How to be Unbothered?
October 21 | Friday
Friday's are supposed to be happy because it gives us a feeling of relief that despite the overwhelming tasks bombarding us, we still made it. Maybe I have just not started the day right. Perhaps I didn't set the right mood last Monday.
Last week, we had a huge fight. I caught my boyfriend deleting the message that a random girl sent her. For you to give a better judgment, I'll be sharing the background of our relationship.
We will be celebrating our second year in a relationship this December. It was just recently when he gave me the password to his Facebook account. He had mine many months ago as he connected it to his other Mobile Legend account. That's his sole purpose. I have never caught him reading my messages and he claims that he doesn't like poking at my messenger account and I trust him.
Lately, I have had this urge to check his messenger account to see someone's Facebook story. I like to watch the messenger story of his Facebook friend who happened to be my girl crush. Upon seeing his friend's story, a message popped up. It was from a girl saying sorry that she wasn't able to come back for the second batch of drinking sessions. My boyfriend assured her that it was okay. The girl then asked sorry again and promised that she will make it up to them. My boyfriend replied "soon". Then, the whole conversation is deleted.
It wasn't my intention to read their conversation. I was just there to watch someone else's Facebook story. After that incident, I searched for the girl's name. I learned that they're not friends on Facebook with my boyfriend. She's the girlfriend of my boyfriend's best friend who just died recently.
I was confused by the fact that he deleted their conversation immediately. Further, I didn't understand how on earth would a girl chat with a guy when he wasn't the only one he is drinking with. They're a circle and only my boyfriend got a 'sorry'.
I confronted my boyfriend and he told me his version of the story. They drank with his childhood friends and that girl was with them. The girl promised that the second batch of drinks will be on her. He explained that the girl messaged him because he was the one who treated them first.
I let it pass but this week he hang out with the same circle again even though it wouldn't give me peace. I don't know if I'm overreacting. Prohibiting him from hanging out with his friends is impossible and irrational. I don't know what to do. I just want to keep my cool but people keep on getting in my way.
Should I dump my boyfriend? Pretend like I don't care? Oh please don't say get another boyfriend. I wouldn't welcome the thought of being in a new relationship.
Please help me, God.
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Para saakin naman bilang lalaki din is hindi po ako approve na mag palitan ng account po kasi tayo ay may kanya kanyang privacy. kasi hindi naman sukatan yan kung mahal mo ang isang tao nasa pano mo ipakita sa kanya na totoo ang love mo. Sa amin naman ni renren ay nagkakaintindihan naman kami as long as may tiwala ako sa kanya at may tiwala siya sa akin. Kasi kung love mo ang isang tao dapat di ka gagawa ng mga bagay na ikakasakit niya. Yan lang po ang para saakin. I hope na maayos na yang problema niyo ngayon.