My Rainbow Baby

Have you heard the term "Rainbow Baby"? This may be a new term especially for those who haven't experience a loss. But to those who have, like me, having a rainbow baby is a life-changing experience. It really is a rainbow feeling.

What is a Rainbow Baby?

A Rainbow Baby is defined as the baby born after losing a baby due to many reasons such as miscarriage, stillbirth, or neonatal death. From its word, Rainbow, the Rainbow Baby is set to give hope and bring happiness to the family. It comes from, "There is a rainbow after a stormy day." Just like in our lives, losing a baby is not every parent's dream. It is the worst nightmare of all. So having one is like seeing a new reason to love, to live. A different feeling of hope that comes after a dark, scary night.

My Rainbow Baby

I already wrote an article about my Lost Angel (feel free to click the link if you wanna read it). It was a devastating one. The pain is not easy to handle. The grieving, the memory will haunt you. If you are not brave, you will get lost. Glad that I was able to recover. I still miss my Lost Angel once in a while. I also think if she is here with us, it'll be more fun. But I have learned to accept that some things are not meant to happen as I wanted them. Some things are out of my hand, I don't have control over them.

It was mid of 2019 when we learned that I was carrying our Rainbow Baby. I was in training back then. We even joked about having a pregnant woman in our batch because almost all of us mostly felt sleepy and tired during the training. I even laughed at that thought without me realizing that I was the one carrying a baby at that time. It was the last week of our training when I decided to consult an OB-Gyne because I was feeling a bit different. The initial diagnosis was that I was on my 6th week of pregnancy but because it was too early for us to identify if it was really a baby, my OB advised me to have another ultrasound two weeks after to be sure.

To our surprise, it was confirmed. I am having a baby. MrPepper who was my fiance then was so happy about the news! Both families and friends were happy. I, myself, was over cloud nine too! But the journey was not easy. There were a lot of moments that I almost lost him. I had also made a lot of adjustments to my work. Plus, I also need to work on our wedding. The wedding was supposed to be last year, 2020, but because of what happened we decided to make it possible last October 2019. It was just a simple civil ceremony.

I was actually due on the third week of February 2020 but looks like Prince wants to see the world earlier that date. February 10, 2020, when Prince finally arrived at us. His cry sounds like music to my ears and he has the loudest cry among the babies there, according to the staff and midwives hahaha I am just beyond grateful because I was able to deliver him safe and healthy despite all the challenges that we've been through.

Fast forward, Prince is now 19th months old. A sweet, energetic, bubbly baby boy. He now knows how to hold a pen and draw some lines on his board and on his legs hahaha he is also a good helper. Every morning, once he wakes up he helps me clean his bed. Sometimes he helps me arrange the pillows but most of the time, he helps me folds the blankets. Yeah! He will get the blanket and will try to fold it on his own and he will give it to me afterward. He gives us a feeling of completeness. Bliss. Peace. Love.

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I have always dreamt of being a mother. It wasn't a success on the first but having Prince our Rainbow Baby made me realize that things happen for a reason and in His perfect time.

My Thoughts

Whether it is a Rainbow Baby or not, all babies deserve to be loved, cared and protected. To all the parents, please make sure that you will be able to provide all their necessities. It is beyond the material things, the feeling of being accepted, loved and protected is much important.

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