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Happy Sunday Read-fam!

It is a lazy sunday here in this part of the world and the rain pours just now at the time of writing. I'm at home and I like it here because I could be carefree. I wouldn't have to worry about what to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner because my mother got us. And I must say that my mother is pretty good in it, being a mother for 25 years made her best in doing the job. She likes it when she is in the kitchen. Sometimes, when she has nothing to do, she would cook food that comes to her mind.

I like being at home because I can sleep without distractions. There wouldn't be loud music from a phone of a roommate and there wouldn't be a sound of constant laughing of a roommate that video calls her friend at 6 in the morning. Haha.

I like being at home because I can be in my pajamas all day, ugly in peace. I wouldn't have to wear a lot and look good because my family knows me already. I wouldn't have to worry if my shirt is oversized and my hair isn't brushed.

I love being at home entirely. But I can't imagine being here all of the days of my life. I needed to work, move to another place and try something new. I need to feed myself of the things that excites and thrills me. Other than I need to help provide for my family as what is expected for every grown up individual. I need to be proud of myself too. I need to do things that my future self would thank me too. Conquering fears and jumping off cliffs but still going back alive.

Before, I had the difficulty of leaving my parent's house for college because I knew that the moment that I step out of the house, I would have a new life. I will spend a lot of my time in a boarding house with roommates and unknown people from college. But I thank God, she gave me roommates that were kind and easy to be with. They were all my older sisters who likes to look after me. Every week I would come home and I would feel the feeling that I miss something. I missed the times when we are eating dinner together as a family.

I used to wish that we live in the city where we can no longer rent for a boarding house because we can just walk from home to school everyday. I used to wish that we live in the city so my parents will be near while I'm studying college and I can hear their advices immediately. I used to wish that we live in the city so we can have mobile signal and it will just be easy for us to be reached if there are job opportunities. I used to wish that we live in the city so I can still taste mother's cooking and come home from work everyday.

But life is different. Our livelihood don't belong in the city and my parents don't like it there. So, I make do of what is available and make peace with my wishes that no matter how I badly want it,I won't get it because that's how life is.

To this day, it still pains me whenever I left home for a week of work. I know it is just easy for some and it is nothing compared to my sister's experiences. But we are all unique and we take things differently. I love being at home with my family but nothing will happen to me if I stay at home. I need to experience new things and I need develop values that would be essential for me to win in life.

As of today, I treasure the moments that I'm home with my parents, my brother and my niece. I savor the moment that I got to eat my mom's cooking and be comforted with our bed. I love to see how my father loves my niece dearly.

Thanks for reading! Until then!

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