hmmm... keep it now and worry about it later? Well, that's just what happened to ROMEO and JULIET, even if this was the twisted version - heck what's the twisted version when its just all the same... AGAINST ALL ODDS, to think Romeo and Juliet, have supporters, still... you both have to decide when you have to stand your ground for this LOVE AFFAIR, it cannot be a secret forever... hihihi... sorry, but if you want to keep this relationship... at some point you both have to stand your ground and how do you do about it! ahahaha! just making you think as early as now! hihihi!